*Blunt Language and some swearing – please don’t read if you’re easily offended by this*
I don’t know why I was so fucking afraid to tell Romy how I felt about her because it wall turned out well. I know that I have been sweating and worrying myself to death with the thoughts of having her walk out on me after I told her that I loved her. I think its love; it has to be because it can’t just be lust – that usually wears pretty thin after a month of two and the fucking feelings that I have run a lot deeper than just a roll in the hay.
I know that we decided to meet at the Jade Temple last night when I finally broke away from the base camp for a while. We have both been so damned busy packing and getting things set up so that we can leave for Northrend. Well, at least now we don’t have the damned time limit as to how long we can stay there either – that’s another story that I’ll get too in a minute.
I had been out scouting around the Temple a few times and had found a nice little spot where we could sit down and actually talk without fear of interruption or getting fucking sidetracked by another romp in the bed either. We needed to sit down and talk to clear the air of the tension that had been building between us for the last couple of weeks. I know that I was afraid that if I said anything wrong that I would scare the woman off. Neither one of us is overly fond of the idea of a formal marriage or anything like that nor do I know that we would both have taken off like scared fucking rabbits or something if someone said those words to either one of us. Anyway, I had found this spot and it was going to be the place where we aired the family laundry so to speak.
I could tell that Romy was as nervous as a cat walking a tightrope over a river and I asked her what the problem was. I had almost thought now that she was feeling physically better that she had rethought her decision to live with me and wanted to leave, curtailing our relationship in the process. Well, come to find out, she had been having the same feelings that I had had over that last few weeks and the same kind of fear. We were both afraid that one of us would leave after our feelings were disclosed due to our own passed experiences. I know that I was very nervous about what she was going to say and when she finally got it all blurted out, I could feel the relief going through my body like a tidal wave. I know that she really must have felt the same way when I confessed what my feelings were towards her as well.
I don’t know why in the hell this was so hard to talk about. By the Light! We have talked about all kinds of things that would have had other people blushing and some of them actually running away. I mean, we even talk about what positions we like to do in bed and when we like to just do other things when we’re in the bed. I’ll admit that some of them have been rather inventive and quite pleasurable to the two of us.
We’ve talked about her family and their sexcapades and we’ve talked about my lack of family and how that would impact her Silvermoon connections. It sounds like her Dad; even with all of his supposed dignity was quite the rounder when he was alive and able to nail everything that lay down long enough. I suppose that Romy may have more half-siblings that she might even know about. I’m sure that even as a Death Knight that his libido isn’t exactly silent either – I’ve heard tales about those Death Knight guys going at it for days. Whoa!
I’m sure happy that we had a chance to air this personal laundry before we left on our trip to Northrend because I am sure that it would have put a damper on things with that underlying current to deal with. At least she knows that I love her and that I am not planning on taking off anytime in the near future if ever. I know that I have never been happier in my life with someone living with me – well, this is the first time that I have actually had someone living me like this for any length of time.
I’m sitting here this morning and watching her sleep, I am sure that she is pretty well worn out and needs the extra sleep because we were quite active last night. She wants to start a family as soon as possible, I think, and we were going at it hot and heavy for several hours last night. I know that neither one of us is going to moving along at a fast clip today, so many muscles are still aching in my body right now that I would almost sell my soul for an hour or two in the hot springs. Oh, I have no real feelings about starting a family right now; however, if it makes her happy, then it will make me happy as well. Oh shit, not to mention that it might make her family shut up about needing to increase the family bloodline.
Oh, when I was in Krasarang yesterday, Fnor and I had a nice long talk. I had heard about the attack that he had undergone in the Jade Forest, there was no mention of Amyn being hurt with the reports that I had heard, naturally. However, I found out that Amyn had been hurt very badly, they lost a child that she was carrying and that Fnor had gotten her to agree to go stay with her parents for a while to recover.
Well, that was a huge shock for me with just that news. The next bit of news that he gave me was even a greater shock because he had decided to leave the Rangers and go back to running the business again, like he has always done in the past. I’m a business partner with Morningstar Enterprises and have had an active role with the firm all of these years and I sure as shit didn’t want to get stuck getting promoted to the new Commander when he left. I sure as shit didn’t want to serve as a commander under Hellscream’s leadership – besides, I’m sure that people have figured out that I am not overly fond of that asshole anyway. I know that if I saw the bastard getting attacked, I’d probably stand around and watch and root for the people attacking him – that kind of narrows down my feelings on the subject, I think.
Of course, I ‘m used to making life decisions on my own and didn’t realize that maybe I should talk to Romy about it before I fired off my resignation to take effect immediately. Luckily for me, she was having the same thoughts about leaving the Rangers as well, which means that I will be firing off her resignation while we are on our trip. I can’t see why they would get turned down either and I am prepared to buy us both out if I have too. If there is anything that appeases the assholes in Orgrimmar, it’s money.
I will have to start thinking of someone else other than myself sometimes, fuck, that’s going to be an adjustment that is going to be hard for me. I’ve always been one to run free and not really care too much about others except for my baby sister.
This reminds me, I need to take some time to go see her in Silvermoon when Romy and I are visiting her family. Felessa’s wedding is at the end of the summer and I am sure that Agatha has everything under control there along with all of the crap that is going on with Faendra’s wedding around the same time. I know girls like to have all of those parties and they like to get to know the families that they will be joining on a permanent basis.
I am in hopes that when the girls meet Romy that Faendra won’t make a scene of any kind. I know she’s had this obsession or crush on me for a long time, however, she because she wants something to happen doesn’t mean that it will. I know that Romy will be able to handle the situation regardless of how Faendra acts, however, I don’t know if I will be able to control my temper if Fae makes some stupid comments.
Poor Felessa will go along with whatever I have decided to do because she knows that I have her best interests at heart. I also need to make sure that she has sufficient funds to help her get her dresses made and the other things that girls need for weddings. Romy already knows that I am arranging a wedding for my sister and she hasn’t really said much about it, I wonder how she really feels about it. I might have to ask her about that before we arrive in Silvermoon, I don’t need to get blindsided by her feelings if they are negative.
Damn, I don’t know how I got so lucky to find a woman like Romy. That chance flirtation in Orgrimmar in front of the Auction House has really grown into something that I never expected. I know at the time that I was thinking that it was going to be one of those rolls in the hay and off I’d go, however, this woman has captured my heart. Funny how the Fates have seemed to intercede and to make my life better and I hope that Romy feels the same way too.
I just hope that things will continue on a positive note and that we can find the happiness that we both want so badly. If we happen to have kids, so be it and if we don’t, we can enjoy the time trying.
Crap, with all of the changes going on, I need to find out how much longer Fnor will be in Pandaria for the time being. I know that he had promised to keep an eye on Jogu and the farm; however, with everything going on, he may not be here either. I suppose that I ought to see if I can get in touch with Fnor’s kid and see if he might be able to keep an eye on things or something. I just don’t want to delay the trip with Romy any longer than I have too. I suppose I could do some asking around to see if I can find someone that won’t steal me blind. I know Jogu does a great job here on the farm unsupervised for a few days, I just wonder how he will handle things for a couple of weeks?
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