It’s really been quite some time since I have written in journal, however, I’m back at the farm in Halfhill and I must admit that I am just enjoying being here and having some free time on my hands too. It feels good to be sitting on the front steps of the house in a robe and not having to be in full armor with my weapon close to hand. It’s just nice to enjoy sitting here in the sunshine and watching the animals play on the farm and not having people constantly charging up and asking for more “orders” to be given or to give me an urgent message about some nonsense.
Just having some privacy and being able to relax has been such a bonus to me and to Kae. I don’t think that either one of us realized how exhausted we were with the constant being on duty required of us in Draenor. Oh, there were things that we both like about commanding a Garrison, however, there were so many things that we disliked. Not having any privacy was the main failing point in our eyes because we couldn’t seem to find that much time alone and even if we did, someone would find us. I know that one time we went all the way to Nagrand to find a place to be alone and I’ll be damned if one of the couriers showed up not even an hour after we arrived. Talk about feeling awkward, we weren’t exactly dressed for the occasion, as it were. It made me wish for the old days in our old Nagrand where we could slip away and find a nice floating island to spend some time alone and watch the clouds passing us by – nope that doesn’t exist on Draenor.
We still must go back to Draenor every few days to check on our place and to make sure that the duties are being carried out, however, we aren’t restricted to just that. We are taking a bit of a respite from our service so that we can recoup some of our energy before we rejoin our forces in The Broken Isle, which, I am not looking forward too at all. From everything that I have heard, I’m not looking forward to going even if that is supposedly our duty because I can’t say that I have ever been overly fond of the stench of Fel and I am not fond of demons in all shapes and sizes trying to take my life either. I know that Kae and I were discussing some of this as we lay in bed the other night and neither one of us is anxious to get back into the old routine of going out on patrols and then racing like we’re on fire to get back to our headquarters to make our reports. Getting back into the routine of Scout and Sentinel isn’t something that we will have trouble with, however, we will have a bit of trouble adjusting to taking orders from someone else when we have gotten so used to having control of that sort of thing ourselves. Oh well, we’ll go where our duty requires us to go even if we’re not going to like it.
I always wonder if we are ever going to have a peaceful time in our lives. I know that my Father does talk about a time when things were not so chaotic and full battles going on constantly. That was long before I was born, although my parents were already mated at that point – she was in Shattrath at that point and my Father was in Dalaran getting his company established there as a civilian mercenary – that’s when all the Import/Export business started and made it possible for us to have other branches of the company all over Azeroth and represented in both factions. If only some of the people realized that Morningstar Enterprises and Shadowmoon Enterprises was owned and operated by the same family, they just see different faces running things wherever they happen to be. Maybe it wouldn’t be such a good idea for them to know because one company is owned by a Sindorei and the other by a Kaldorei that happen to be married to one another – I’m sure some people would consider them both to be traitors, not only to their factions, which would be a bad thing, I’m sure.
I know that Kae still gets ridiculed for being involved with a half-breed, however, she has taken it all in stride these last few years and I must admire her for that sometimes. It hasn’t made her life an easy one with the Sentinels, however, she thinks that some of them are just envious of the fact that not only am I her Scout, I’m also her lover. I’m also starting to give more thought to us taking our vows at the moonwell in Darnassus too, it’s time that we made our relationship a bit more permanent. I know that she would be a lot happier and it might make her life easier in the troop. I know that I would be one of the few mates that would still be seeing active duty with their spouses and I would not be relegated to something else.
We have been talking about having children sometime soon too. One of the things that I don’t like is the fact that she would like to utilize the communal type of child-rearing that she had growing up and I am more inclined to go along with the way that my parents raised me. I know my family and I love them, is that not a good thing? I know that the Sentinels feel that their children gain more experiences of life without being held too close to their parents, however, I feel that the kids are being cheated out of a foundation of having a family and what that truly means. Oh, I can just know how my Mother would react to a grandchild of hers being reared without knowing their family – the explosion would be heard all the way through time to Draenor.
Ah well, I’m sure that things will happen in due time. Kae and I are not in a hurry to change things dramatically in our lives now. I know that things are still chaotic with our war on the Legion at this point and we both know that things can change dramatically with that situation. We may not have all the time in the world to do all the things that we want, however, if we’re both happy and healthy, we shouldn’t change things at this point.
I know that I am starting to feel like my Sindorei parent in the way that he would love to have a time of peace for a while. He has spent his entire life being involved in wars and serving the Horde – he would like to have the time to just enjoy life with the concerns of a war adding stress to it. I wonder if we will ever see that so-called peace in my lifetime?