Well, I’m sitting here in Stormwind again and staring out at the harbor, watching the ships come in and leave, the water sparkling in the early morning sun. No, I’m not bored, I’m just, I don’t know. I’m trying to figure a few things out and trying to balance my brain a bit. That shouldn’t take too long.
Josie came to Dalaran and I will have to admit that I was so flustered that she actually came all that way to see me. We had so much fun, just walking around and talking. I held her hand when we walked, showed her all of my favorite places and answered her questions to the best of my ability. I was really nervous and I don’t know why.
I’m usually very confident in what I’m doing and she isn’t exactly my first girlfriend, however, she is my first human/worgen girlfriend. I like talking to her and the way that she asks about things sometimes is almost hilarious. She’s lead a somewhat sheltered life, I think. She is just so tiny when she stands next to me that I just want to instinctively shelter her and protect her from things. Maybe I’m being stupid and that is the problem. She wore a beautiful red gown that definitely looked wonderful on her with that dark hair. I was truly mesmerized by her appearance and the way that she just seemed to be so curious about so many things.
Now, I’m sitting here at my window in Stormwind and wondering if I did something wrong because I haven’t seen or heard from Josie. I know that I wasn’t as affectionate with her as I wanted to be but I knew that she was in a new place and it might be inappropriate to her. I did want to give her a kiss when we standing on the tower overlooking the city, however, this mage kept popping out of the doorway and staring at us, which definitely put me off. I know she probably thinks that I didn’t care enough to be affectionate, that wasn’t the case at all, and I just didn’t want to get “sheeped” when I was out with my girl.
I’m debating on whether I should just go to the shop and talk to her, regardless of the fact that it is a place of business and I might upset her bosses. Yeah, I know, they might get angry with me too and it doesn’t really matter. What really matters is that I want to see her again and I’m not a coward.
So what if that Harrier is a cranky old elf. He can just go stuff himself, in my opinion. He’s already got the Boss wrapped around his little finger; he shouldn’t even be looking at Josie unless he’s some kind of pervert that has to have all the females in a hundred yards at his disposal. I know there are guys like that and I hope he isn’t one of them. I’ll just chalk up his crankiness to the lack of fiber in his diet or something.
Yes, I have a weird ethnic heritage, however, that hasn’t stopped me before. I don’t know why it’s different this time. Yes, I like Josie a lot and care about her a great deal. Do I love her? I don’t even know what that really means at this point. I had a crush on a girl in Shattrath and thought my life had ended when she started seeing one of my friends, however, I didn’t die from it.
Let’s just say that I am confused as to what I should do. I’ve done all of the things that I think that I should. I’ve sent her flowers, given her gifts, taken her to dinner and now here I sit wondering what else I should do without scaring her completely off.
I know my Mother would be giggling hysterically if she knew how screwed up my mind was on this matter. She’s been down the road a few times herself; however, she has always been in love with my Father, even when they weren’t living together.
I guess the wedding they had planned got kind of shifted around for some reason or other and they had some very quiet little ceremony in Feralas. I wonder what happened. I didn’t even have time to get there to see it, I just know that they got married. My Sindorei Father and my Mother. I sure hope that Fnor doesn’t do something stupid and hurt her again because I don’t know how I would feel about it.
I do have a feeling that there is something wrong in Dalaran with my Mom. She won’t tell me what’s going because she said that I just need to concentrate on the business right now. She says that Fnor and she will get everything sorted out. I just hope to Elune that she isn’t pregnant again, that would be the icing on the cake as far as I am concerned. I mean, I know they do “it” but I don’t think that I am ready for another sibling.