Written in very cursive script denoting the maturity and education of the author
I will have to admit that I am definitely feeling one hundred per cent better as I sit here in my office this morning. Yes, coffee tastes remarkably well and the occasional cigarette don’t hurt the body that much, I hope. It just feels so unbelievably peaceful and calm here in the house for the moment – the little guys must be asleep or Amyn has taken them out for a while to work in the garden, away from the house and out of the sewers where they will still go if we don’t keep a constant eye on them. They both seem to be rather fascinated with the fact that there are people down there and that they can still sneak in and blow up the fish without getting caught.
Here I sit, thinking again. Yesterday was my birthday and I will have to admit that getting one year older is one thing; however, I know that I am a lot wiser now than I was last year. I have everything here in my home that a man could ask for and I thank the Light every single day when I wake up with my Kaldorei in my arms. Am I happy? I would have to give that a resounding affirmative answer. I don’t think that I have ever been this content with my personal life and I hope that nothing tries to interfere with that aspect.
We didn’t have a large celebration or anything yesterday. We just had the immediate family here at the house to celebrate. The boys seemed to enjoy my birthday even more than I did, especially the little ones with the amount of cake and ice cream that they consumed. Gifts, well, Amyn gave me a beautiful new robe that she had made when she was out going through the shops here in Dalaran. Naturally, I’m not much of a robe wearer except for here at the house although I will have to admit that it is comfortable. I don’t know about anyone else because I’m not gauche enough to ask anyone, I don’t usually wear anything under that robe, kind of let the body breathe a bit.
I’m still sitting here shaking my head at my oldest son, Kaldor. He has definitely come a long way from when we first got him up here to Dalaran. He happens to be one of the highest, if not the highest producing employee that I have right now. He seems to be driven to the point that I am going to have a talk with him about over-working. He’s definitely growing in size, which I can see. Let’s just say that with all of his physical activity, he’s on his third set of armor in the last two months – constant exercise will do that for a fellow and I think I have quelled his libido a bit by giving him all of these contracts with short deadlines on them. However, Amyn is telling me that she thinks he is too much like me at this point in his life and will end up working himself to exhaustion if I don’t sit him down and change the pace that he is working.
I know that I have never seen a young fellow grasp the concepts of jousting the way that he has. However, I think he has reached the point that it is not just the competition that he sees, he has his own inner demons that he is fighting, and it has become not only a passion for him but an obsession. He acts as if he has to be the best at anything that he tries – he wants to be me. He is already competing in the Champions Ring, which did surprise me. I think I have seen him unmounted once. It did make me laugh when Amyn pointed this out and at the same time, it made me a little sad.
The kid has to know that there is more to life than work and success; however, I know how I was at that age. I want him to have the life I never had, to enjoy life to the fullest; however, don’t drive yourself to the point that all you can see are the goals that you have set for yourself. The price that I paid for having that attitude cost me a lot in the long term – tunnel vision is never good because you miss the things that really matter. Your life, your family and your friends are and should be of greater importance.
I’ll sit him down and talk to him this week if I can ever catch up with him when he’s not off working or I may just go out and track him down and join him for a few days to see how he is really working. I think that he is working too damned hard, actually.
Now, my second son, Vashlan. He is as different from his brother as day and night. Yes, he was getting a bit stout since he came to Dalaran because all he wanted to do were the chores that I gave him to do and to sit in the garden and read. Of course, while he’s reading, he was constantly eating. Now, I did send him out with Kaldor on his trips to help out and that seemed to run the fat off of him, however, he still wants to do things differently. Kal came to me the other night when he had gotten back from one of his trips; Vash had already retired for the night, and told me that he didn’t think that Vash was going to work out as a hunter. Well, there was no big surprise there for me either. He doesn’t have the drive or the desire for it.
I’ve watched this kid when he is here in Dalaran and he would much rather be tinkering with things or reading a book and mumbling things to himself. Yes, I’ve noticed he sits in the garden and mumbles things and he has gotten a wand from some place that he is using to make “things happen” as he describes it. What does surprise me is that he hasn’t come to either his Mother or I to discuss his interests. Kaldor said that Vash was afraid of how we would react. I don’t want my son to be afraid of me, I’m not some monster that will chastise him for following a different path than what either his Mother or I thought he should. Amyn is pretty liberal minded as well. I wonder where this magic bent has come from. I have no idea what my biological parents were like and Amyn’s parents seem pretty normal to me. Her Mother is a druid and her Father is a hunter, how off the wall is that?
