Heading back to Panderia


Written in very cursive script denoting the maturity and education of the author.

November 26th

Dear Journal,

At least there were no tearful good-byes this morning when I left, which made it a little bit easier for me to go back to my duties in Panderia.  I did do it right this time by getting ready to go before the sun even came up because it allowed Amyn and I to have some private moments together without the rest of the family being there.  Just being able to hold her in my arms and tell her how much I love her without other people standing around.  A man and a woman need those moments.

I enjoyed my time in Dalaran, spending time with the family and actually getting to know my in-laws a little bit better.  My Father-in-law is really kind of a special fellow and seems to understand how it is that I have to go off to fight like this because he says he’s been through it for centuries – just when you thought they’d got it right, another conflict will start up.  I really enjoyed the time that I got to spend with him, his telling me of Amyn when she was a little girl really was surprising and delightful – seems she was very headstrong even as a child.

I always hate leaving Amyn behind but it seems like it is harder to do the longer we’ve been together and the older we get.  We’ve been together long enough to be able to communicate without using words sometimes, just a look or a gesture is sufficient for us to understand.  I still think about all of the wasted years that I spent trying to keep her hidden and trying live a separate life from her, it was definitely a waste of time on my part.  I should have realized that this is how it was meant to be from the first day that I laid eyes on her. She is very much my love and my life, which I hope she never forgets that.

I will have to admit that I did notice some changes in Dalaran on this visit which causes me to wonder if we shouldn’t start thinking about relocating the family again.  Nothing openly hostile towards us, however, there is an undercurrent there that makes one feel a little less comfortable.  Yes, we’re pushing the boundaries by living there openly, a mixed race couple with their offspring.  No one has said anything to me about it, it’s just a feeling that I have.  When I start getting these gut feelings, I usually pay close attention to them. I suppose that I could start scouting out some of the villages in Panderia to see if they would be comfortable there – of course, that doesn’t exactly keep them out of harm’s way, in fact, it does the exact opposite.

I’ve always felt comfortable living under the auspices of the Kirin Tor in Dalaran, the mages have always been there and have kept things pretty much in order.  It’s an open city, however, with the political unrest after Theramore, I shouldn’t be all that surprised that there are changes going on even if they are under the surface for the moment.   I wish that I had had the time to search out Raleth and Lali to see how they were faring and to talk to Raleth privately.  I wonder if he has the same feelings that I do about the city at the moment?

I do still have the properties in Shattrath and Nagrand as some of the options as to where I could move the family if need be.  It might be a little bit crowded for a while until I get the house enlarged at the lake in Nagrand.  I guess I can start checking on how much it would cost to enlarge the house anyway because there is barely enough room  for Amyn and the children there right now.

Living in Shattrath or Nagrand will probably bring back some memories for Amyn and the boys since they have spent most of their time in that area.  It’s also where Amyn lost her Kaldorei mate a couple of years ago.  We briefly discussed it, however, nothing firm was put into place.  I wouldn’t worry that much about Vash and Kal going back there to live, however, the little guys would have a huge adjustment to make and I’m sure it would bring up the memories of their Father more sharply.  It’s something to think about and I’m sure that we will be discussing this a bit more.

I know that I am going to try to get back to Dalaran more frequently now because I feel like my command can move along in my absence without too much trouble.  Of course, I did leave Dawnglory in Dalaran for a few more days – he is still trying to court my baby sister and he had better be damned serious with that or he and I will have another dispute.  I’m sure that he got the gist of things when he and I had that battle in Silvermoon a few months back.

I can’t stop Faendra from sleeping with Dawnglory but I can sure make life complicated for both of them if they just decide to treat this as a dalliance.  Yes, I will admit that I had some other plans for Faendra in the regard of marriage to a Silvermoon family, however, an arranged marriage can be a miserable existence if there aren’t the proper feelings there.  I’ve seen several marriages fall apart in a matter of weeks due to things not being in the proper order.

Oh well, I guess it’s time for me to mount up and get back with the troops, I’ve lingered long enough here in the village to gather my thoughts and put my serious face back on.  Pan seems like he is ready to get out in the field again, he definitely loves the sport here – he seems like he’s a younger cat when we’re here.  I suppose I should let Amyn know that Lumina might be having some offspring in the near future because those two animals sure were giving it a go when I walked into the stables this morning.

I already miss Amyn more than words can express.  How is it possible that a man can love a woman even more as time goes on – the passion is still there, however, the depth of my feelings always seems to go deeper every time I go home to her. 


Fnor Morningstar

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