Oh, He Will Be Mine…


November 23rd

Dear Journal,

Well, I finally got some much needed time off for good behavior – that’s truly a joke, it just amounted to some major sucking up and trying to act like I was happy with what I was doing.  I have been in Pandaria for several months and haven’t had any time off due to the fact that I have had personality conflicts with some of my peers, not really my peers, and some of the higher ups.  Who would have thought that they expected more of me because of my brother’s reputation.  I’m not my brother and I doubt that I will be stupid enough to stay in the Rangers as long as he has either.

I got to head into Halfhill and I have been just hanging around in the market place trying to find out what information I can about Dawnglory.  Yes, he does live here and he does have a woman and a baby, which I already knew, however, people aren’t really all that forthcoming with the exact location of his farm.  Somehow, thinking of my beautiful Sindorei digging in the dirt just doesn’t fit with what I know of him.  He’s too sophisticated for that sort of thing, however, being with that woman might have changed some of his ideals and his pride too.  I have the next five days off and if I have to travel down every lane and goat path, I’ll do that too because I will find him and I will talk to him and tell him what a mistake he is making with his life.

I have also heard the rumors of this new problem that has developed in the Blasted Lands and I hope that they don’t yank my unit out of Pandaria and ship us off there.  If they do try to do that, I will be resigning or buying my way out so that I can stay here in Pandaria until I make that man see reason and marry me.  I have some money of my own saved up, plus, I don’t think that my brother will hold a grudge long enough to refuse me some help if I ask for it and it concerns his best friend too.   I’m just marking my time and waiting for the right moment to talk to him.  I know he’s here and I know that he and that woman frequent the market with their brat too, so, I’ll just sit here and bide my time until I see that golden-haired man that I know so well makes his appearance.

No, I am not happy being here in the role that I had to take in order to get here.  I’m not meant for the orders and all of the rules that are put into place to make it a more military group and I’m sure not ready to settle down to having to share a tent with a whole bunch of other women.   I’m not keen on the idea that I only have a footlocker to keep my personal belongings in and it has to stay locked all of the time to keep the peasants from stealing from me.  My gowns are probably ruined from being stuffed into that trunk for so long and it is going to make me very angry if they are.  Well, maybe not too angry since I know that they are probably out of fashion now since they are last season’s styles.

If I wasn’t so determined to talk to Dawnglory, I would have gone back to Silvermoon to see some of my friends and to see if I still have access to the house that my brother gave me.  I know that I am not really welcomed at the main house because of those stupid goblins living there that my brother seems to like better than he does his own sister.  Well, that’s what happens when you’re not really blood-related, I suppose.

I have seen Felaran a couple of times since I have been in Pandaria and even went to her house for dinner one night, which was kind of weird because she and her “husband” are both Death Knights.  The food was good and I thought that it was really nice that they would think to even have a good wine to serve with it.   I guess that Ty is the one that cooked the meal because Felaran still can’t cook stuff without destroying it.  It seems odd to have her living with a man here in Pandaria, however, I guess even Death Knights have some softer feelings too.

I like Fel’s “husband”, even if they aren’t really married, they just say that they are and even have rings to show.  I know that they couldn’t’ get married in Silvermoon or under the auspices of that law=minded group.  They just decided they were married.   Ty is an odd fellow, a bit on the quiet side sometimes, however, he is totally devoted to that cat of his, which is really odd.  He also makes some beautiful pieces of jewelry which kind of surprised me because I wouldn’t think that a real man cold make suck delicate pieces.  He showed me some of the jewelry that he was sending back to Silvermoon to sell and I was definitely awestruck, maybe he will be kind enough to give me some of the pieces some day.  Oh, I could buy them,  I suppose. However,  why should I spend money if he is willing to give it to me in the name of “family” helping family?  I think that it’s rather ironic that he looks very much like our brother and that sometimes he sounds like him – that dark mane of hair, those startling blue eyes and that voice make me feel a bit chilled and excited at the same time.  Fel seems to be very much in love with him and I hope that she is happy and that they can keep that act up for a long time too.

