Written in very cursive script denoting the maturity and education of the author
Yes, I am still stuck in this place called Draenor and on the frozen tundra in charge of a Garrison that I had no desire to take over nor feel the need to grow attached too. So far it appears as though I am one of the few Rangers here and that is rather disappointing because with what is going on in this land would be ideal for Rangers because of the way that we have been trained to fight all of these years. I have put in request after request to have more Rangers put under my command, however, that seems to be falling on deaf ears.
I spend more time out in the field actually working, which is the one thing that I can say that I enjoy about this new command. The micromanaging of the day to day functions should be passed off to an adjutant and not placed solely upon my shoulders because there are other things that need my attention. Of course, it is required that I visit the mines, stables, barns, forge and herb gardens daily to make my presence known because that is what I have been ordered to do, not that it is actually needed because my people do seem to know what they are doing. I guess what the higher ups are thinking is that my presence is supposed to keep my soldiers’ morale up or something of that nature. I suppose it does because I feel like we are definitely overstepping our resources at this point.
Here it is Winter Veil again and it appears doubtful that we will have the family gathering as we had planned in Nagrand this year – our Nagrand, not this Nagrand in this place. I know that I have always looked forward to gathering friends and family in one area for the holidays so that we can at least act like a family. I know that from the message that I finally got from Kal is that he and Kae will be here in Draenor in the next few weeks and they are making all of the preparations for that. I just wish that we could stop everything for a little while, just to rest, relax and enjoy our families because you have no idea if that will be the same next year.
I think that I am getting too old for this stuff. I know that I feel both mentally and physically weary to the point that all I want to do when I stop for the day is to fall into bed and sleep. I long for those long luxurious days when I could stay in bed if I wanted too, read a book, have breakfast in bed with my wife – yes, just having my wife in my bed would e a plus here in Draenor. I’m just not feeling the compelling urge to get up and head out to fight for something that should have never been in the first place. I know we’re protecting Azeroth by being here and my big question is, who is taking care of Azeroth while we’re here in this land, this place and this time?
I know that it probably sounds rather odd to say, however, I am actually getting homesick for the things that I used to absolutely hate. I miss Silvermoon and I miss the people that I have working for me back home. I do miss Agatha, I miss those conversations that we used to have when she knew that I was having a particularly rough time dealing with a few things. She was my rock in a lot of ways with just her daily presence. Now, there is no Agatha here in Draenor and I’m not sure that she has returned to her post in Silvermoon yet after taking her leave.
I definitely miss the chattering of Zippie and the way that she always seemed to see the brighter side of things more often than not. She does work magic with our accounts and I will definitely have to take some time to spend with her when I can get a leave from this place.
I know that I am going to put in for a leave here soon because I do need a break from this constant upheaval that seems to be the norm here. I know that I have been in the military for most of my life, however, I don’t think that I have ever been in this kind of situation before where none of us really know or really understands exactly what we’re doing here. Yes, we stopped the Iron Orcs from invading Azeroth and now we’re doing a holding action as well as trying to level out the playing field a bit more with the Draeni – some are allies and some are not, it’s always a guessing game when you approach an encampment that you’ve not visited before. Yes, Draenor is a savage land and the people in it are just as savage sometimes. It’s just another war that I have no idea why we are truly fighting it – are we here again to take the resources that these people have for the Horde’s selfish gains or are we truly trying to help these people as we try to protect what we hold dear in this life?
I know that I have actually patrolled as far as Nagrand and it is just as beautiful to me now as it was in my own home world. The similarities are very noticeable to me and I have no trouble navigating through the area although I will admit that it feels very déjà vu at times. I found where Amyn and I have our house in Outland and here it is a fortress near the lake that keeps everything away. I know that our house is right next to the lake and if it were here, we’d be having a rough time with the enemies at the fortress – too close for comfort I’d say. I know that I will always have a special place in my heart for Nagrand because I have known some of my happiest times there in my world – I don’t know about this particular Nagrand yet – I am still scouting the area to see what else is out there that I haven’t seen before.
Pan and I are definitely enjoying the time that we have to go hunting and fishing when we have the chance. The game is very plentiful and the fishing is just interesting. Some of these fish I have never seen before – some look similar to what we had back on Azeroth and some are just too strange. They taste good when cooked properly though. Pan is constantly by my side these days because I think that he feels uneasy with this assignment, as do I, however, I can’t remember him being as clingy as he is here since we were in Northrend before I left the service.
One of the things that I can look forward too is having Dawnglory show up here soon. I know that I have put in the request that he be assigned to me and I will just have to wait it out to see if it happens. If it doesn’t happen, then, I will definitely throw my political weight around a bit to make it so. I know that I have all of these people surrounding me all of the time and I have to admit that I have never felt so isolated and lonely in my life.