New Journal, New Life and New World

February 11th

Dear Journal,

I suppose it was bound to happen one of these days, however, it does upset me that I have misplaced my journal, someone appropriated it for some reason or I just lost it.  It was pretty beat-up anyway and Kal had given me a new journal for the holidays from Dalaran before the trouble happened up there.  I know that I will leave this one here in the house in Halfhill that we share together. It’s a beautiful green leather with gold trim book – even the edges of the pages are trimmed in gold.  It’s much too rich looking for someone like me, however, it was a gift that I could hardly refuse, plus, he gave some new quills and ink.  Such a thoughtful man and such a good friend.

Oh, I should say, I guess, since I’m starting completely over from scratch that my name is Kaelendra Nightshade and I am a Sentinel stationed in Panderia for the time being.  There is  a war going on and this is where we’ve been sent to quell the Horde incursion into this beautiful country that neither faction should be fighting over – it’s not even our country.  I’m of average height and weight for a Kaldorei female, I think, although I feel like my hips could be a bit smaller.

I am currently living on a farm with a fellow by the name of Kaldor Shadowmoon instead of staying in camp all of the time.  No, we’re not mated although I wouldn’t mind it at all.  He’s a half-breed which would definitely be something that a family might object too, however, I don’t have a family to speak of. I think those green flecks in his eyes make him even more handsome and mysterious and definitely more intriguing to gaze upon.  That’s just my opinion and I don’t care if his Father is a Ranger with the Horde because I don’t question Kal’s loyalty to our faction at all.

It was funny how we met when we were being transported to Panderia, it was all craziness and fighting. Unfortunately, when we landed, I ended up with a slight wound and Kal carried me to the healers in the next village. Not very romantic of a start to a relationship – you either lived through that initial battle or you didn’t.  The whole thing was insane and I honestly don’t think that any of us were quite prepared for it.

We actually became good friends over the next few weeks because Kal was ordered to stay with our group of Sentinels.  I guess they thought that if he had any confusion about his loyalties that we would discover it faster and dispatch him quickly.  Of course, all of the women were just looking at him all of the time and I could tell that he was feeling a bit awkward with all of the gazes that he was getting at that point.  He said he already had a girl in Stormwind, which sorely disappointed quite a few of the girls, including me.

He and I talked quite a bit in camp and occasionally when we went out on patrol together.  We both love to hunt, fish and take leather, so, it was nice to have someone to be out in the field together when we were dong the things that we liked to do.

I didn’t have many friends to start with when I got here and I think that hasn’t changed that much since I moved to Halfhill with Kal.  I’m sure that there is some resentment that I am “sleeping” with the enemy almost.  I know that some of them are just jealous because he and I are friends and they will just have to get over it, our friendship or whatever else it might become is very important to the two of us. 

I really hadn’t planned on the relationship going anywhere to start with.  I was ordered to keep my eye on him and to make sure that he wasn’t some kind of Horde spy.  Yes, I was supposed to watch him and report back to the commanders if he seemed a bit dicey with his loyalties.  I’ve never told him that was why I made friends with him and I don’t think that I ever will – how could he trust me after I’ve done something like that?

Oh, I guess I should say something about my family.  I have none to speak of. I was one of those Kaldorei children that people just accepted as being around.  I have no idea who my parents were and sometimes think that I might have been an orphan of some kind.  I lived with different families over the years as a fosterling. It’s not all that unusual for this to happen to children in Dolonaar, some of us just float from place to place because maybe my Mother was a Sentinel and I was some kind of mistake, I don’t know.

I know that Kal likes to talk about his strange family and I just sit here and listen.  He doesn’t realize how lucky he is to know whom they are.  So what if his Dad is a Sindorei and his Mother really is a rogue Sentinel that took him as her mate and lover- even had children, which back in those days was more than daring, it was kind of stupid.  She could have been killed as a traitor and the children killed because they were an abomination in the sight of both races.  Somehow she and her mate managed to raise both Kal and his brother.  I know that he loves his family above all else in the world.

I actually have met Kal’s grandparents long ago.  I think I may have even met his Mother when I was younger too.  I haven’t told Kal that either because it would be kind of awkward, I think.  I might tell him one of these days.  I doubt that they even remember me, anyway, it was a long time ago and I’ve grown-up quite a bit since then, plus, I have my tattoos covering a lot of my face.

I know that Kal and I enjoy the farm and all of Panderia that we have seen together.  Oh, we go out quite a bit to do our own hunting and fishing.  I guess his family has a business in Stormwind that sells some of the leather we gather and the things we make.  I know that I get paid extremely well for what I send to them.  I think that I might even be on the payroll although I’ve never formally agreed to anything, Kal just ships the stuff off and we get money back.  I think it’s a nice setup.

Yes, Kal really does or did have a girl in Stormwind, however, he hasn’t seen or heard from her in quite awhile which makes him sad sometimes.  I know that I act like it doesn’t bother me because I don’t have a right to be jealous of his relationships, I just wish he were more involved with me like that.  He’s tall, handsome, very caring and tenderhearted and would do anything for me.  That other girl was a fool to let him get away from her.  He used to talk about her quite a bit and I found it real hard not to tell him that I thought that it was kind of boring to hear about another woman, however, I didn’t say that, I just listened.

Oh yes, I’m sure that some of the other people around here think that Kal and I are sleeping together and that doesn’t really matter.  We sometimes sleep in the same bed when the nights are cold or crawl under the same furs to lie together when we’re out in the field, however, we haven’t “done it” as they say.  It’s tempting and I wouldn’t mind if it happened because my feelings are a lot more than I’ve told him.  He thinks we’re just “friends and partners”, I would like for it to be more.

I know that I made a huge mistake by inviting a girl from camp over to see the farm and to have dinner.  She did nothing but flirt with Kal, right in front of me, which wasn’t very nice and made Kal feel real uncomfortable.  I could tell how it affected him because he got real quiet.  He’s never quiet.  Well, Phaendra won’t be getting another invitation from me to come for a visit again unless she is a bit more aware that what she was doing wasn’t very nice. 

Oh, I do have to add that our farm is very close to Kal’s Dad’s farm.  So, I do get to see the Commander now and again, however, I’ve never talked with him.  He and Kal always wander away out in the fields to do their talking.  It’s kind of dangerous for them to even act like they know each other much less consort in conversations where it’s obvious that Kal speaks very fluent Sindorei.  Oh, we now have a neighbor between us that Kal knows and it is a friend of his Father’s. 

This is a very forward Sindorei and he’s constantly waving and smiling.  Kal even told me that the fellow was outside in the nude the other day sitting on his porch.  I guess I’ll have to remember to put more clothes on myself when I’m out working in the fields with Kal just in case this Dawnglory fellow is as much of a womanizer that Kal says he is.  I’ll admit I wear a lot less than I normally would when I’m out there sweating – just to tempt Kal.

Speaking of which, I had better close this for now and put it away before Kal gets back from the market.



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