I know it has been some time since I have written, however, it has been rather busy with things trying to wrap up with the demon incursion on the Broken Isles. One would have thought that we would have a moment’s respite from conflict not considering that we have a Warchief that is an undead Banshee Queen in every sense of the word.
I have always followed the Horde and the war chiefs we’ve had, however, with the caveat that I was following the direction of the Regent Lord in Silvermoon. At least that’s what I thought I was doing and felt that it was something that had to be done. I’ve lived through Thrall, Garrosh, Vol’jin and now, Sylvanus – the latter is a different matter and I’ve never trusted her. I know that we were all shocked when Vol’jin gave her the position and said it was from the LOA – well, was it? I’m not real sure. This whole situation has been like a boiling cauldron and I think it has finally reached a point where it is going to be hard to choose between loyalty and honor.
In the last few weeks I have seen and done things that would have never even entered my imagination or my worst nightmare. The whole thing has made me sickened to my very soul and the shame that I will carry for the rest of my life. How am I going to face my wife and my sons with the things that we have done? I haven’t seen my beloved wife since the attack on Teldrassil – I know her group of Sentinels were there, however, I know she was not amongst those that were lost because I have heard from her through our company channels.
I know that I am not the only one that was physically ill with the killing that went on at Dark Shore and it is the only time in my adult life that I wanted to just walk away from everything. I wanted desperately to walk away from the Horde, find my beloved Amyn and run to Outland to our home in Nagrand – I may still do that if I can face her again. I just want to make sure that my boys are okay too – I know that Vash is still in Stormwind and that Kal was with Kae and her group of Sentinels but I’m not real sure where they were during all this slaughter. I just hope that they are okay and neither of them was wounded or even killed.
I wasn’t the only one standing there sickened with the bloodshed and the horror, Dawnglory was there with me and I’m not ashamed to admit that we both had tears streaming down our faces when the order was given to set the World Tree on fire. I know several of us were screaming for them not to do it and I assume that we are all going to hear from our Leaders at some point about our misconduct.
Now, I know that the Horde may have bitten off more than they can chew with the leadership being what it is, however, if the Regent Lord has approved of this action and will condone these heinous acts, I will follow him and trust that there is a reason for all of it that I am not privy too.
I know from my past experiences that the Alliance will retaliate, and I know that the Warchief will be there primary target. So, its WAR again whether our people want it or not. So, we will not have the time of peace that most of us were looking for – I can’t truly remember a time when there wasn’t a war somewhere that we were involved in.
My heart is just breaking with the pain and suffering that I have witnessed and trying to put my mind at peace is going to be a chore. I still need to find my wife and let her know that I love her and apologize to her for my actions and the actions of others. I hope she will forgive me and still love me.
I know that we will have to be extremely careful with our relationship and our businesses with the faction war starting up again. We are heading into some dangerous times.