*Language – some swearing. If this offends you, please don’t read it.*
Well, I’m not going to say that I am fucking surprised with the mail that I got today, however, it is really going to put all of our fucking plans into a tailspin. Who the hell was I to think that things would stay like they were for a long period of time. Here I fucking sit with a woman that I love more than life itself, a baby daughter that is more precious to me than all of the gold in the world, a farm to run…and finally a life that wasn’t all blood, guts and gore. A life where I could settle down and be completely happy with the way that things are.
I know that when I say the envelope, I knew fucking then and there that things were going to change and there wasn’t a damned thing that I can do about it. Luckily, I didn’t see anything in the mail for Romy or she might be going off the deep end along with me.
Why now? We’re just getting things put into order so that we can get married and give Mirrin a happy home and place that she can be proud of, parents that are married and that love her dearly. Why now? I know that I had just about convinced Romy to just pack things up and we could just go fill the paperwork out in Silvermoon and call it good. We don’t need a ceremony that I am aware of unless it will make her feel better. I just want that piece of paper in my hand so that I know that we are recognized as a couple, a married couple, in the eyes of those pratts back in Silvermoon. I know that I don’t’ want my daughter to go through the things that I went through because I couldn’t prove my lineage. It’s not right for a girl to have to suffer through that. I know what poor Felessa went through with it and I won’t have a child of mine go through the same cruelties that I know she suffered through.
Now, I know that Fnor has already gotten his letter from the Regent and is already making his preparations to go back in to do his duty and it makes me feel bad because I really don’t want to go. I don’t want to go marching off to another problem area and miss out on my little girl growing up. I want to see her walking, I want to be able to teach her how to ride her first mount, there are so many firsts that I won’t have with her if I am called away. I wish there was something that I could do to keep from having to separate myself from my fucking family.
I haven’t shown Romy the letter yet and I sure have tried to cover up the fact that I am more than a little bit upset by it. I know that she is going to take the news hard because I did. It just doesn’t seem fair that someone can yank you away from your fucking life and force you into something that just might bet your ass killed or something worse. Oh, I know that wars have been going on since the beginning of time and that millions of people have left their families and hundreds of thousands have died and never got to live out their lives.
I know that we’ve been living in a Fool’s Paradise these last few months here in Pandaria, however, it was the kind of paradise that I was getting very used too. I was out of uniform , finally, for the first time in my adult life and I had a woman and baby that I could spend time with. I didn’t have to follow someone’s orders and I could do pretty much as I pleased. If I wanted to spend all day out in the fields and working on the farm, I could do that. If I wanted to go off hunting and spend a couple of days fishing, I could do that. Now, here I am sitting knowing full well that I am going to have to fall under someone else’s schedule and demands other than my own. Well, it’s not like Mirrin didn’t demand all of the time in the world sometimes and she was a rough taskmaster at three in the morning when she wanted a diaper changed.
Naturally, it’s fucking raining outside and I am not in the proper frame of mind to go out and work in the fields in the mud right now. Normally, I enjoy the rain and the respite from the physical labor, however, this morning, I am having a tough time trying not to burst out in tears because it is just fucking depressing the shit out of me. Today was a day that I had planned on taking Romy and Mirrin to the Jade Temple and we could have a little picnic together and let Mirrin play in the water. Yes, she’s a water baby, just like her Dad and it does make me smile when I see that she loves it as much as I do.
Maybe we can still take that time to try to do a picnic and maybe that would be a good time to let Romy read this letter that I have stashed away in my belt pouch. I don’t know how she is going to react and I don’t know how I am going to react either. We had so many plans and so many hopes pinned together for the next few months. Who knows, we may already have another baby on the way, it’s all up to the Fates. If Romy starts crying, I’ll probably join her in that too.
Naturally, I ‘m sure that all of the rumors that we have been hearing are all over the market today and I bet that some of the people that I know have already gotten their orders to report back for duty. Report back to Silvermoon it says, report back to be directed to our new assignments. I know that if Fnor can do anything about it, he will definitely have me at his side again.
You know, I have spent more time with that man than I have with my own sister. We have been together ever since I joined the Rangers all those years ago and we have quite a friendship that has seen a lot of mileage.
Damn it!! Just when I thought life was going to be good, there just has to be another conflict somewhere that the Horde has to go get involved. There are times I wonder if the powers to be have a some kind of death wish for all of the races.
Well, I guess I should go do something constructive at least. All of this internal ranting and raving isn’t going to solve a damned thing, I’ll just have to figure out how we’re going to deal with it Hopefully, Romy and I can get married before I have to go charging off, I’d like my daughter to at least know that her parents were married in the eye of the authorities if something should happen to me.
Owner of Plantation