I already know that I am going to be telling Dawnglory all of the benefits of being with someone like me rather than that woman.  I’m educated, I have my own money and access to the Morningstar monies, if my brother has changed his orders at the banks, and I am also a lot younger than that woman is.  She’s older and has lived most of her life like an animal in Northrend.  Well, maybe he likes that pack mentality, however, it doesn’t go over well in Silvermoon where people have to at least some idea of the social norms.  I suppose with him living in the wilds as a Ranger has left him open to the idea that it’s okay to have a person act more like an animal that a real person.  I tried to talk to his sister about the way that he is living with this woman and she won’t talk to me anymore because I wasn’t all sunshine and nice about the fact that I think he is ruining his life.

I know that he and my brother still have some of their friends that are still Krasarang and I can’t believe how tight-lipped they are with any information in regard to Dawnglory.  It’s almost like they are in league trying to protect him for some reason or other.  Maybe it’s some kind of special code of theirs, however, I am not about to try to buck that system too much, it cost me enough time trying to do that and getting stuck at camp for weeks unless I was on patrol with some of those other people.  One of the guys let it slip that he thought that Dawnglory was already married – well, I found out that that is a joke because I contacted the Magisters offices in Silvermoon and after several days of waiting, there is no record of a marriage posted in their files for him.  Even if he does get married, that is no reason for me to stop trying to steal him away.  It makes little difference to me because I know that he belongs with me and not her.

Sitting in this Inn and staring out towards the market is really quite entertaining for a while, however, I am starting to get rather bored.  I suppose I should go out and see if I can find my man instead of sitting here in hopes that he will show up.  I know that he probably doesn’t visit the Inn very often these days with that woman and baby holding him back, it’s not like the old days when he could come and go a he wishes.   I would have never thought in a million years that my wild and headstrong Sindorei would become a domesticated being instead of what has always been a part of his nature. I think I’ll go out and see if I can find someone that might be more informative as to where Dawnglory lives, maybe a little gold in their hand might make them remember.

Fae

 

 

 

I Have A Family…Things Are Different Now


*Language – some swearing.  If this offends you, please don’t read it.*

 

November 19th

Yo Book!!

Well, I’m not going to say that I am fucking surprised with the mail that I got today, however, it is really going to put all of our fucking plans into a tailspin.  Who the hell was I to think that things would stay like they were for a long period of time.   Here I fucking sit with a woman that I love more than life itself, a baby daughter that is more precious to me than all of the gold in the world, a farm to run…and finally a life that wasn’t all blood, guts and gore.  A life where I could settle down and be completely happy with the way that things are.

I know that when I say the envelope, I knew fucking then and there that things were going to change and there wasn’t a damned thing that I can do about it.  Luckily, I didn’t see anything in the mail for Romy or she might be going off the deep end along with me.

Why now?  We’re just getting things put into order so that we can get married and give Mirrin a happy home and  place that she can be proud of, parents that are married and that love her dearly.    Why now?  I know that I had just about convinced Romy to just pack things up and we could just go fill the paperwork out in Silvermoon and call it good.  We don’t need a ceremony that I am aware of unless it will make her feel better.  I just want that piece of paper in my hand so that I know that we are recognized as a couple, a married couple, in the eyes of those pratts back in Silvermoon.  I know that I don’t’ want my daughter to go through the things that I went through because I couldn’t prove my lineage.  It’s not right for a girl to have to suffer through that.  I know what poor Felessa went through with it and I won’t have a child of mine go through the same cruelties that I know she suffered through.

Now, I know that Fnor has already gotten his letter from the Regent and is already making his preparations to go back in to do his duty and it makes me feel bad because I really don’t want to go.  I don’t want to go marching off to another problem area and miss out on my little girl growing up.  I want to see her walking, I want to be able to teach her how to ride her first mount, there are so many firsts that I won’t have with her if I am called away.  I wish there was something that I could do to keep from having to separate myself from my fucking family.

I haven’t shown Romy the letter yet and I sure have tried to cover up the fact that I am more than a little bit upset by it.  I know that she is going to take the news hard because I did.  It just doesn’t seem fair that someone can yank you away from your fucking life and force you into something that just might bet your ass killed or something worse.  Oh, I know that wars have been going on since the beginning of time and that millions of people have left their families and hundreds of thousands have died and never got to live out their lives.

