Oh, I do have to have a nice long talk with myself about drinking and going down memory lane with some of my friends. While it was all done in good fun and we all had a great deal to talk about our past life experiences, I know I consumed way too much mead. It was great being able to socialize with some of the others and finding out things that I didn’t already know about them, personality quirks and the like. I know that I enjoyed the time, however, the only thing I have to cling too this morning is this incredible headache from all of the fun.
I know that I don’t usually hang out that often in Darnassus with my kind because it can be rather depressing and always stirs up my memories of things that I have lost since the fall of Gilneas. There are still quite a few of us that think that there is an actual cure for the Curse and are still bemoaning the fact that they can’t live as they used too. Well, I am one of the people that knows that there isn’t a cure for what ails us and if we are going to continue on in this new life, we need to put that yearning behind us and get on with life. It’s not easy and we will always have those regrets of times gone by, however, that is not what the Fates had in store for us.
I did have some very strange dreams last night and I blame it on the mead and I blame it on the fact that I haven’t seen Felley in a while and I miss her more than I would have ever thought possible. I know that we agreed a long time ago that we could and should go out on our own and do things without constantly being in the pack, however, I think it has been long enough now and she should come back home for a while. I know that I truly miss those talks that we used to have when we were alone, I miss her laughter and “that look” I would get when I over-reacted to something.
My dreams were rather disturbing last night and that may be why I have this longing for Felley to be home again. I was in that dream world revisiting things that I had thought that I had put behind me, however, they resurfaced with a vengeance. I know that I spent most of the dream searching for my wife and daughters and reliving those horrible times where I thought I might have found evidence that they were still alive. I know that I fought like a madman against becoming what I eventually became, however, last night’s dreams made it almost unbearable when I awakened this morning. Ah well, I won’t spend all of my time dwelling on the past, it isn’t healthy and it sure won’t change anything.