Why Is This Happening…

*Beware, there will be some graphic and salty language in this post.  If you are easily offended, please do not read. *

 

October 19th

Yo Book!!

At least you’re still here and I can at least put some of my thoughts down and try to muddle my way through my life for a while longer.  There really isn’t anyone that I can talk to about things with Fnor being away and my sister is all tied up with her marriage and two children.   Besides, who wants to listen to a lonely and lost fellow trying to make some sense out of the things that have gone on in his life.

I have fucking toed the mark and tried to do all the right things without upsetting the Powers-to-Be, Fate and the Light.  I’ve even sent my prayers to any of the damned gods that I can think of to try to make some sense out of what has happened.

The area where the zeppelin crashed is not uninhabited and there are towns and villages scattered all over the place. Yet, no one has seen my red-haired woman traveling with two small children.  I know that I have searched until I’m am both exhausted in mind and body.  It probably doesn’t help matters that I am still trying to keep the rest of my life in order as well – I do have obligations that must be met – one obligation is military and the other is making money with Morningstar Enterprises to make sure that my family has something to come back too.  I don’t think that any of them would want to come back and live in a tent or stay in Silvermoon at this point.

Yes, I did take Fnor’s advice and I have been staying at the main house in Silvermoon and I will have to admit that I have enjoyed spending some time with Agatha and her children.  At first, I was kind of nervous since she has never mentioned having a man in her life before, however, after meeting the children, there is no doubt in my mind whom the Father might be.  Fnor has two beautiful children, a boy and a girl that he is apparently not acknowledging or he hasn’t been told about them although they seem to be more than a little bit aware of who I am and know of his whereabouts.  Amyn would be crushed if she knew that Fnor didn’t keep his word to her, however, he is married to her and has never stepped out or broken his vows since they were married in Dalaran in the Sindorei fashion.    The girl is as beautiful as her Mother; however, she has a lot of Fnor’s mannerisms and features – quick to smile and quick to anger, I suppose, just like Daddy.  He won’t be able deny the boy – the boy is the spitting image of Fnor, same smile, same everything and his voice is already very much like his Sire’s voice although softer.  Now, the question comes to mind of whether I should mention them to him or should I talk to Agatha first?  Hmmm, can’t say that I want to confront Fnor about the kids when he is apparently unaware of their existence – that could explain some of Agatha’s absences, I suppose – off having a baby on those vacations she has taken.  They both have the same heavy dark hair of both parents; however, the boy has the same exact eyes as Fnor’s other boys – the green flecks overriding the underlying lighter color.  Strange but beautiful looking.  I think I’ll talk to Agatha and find out what she must say about her children.

I know that I still wake up in the mornings here in Silvermoon and my heart longs to be on the farm in Halfhill.  I miss the rain on the rooftop and the smell of the place.   Yes, I miss the big bed that seems so empty without Romy in it and I miss the constant chattering of the villagers as they walk down the road towards their farms or the market.   I have spoken with Agatha quite a bit about my feelings of loss and the loneliness that has seemed to take the place of the emptiness that I have been feeling.   She has assured me that I will survive it all and that she had to experience the whole thing with the Commander when he lost the girl and his child when he was living in Dalaran.   Those were turbulent and sad times for all of us, however, Agatha never left Fnor alone all those months, she was always there taking care of the house and a lot of the business stuff that he didn’t want to make time for.  Here she is in Silvermoon taking care of his interests here …and his children.

I’ll have to give this all some more thought, my mind is totally spinning at the ramifications of the thoughts that I am having and for once, I’m not dwelling on my own losses.  Light!!  I wish that I could find Romy and the children soon.

 

Fnar Dawnglory

 

OOC – October 5th – Yeah, I’m back at it again

October 5th 

 

I will have to admit that I haven’t been writing very much in the last year, however, that was due to the fact that I have been playing medication roulette with my doctors.  I think they have finally figured out what to give to take without killing me with it.  It’s been a rough year for me in the health department. 

Anyway, long story short, I have renewed my WordPress account and I’m planning on getting back into my usual (other normal) posting in this next year.  The brain is all abuzz with thoughts of projects and what I need to write about.  Hey, my writing isn’t all that great and I know that, however, I do enjoy it and it makes me feel like I am doing something other than playing video games. 

I know that I haven’t even been playing a whole lot in the last six months or so due to the fact that I just couldn’t concentrate on anything for very long before I just got totally lost in thought and confusion on some things.  Over-medicating your brain makes you real spacy and I was really starting to get worried about what was going on.  All manner of thoughts race through your head in regard to your faculties when you don’t feel like you’re doing things quite right or up to your usual standards.  

I never have followed the arena nor the MDI tournaments until this year and I will have to admit that I have spent a great deal of time watching those events.  I know I will never be that kind of player again, however, it does bring back some good memories of days gone by.  I used to be Hell-on-Wheels with PvP and as a raider, however, the reflexes aren’t what they used to be these days.  I had to put some of those things to the side and just get into the questing side more with my characters, which is not all bad at all.  Even though I am not up to snuff enough to really participate in these things but that doesn’t mean that I have lost the love or the interest in it. 

Another thing that I did this year is something that I haven’t ever done in the last twelve years and that was to buy one of the tickets on-line for BlizzCon.   I’ve never done that before and I am very excited to see it here in the comfort of my own home.   It should be fun and I’m sure that I will post other things in regard to that.   

I hope to be playing and writing more in the next few months and rekindle my love for all things World of Warcraft.  I have no great expectations for things, just the ability to enoy something that I have been doing almost daily for the last twelve years.   Hope to see all of you soon. 

Still trying to catch up on the posts that some of you have done and hope to have that caught up in the next couple of days.  Everything that I have been reading has inspired me to get back with the way that I used to be and to carry on with the rest of the gang.