I know that we’ve been living in a Fool’s Paradise these last few months here in Pandaria, however, it was the kind of paradise that I was getting very used too.  I was out of uniform , finally, for the first time in my adult life and I had a woman and baby that I could spend time with.  I didn’t have to follow someone’s orders and I could do pretty much as I pleased.  If I wanted to spend all day out in the fields and working on the farm, I could do that.  If I wanted to go off hunting and spend a couple of days fishing, I could do that.   Now, here I am sitting knowing full well that I am going to have to fall under someone else’s schedule and demands other than my own.   Well, it’s not like Mirrin didn’t demand all of the time in the world sometimes and she was a rough taskmaster at three in the morning when she wanted a diaper changed.

Naturally, it’s fucking raining outside and I am not in the proper frame of mind to go out and work in the fields in the mud right now.  Normally, I enjoy the rain and the respite from the physical labor, however, this morning, I am having a tough time trying not to burst out in tears because it is just fucking depressing the shit out of me.  Today was a day that I had planned on taking Romy and Mirrin to the Jade Temple and we could have a little picnic together and let Mirrin play in the water.  Yes, she’s a water baby, just like her Dad and it does make me smile when I see that she loves it as much as I do.

Maybe we can still take that time to try to do a picnic and maybe that would be a good time to let Romy read this letter that I have stashed away in my belt pouch.  I don’t know how she is going to react and I don’t know how I am going to react either.  We had so many plans and so many hopes pinned together for the next few months.  Who knows, we may already have another baby on the way, it’s all up to the Fates.   If Romy starts crying, I’ll probably join her in that too.

Naturally, I ‘m sure that all of the rumors that we have been hearing are all over the market today and I bet that some of the people that I know have already gotten their orders to report back for duty.  Report back to Silvermoon it says, report back to be directed to our new assignments.   I know that if Fnor can do anything about it, he will definitely have me at his side again.

You know, I have spent more time with that man than I have with my own sister.  We have been together ever since I joined the Rangers all those years ago and we have quite a friendship that has seen a lot of mileage.

Damn it!! Just when I thought life was going to be good, there just has to be another conflict somewhere that the Horde has to go get involved.  There are times I wonder if the powers to be have a some kind of death wish for all of the races.

Well, I guess I should go do something constructive at least.  All of this internal ranting and raving isn’t going to solve a damned thing, I’ll just have to figure out how we’re going to deal with it  Hopefully, Romy and I can get married before I have to go charging off, I’d like my daughter to at least know that her parents were married in the eye of the authorities if something should happen to me.

Fnar Dawnglory

Owner of Plantation

Halfhill, Pandaria

 

Another Time…Another War…


Written in very cursive script denoting the maturity and education of the author

November 18th

Dear Journal,

You know that I should have seen this whole thing coming and failed miserably at it.  After all of the rumors and all of the summoning for meetings  that I have gotten from the Council and the Regent Lord, I still didn’t think that there was anything to worry about or even life changing at this point.  Well, I guess I was bloody well wrong on all counts.  I should have recognized all of the early warning signs and I didn’t pay attention to it because I had my head so buried in the business and some of the things going on in my personal life that I just couldn’t bring myself to the point of facing a reality that is going to be smacking all of us in the face living in Azeroth.

What I thought I had been doing for the past year has been kind of put on the shelf for a while because I have been recalled to “active” duty again and I had no choice but to follow the orders that have been given because of my loyalty oath to not only the Horde and the Regent Lord has come back to haunt me with a reckoning that I was not expecting so soon.

It almost seems like yesterday that we were all landing in Pandaria for the exploration expedition that turned out to be anything but that in the long term.  We still have the majority of our troops in Pandaria trying to get things under control and now, we’re off to another front.   I’m not going to bore myself senseless with all of the details that came to pass with the capture and the confrontation of our insane Warchief.  The trial was truly a mockery of Justice to begin with because some of the people that were testifying against Garrosh were guilty of as many atrocities or worse magnitude than the poor fool could have even thought of on his own.  Trial, what trial?  They needed a scapegoat and the biggest one they could find was Hellscream himself.  The sad thing is that the insane fool has escaped and of course, there are people in hot pursuit after him.  How did this happen?  How many lives were needlessly lost in his capture only to have him escape the justice that was going to be meted out to him?  How many times is history going to repeat itself with these fools?

