Getting Back TO Being More Than A Mother and A Wife

January 24th

Dear Journal,

Well, I guess that the trip to Feathermoon was worthwhile, after all, I wanted to get back into the action and see what others were seeing in the world right now.  It was foolish of me to even speculate that I would get sent to Panderia, which will be my goal for the future.

Of course, I know that my Sindorei will not be pleased with the fact that I have taken the boys to my parents for a while with the promises that I will be returning to see them every few days.  I couldn’t just sit in Shattrath, mending socks, cleaning house and just waiting for his return.  He had said that he would not get another long leave until Summer – that is a long time away, months away.  I love my home and my children and I love my husband more than life itself, however, I’m not good at waiting with nothing to occupy my mind or my body.  I needed something more out of life than to just be the good wife and stay home. Of course, I think the thing that is bothering me the most is that my husband and my son are both out there in harm’s way while I was just sitting in Shattrath with the two youngest boys.

Of course, the house in Shattrath is locked up, the house in Nagrand is finally finished and I had started moving things over there.  That’s when it hit me the hardest – I was trying to make it a home when some of the important parts were missing.  My mate wasn’t there and the house, even though it is beautiful and has everything a Sindorei could ever want to have – mine wasn’t there to enjoy it with me.

So, I’m off to do my duty in Mount Hyjal and eventually I will be able to join my Sindorei in Panderia. I am very excited about joining the other Sentinels there.  At least it isn’t that far away from Darnassus and I can make frequent trips to see my family – my two youngest sons and my parents. 

I did write a letter to Fnor to let him know what I was doing and I am sure that there is going to be a loud explosion from a very angry Sindorei in Panderia.  He always tells me that he works so hard for things to keep the children safe and to make sure that “we” as a family have everything that we want or need.  I know he loves us, however, there is more to life out there than just having things – there is adventure, there is danger and just taking part in the things that are currently going on in the world means something.  I have never been one to sit on my hands and do nothing.

Yes, yes, I do run the business out of Stormwind, however, Maggie has done a marvelous job in keeping things running when I have been unable to go there for days.  Which I need to stop there today to go through the contracts and see what I have to disburse to the other employees.  I should explain that Maggie is Romey’s sister – Romey had some other things she wanted to do for a while because she felt like I do – being stuck in a rut is not a good thing if it makes you unhappy.

I hope Fnor isn’t too angry with me, he just has to understand that I couldn’t just stay home for however long this war is going on.  I need to find my way to him in Panderia, I just have too.

 

Amyn

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