I guess that Amyn and I will have to sit the young fellow down and talk to him and try to get him to open up with us. I don’t have a problem with having a mage in the family at all. It would definitely be a bit different than what I might have expected but there is nothing wrong with it. He’s my son, he can do what he wants to do that will make him happy and it doesn’t matter what other people have to think about it.
I suppose I ought to talk to Raleth and see if he can recommend someone or a place for training. From what Kaldor has told me, the kid is pretty much self-taught and has exhibited some pretty powerful stuff for one that is untrained. I know I’m sitting here kind of chuckling because he has apparently learned how to “sheep” things if he’s occupied with something else at the time. I know Kaldor was a bit surprised when this happened when they were apparently involved in a bit of a scuffle with a mob of trolls. What can I say? Not a whole lot.
I will have to admit that I fully intend on letting the children choose their own paths as I am sure that was and is Amyn’s intent as well. We definitely do have an interesting brood and I wouldn’t trade it for all of the money in Azeroth.
I wish that Amyn would think more about having another baby, however, I get the distinct impression that she would rather wait a while. Well, she has her mind on this Sindorei wedding and is constantly asking questions about where we could have it and if we could invite all of our friends. Of course, the gown, the wedding gown – she wants it to be simple, yet elegant in the Sindorei fashion. I did have quite the chuckle the other night when she was talking about the fact that it had to be white because that symbolizes virginity.
Okay, it really made me laugh because we did add a bit of fun to our foreplay last night. We were playing The Ranger and The Virgin. Oh, what a hoot that was! I was laughing so hard that I am afraid that we had to start over several times, which isn’t all that bad either. Amyn really seemed to enjoy all of the teasing and taunting she could get away with, being the Virgin, however, as we all know, she ended up getting “deflowered” several times. That’s the main reason I was so late getting out of bed this morning – her virginity came back after we slept for a while. Oh, the kisses, the corny things we said and how finally she would relent and let the Ranger have his way with her after he showered her with rose petals and kissed her deeply. Oh Light!! I hope she doesn’t share this stuff with Lali or I’ll be hearing all kinds of teasing the next time I see Raleth. It was fun and I will have to admit that it was some of the tenderest lovemaking we’ve done in a while. I hope the Sentinel shows up in the bedroom tonight, that’s a bit more like it.
Amyn is constantly full of surprises. I know that with me having my mind on other things, I’ve missed out on a lot of what makes her the woman she is today. She has a wonderful sense of humor, a warm, caring and loving Mother to all of the children. She has always been the best lover that I have ever taken to my bed and why I spent all of those years sampling the other fare is beyond my comprehension at this point. Yes, I am treating the two younger ones better than I was there for a while because I realized that it is a package deal. The two oldest may be of my blood and Amyn’s, however, the two youngest are full Kaldorei in every way you could imagine. I love them as much as I do my own.
I am a bit concerned about Faendra these days. She’s getting to act as if she is very sad and a bit on the lonely side. Of course, she talks to Felaran quite a bit about things that she has on her mind. It seems that Dawnglory has been flirting with the little thing quite a bit and I’ve known that she has a crush on him since she first met him. He’s everything thing that a girl could want in a Ranger. Tall, good-looking, that long blonde hair and an infectious laugh. However, he has one flaw; he likes women, all women. I think I will suggest to her that she take some time off and go back to visit some of her friends in Silvermoon. It’s been a while since she’s seen them and I think that the change might do her some good and she can talk to them about “things” better than she can Felaran. Poor Fel hasn’t had any good experiences when it comes to men, I don’t think, although the last one was kind of a special fellow and I really liked him a lot. They would have made a good pairing. I was sorely disappointed for her when that didn’t work out.
Well, these contracts aren’t going away when I stare at them. I think that I’ll call Dawnglory in to help me out with some of them and start distributing them to the employees. It will also give me a chance to talk to him about my sister, he needs to ease up on her – she’s still young and as far as I know, she’s never been involved with anyone that she’s told me about. Plus, I’m not sure I’d want him as a relative, he’s my best friend.
Ah, Amyn and the boys must be back for lunch, it is that time, and I can hear her telling the boys about how to make proper kimchi. Agatha just knocked on the door to let me know that it’s time to eat. I don’t know how in the name of all that is holy how they can eat that stuff, it smells bad, it looks worse than something I have run over with one of my mounts.
Well, Pan just heard “food” and he’s out the door and heading to the kitchen to see if he can get a handout. He’s in need of some exercise too, plus, he’s starting to eyeball Amyn’s cat and Kaldor’s like they are part of a menu of the feline romantic sort.