I’ll admit that I truly never cared for the fellow and that he has put the Horde through a living hell that should have gotten him assassinated years ago.   No, the group in Orgrimmar just went along with what this fool was doing and now we are all going to pay the price.  Yes, we now have a new Warchief sitting on the throne in Orgrimmar and I am not so sure that this is going to be any better than it was before.  This is the first time that I know of that there has been a non-Orc sitting on that throne and I wonder how long that is going to last.  We’ve had to live with the arrogance of the Orcs in the city and now, we’re dealing with the Trolls.  Is this the lesser of two evils?  I’m not sure that I even care at this point however, it has changed a lot of the things that I had planned on doing in my life.

I will maintain my allegiance with the Regent and give the Horde a cursory tolerance as I have in the last few months and hope that I haven’t made a total error in judgment on that point.   Trading one savage as a leader for another one of similar ilk seems to be the worst thing that we could have done at this juncture.  Who knows what is really going on the mind of this Vol’jin anyway ?

After attending several meetings in Orgrimmar over the last few weeks, I’m still perplexed as to what we’re expected to do.  Then, we all get word that there is another kind of uprising going on in the Blasted Lands and some of us were actually send down there to investigate the situation and make a report back to the Regent.  Well, it’s war again.  Yes, all those years ago that our Fathers fought the Legion in the area and pushed back the hostilities in the Outland region, it appears as though we have another denizen to deal with.  A new race of Orcs has decided to make their way back through the portal that we should have close down at the end of that war.  We didn’t close it because there were many things still going on down there and a lot of unfinished business that need to be addressed  – well, to be honest, I think that we all grew to be complacent, myself included.

Shattrath is in for some rough times, I’m afraid.  Here we just put a lot of time of money and energy in getting the business set up there again and now we’re facing another kind of war there.   Something about a magical ability of crossing into other times has me perplexed and scared at the same time.  Haven’t  we learned that dabbling with magic can lead to some rather awful things.  The stories I have heard of demons coming through that portal and our people chasing them back have my hair curling and I’ll admit that even if it did sound like exciting times – do I want to deal with it again as if history is repeating itself?

If I were a younger man and didn’t have the responsibilities that I currently have, I suppose that I would be excited at the prospect of racing through into things headlong without worrying about the future.  This whole thing down there is going to make some major changes to my future, I’m afraid.    Now, I have to recall some of my employees and break the new to them that I will be heading off to take up another command and they will have to run the business without me being here all of the time.  Back to the way that it was when we were in Orgrimmar, I’ll get back to the business when I can and I have time away from my new duties as another Commander.

I still haven’t found Agatha and I would like to talk to her before I leave again.  I am also trying to get in touch with my wife to see if she has been recalled back to her active duty again with the Sentinels.  I know that if Amyn has been called back, that also means that Kal will be recalled as well.  Why do these things have to always happen to disrupt out lives just when we were getting to a point that we might even be able to be a family again?

Damn it!  I can’t just say “no” and walk away, I have to go.

Fnor Morningstar

 

Kae’s Thoughts…


November 17th

Dear Journal,

Oh my the seasons are changing rather rabidly here, even in the Valley of Four Winds.  There is a certain chill in the air first thing in the morning that even has the smell of freshly fallen snow – the wind comes down off the mountains, I’m sure.  One thing that I am not enjoying at this time of year is all of the rain, it seems like it doesn’t want to stop, however, that doesn’t mean that we get a day off from harvesting the crops and fighting off the vermin.

Kal has been good on his word of not going to hang out with his old friends in Stormwind and I am happy about that because I think that he was starting to drink way too much and forgetting what his priorities actually were here at the farm and yes, even forgetting that we have an informal commitment to one another.   I know that he is still toying with the idea of going back to Darnassus and taking our pledge at the Moonwell and I know that it is a big thing for the two of us.  I don’t think that I need it that badly, however, it’s something that we want to do in the near future.  Maybe over Winter Veil we can do that?

We’ve spent a good deal of time talking about his family and how he was raised. It sounds as if he has had his own life shaken up a few times with the relationship that his Father and Mother have had over the years, however, Amyn seems to be the one that is the most stable of the two.  What can I say, his Father is very much the Sindorei in all facets of his life it seems and Amyn must have the patience of a priestess to have been able to handle all of the changes that she has gone through with her Sindorei.

