It really has been a very long time since I have written anything in this journal and I know that it has a lot to do with keeping the pack organized and growing. Felly and I are still living in Darnassus for the most part and our pack mates are usually here most of the time.
Another year has pretty much passed without a whole lot of changes. I know that Felley and I thought that it would be awesome to make the move to Stormwind, however, the cost of that move and the cost of living in the big city with the pack really just ended up being too cost prohibitive for us to actually make the change. I won’t even go into the fact that the place was so crowded that it was hard to even think that there could be that much humanity in one area. Plus, I had to stop and think about the fact that some of our younger members haven’t really learned the kind of control that they would need over their “wolf” to be able to rub shoulders with the other citizens without having the fear that they would reveal their true nature.
Oh, I know that I am old fashioned with some of the rules that I have with the pack, however, I feel that there needs to be a certain amount of control over certain things. One of the rules that I enforce rather heavily is the fact that none of us should be in our wolf form when we are around settlements or in any of the larger cities. I know that some others don’t follow that rule, however, it just adds a bit more of an order to things. It’s okay to let the wolf roam freely and exhibit it’s nature when we’re in the wild, however, I don’t think that it’s really all that socially acceptable in populated areas. I willingly admit that there are times that it’s hard to maintain that level of control for some of us – if you allow the wolf to be in control for too long or too often, no one can tell me that the beast might not take over your whole life. I take pride in the fact that I am Gilnean, however, I do not take pride in the fact that I succumbed to the Curse as so many of us did prior to coming to Darnassus.
I think that we all had a great Winter Veil and the majority of us make the trek to Iron Forge for the celebrations there. Oh the gifts were great that were handed out this year, however, I think that we have enough cushions in the house now to where we could open up the place as some kind mystical area – you know, the kind of place where palm readers might enjoy living. All we would need is a hookah pipe and it would be the perfect place.
I did get Felley a new locket this year that I had engraved with our initials intertwined with some vines as well as having a place to put a picture in it if she so desired. I wasn’t vain enough to have a picture of myself in there because I want her to have a choice as to what she wants to treasure in that locket. I had to laugh because she actually bought me a new pipe that was rather ornately carved with a wolf’s head – I probably will only use that one when I’m home. Plus, I got a new watch because the last one that got for me was ruined when I decided to take a shortcut and fell into the water . Hey, I’m not perfect, sometimes I forget that I have my watch in my pocket and this last dunking did a number on the poor thing.
We did have a small celebration at our house in Darnassus for the pack along with some other friends. It wasn’t anything huge, it was just fun and we all pitched in so that it wasn’t a huge expense on any one individual. We even had some of our Night Elf friends stop in for a while as well as a few others – it was nice to be able to bask in the glow of that friendship. I think Felley was really worried that a lot of the people might be offended because when we sent out the invitations that we would appreciate some assistance with the food and drink. She thought that was making it out like we were too poor to really have a party and I explained to her that it was a way of getting our friends to feel like they were actually contributing to the event too.
Felley has really helped me with my education this year too. I guess I was educated fairly well beforehand, however, she’s been getting me to read some of the tomes that she enjoyed as a young girl that I would have never thought about reading because the words were difficult for me to sound them out sometimes. At least she’s taught me how to read without moving my lips all of the time. I have to laugh sometimes because she’s refining me from being just the rough tradesman that I once was – can’t say I like all of the changes, however, if it pleases her to “improve” me, then, I’ll do it.
Our contracts from Stormwind have been a real lifesaver for us this year because we’ve been able to keep the pack together all of the time and fill them here in Kalimdor. I think that when we tried to transition over to the Eastern Kingdoms that some of the younger folks really felt out of place because they have grown accustomed to the life around the Night Elves. I think that we need to make a few trips over there sometimes to get them used to the idea that the world is a much bigger place than what they grew up expecting when we were in Gilneas. I know that when I first started traveling around once we got settled in Darnassus, I was surprised at how big the world actually was because all I had ever known previously was behind the barrier of the Wall. Heck, there are still places in Kalimdor that I haven’t even ventured into and I consider myself fairly well traveled.
One thing that I have finally wrapped my head around is the fact that my wife and daughters never made it out of Gilneas. I have spent the last two years trying to find them with the false hope that they were possibly in Stormwind or had found a haven elsewhere and I have given that hope up. I’m sad in a way that is hard to describe and yet I feel that I needed to reconcile myself to the facts so that I could have a closure of some kind in order to get on with my life. Felley and I are happy together and I think I just needed to let go of that last thread to my old life to actually appreciate what I have with her. I know that by letting that part of my life go, I feel like I have had a huge weight lifted from my shoulders.
Well, I suppose I ought to stop rambling here and get off my backside to do some actual leatherworking. I think that I need to start training some of the youngsters in how to make a proper pair of boots after seeing that some of them are still growing and the boots that they are trying to make work, just aren’t.