Kal definitely has a lot of his Father’s traits sometimes and that is going to be the one thing that will cause us trouble if we both aren’t aware of it.  His fixation on his appearance is definitely a Sindorei thing and I will have to admit that I do take a lot of pride in being seen with him when he is all dressed up in his best.  He’s a handsome man and very masculine – I can really see why some of the girls at the camp were throwing themselves at him all of the time, however, I was the lucky one that captured his heart it seems.

I know that I was laughing at him a couple of days ago when he asked when I wanted to go back to the Jade Temple so that we could do some washing and some fishing.  Honestly, I could do the washing here at the farm just as easily, although I would miss those little outings of ours.  Oh, we still make a day of it and sit there with our packed lunch and some wine and fish. It’s not exactly what some of the girls would all a romantic moment, however, it’s romantic for us.

Oh, I have been watching Dawnglory and his little family at his farm over the fence.  Their little girl is really going to be quite the handful when she starts actually walking more.  I know that she definitely looks like her Father and I think that she is going to be as beautiful as her red-haired Mother.   I had to come in the house to hide my laughter because the little girl definitely has quite the vocabulary and her one word that anyone can understand regardless of faction is “No” – she was smacking her own little chubby hands every time she was reaching out to grab one of the plants that her Mother was weeding. Nothing like having a child that can do self-discipline.

It is definitely times like those, watching the family next door, that I wish that Kal and I had a child of our own.    I know that I have broached the subject with Kal a few times and he always wrinkles his nose up and looks at me like I have said a terrible thing.  I  think we would make great parents and our children would be beautiful.  He keeps telling me that he would hate to bring a child into this world right now because there is so much going on that he doesn’t feel comfortable subjecting another living being of his own blood into the mess.    He always laughs and tells me that we need to get used to the two of us being together first before we introduce someone else into the situation.  Frankly, I think he’s just stalling and unbeknownst to him, I’ve stopped taking my tea a couple of weeks ago, so, we may already have a baby in the works, only Elune knows.   I know that that is a sneaky thing to do to a fellow, however, if it does come to pass, I am in hopes that he will be happy about it.

I know that we are both concerned that there might be more troubles for us in the near future too.  With all of the rumors floating around Pandaria and with some of the things that we have heard in Stormwind when we last went there, we both may be jumping back in with our Sentinels and setting off for a new adventure.  I know that we both would like to have more of a respite than what we have had and some time to enjoy the life that we have carefully crafted here in Pandaria.  Our farm is wonderful and I know that Kal takes great pride in how it has turned out.  If we are forced back into our duty again, we will be searching for someone to manage the place for us because we aren’t going to give it up and go off only to come back to the “nothing” that might be left behind if we surrendered the farm.

I guess that I am going to keep an ear out to see if there is anymore gossip about these new problems that might be facing Azeroth.  Right now, all we can do is to live one day at a time and hope that this blows over and doesn’t yank us away from the things and people we love.

Oh, I don’t like the look on Kal’s face right now, he just came in from getting the mail and he’s holding two envelopes that look kind of official.   Well, I suppose that I should cut this short and see what has happened now.  By  Elune, that man does not look like he’s all that happy.

 

Kae

 

 

In Search of…


 

Written in very cursive script denoting the maturity and education of the author

November 6th

Dear Journal,

It always seems to happen when I am left here alone and in charge of the whole business without any help at this point in the office.  Zippie has decided to take off on a tangent and get out of the office for a while to have some fun, which I can’t blame her because I hate paperwork with a passion.  I think that I will get in touch with Dawnglory’s sister, Felessa, to see if she wouldn’t mind coming in to help me out for a while.  Oh, I know that she doesn’t need the money or anything like that because Dawnglory made a great match for her – she even has a baby now too.  Oh well, I’ll go talk to her and see if she will come help out for a bit, she can bring the baby.

My biggest issue is that Agatha has been gone for a month now and I am finding out just how much I relied on her very capable hands to keep the household running smoothly and keeping things in order.  Sure, she left her next in command to handle things as well as her sister here, however, it’s not Agatha.  I know that things have been a bit uneasy between us since our slip-up and I have felt a bit sad about that, however, I didn’t think it was bother her as much as it was me.  I thought that she was avoiding me quite a bit the last couple of weeks that she was here and I thought I understood why.   Oh well, I know that I just miss her and want her back where she belongs here in the house.

I will admit that I was a bit alarmed when I was talking to her sister, Adamia, and found out that Agatha hadn’t been feeling well before she left and it definitely has me concerned.   Okay, more than just a bit alarmed.  I decided that I would ride out the Inn her parents own and see how she was doing and to surprise her with a nice gift that I found.  She has always admired good crystal and I know that she had been looking at one particular goblet that had a red ruby imbedded in it – it is beautiful even if it was a bit pricey.  I thought that might cheer her up.

I get to the Inn and everyone acts surprised that I would travel outside the city to visit an employee.  Well, they were no more surprised than I was when I found out that Agatha wasn’t there and hadn’t been there for months.  Well, I had assumed that she would be visiting her family and after her sister told me of her illness, I was certain that she would be there.  No, she wasn’t there and her siblings didn’t know where she was and her Father acted like I was some kind weirdo and wouldn’t really come forth with much information.  I was able to finally talk to Agatha’s Mother and she told me that she knew where Agatha was and that she was indeed ill – she appears to have gone off to the shore to get better.  I couldn’t find out the exact location from her Mother, she was not forthcoming with a  whole lot of information and started acting very strangely and nervous.  Well, rather than to ruffle any more feathers, I took my leave and went back to Silvermoon.

Alright, I am not exactly a naive idiot and I know I’m not stupid, however, this whole situation has me very perplexed.  Yes, I am a happily married man and I love my wife more than words could even describe, however, I also have a special place in my heart for Agatha.  I have no intentions of hurting Amyn and I have no intentions of throwing away everything that we have together away, however, I do have feelings for Agatha as well although they are not nearly as strong as my feelings for my wife.

I know I could do one of two things to find out where and what is going on with Agatha.  I can sit here and wait to hear from her, which I know I will eventually, or I can start doing what I do for a living, going out and searching for her like I would if I had a bounty contract on her.  Part of me is telling that I should just go find her and the other part is telling me to wait because I could be barging into something that is none of my business – I mean, she does have a life outside of her employment with me and she may be off on a tryst or something.    I’m really very torn on the whole thing.

I know that I did enjoy the time that I had with Amyn in Pandaria recently, however, I did have a lot on my mind and I hope my love didn’t notice how I was distracted sometimes.  I wish that I could just tell her what happened between Agatha and I and not expect her to give me that look or just walk out, which she has done a time or two in the past.  I know that I wasn’t planning on breaking my vows and I still feel guilty about it.   I know that I have done things before we were married that would have made any other woman walk away, however, Amyn and I both have the boys to think about and I know that we both truly love one another.  Why does life have to be so complicated on the personal level all of the time – it just never seems to stop.

I also am more concerned about some of the mail that I have been getting lately as well as a couple of the appointments that I have attended with the Reagent along with several other businessmen.  I hope that all of the rumors that we have been hearing are not true and that we can try to continue on with our civilian lives, however, I am beginning to think that there may be something looming on the horizon that will have most of us back in uniform again whether we like the idea or not.   I know that if I have to go back into the military service again with my same commission, I won’t be happy, however, I will do my duty even if I’m not happy about it.

Someday I hope that we get a few years of peace and we get an opportunity to live our lives without some war or conflict shadowing everything that we do.  I know I would like to be able to sit back with my wife and children and enjoy life with them without something looming on the horizon like some bad weather cloud.  I know that our operations in Shattrath are really starting to come together and I want to talk to Amyn about actually setting up a more permanent residence there so that the two of us can stay together most of the time.

I think that I tend to “stray” when I am away from my wife and away from her for months at a time, it’s not easy having a long distance relationship or marriage and I know that it must be as difficult for her, although she does get to see the boys more often than I do. I miss my family life that we were just getting comfortable with in Dalaran before we were forced out.   Who knows, one day I might even become a grandparent and I would like to spend some time with those children, more than I have been able to do with my own sons.

Well, I need to stop writing this morning, just glancing back on what I have written, it looks like my mind is jumping about like a hare.  I know that I need to get off my backside, get out of the office and go do something with Pan, maybe a bit of hunting, maybe a quick trip to Orgrimmar to test out the political waters there.  I need to get out of Silvermoon for a while even if I just have to let the business run itself for a day or two.  I wish that Zippie would hurry up and get back because I don’t know how much more paperwork I can do before I start frothing at the mouth.

Fnor Morningstar

 

Change of Seasons…


November 2nd

Dear Journal,

I have certainly been enjoying my life in Pandaria because it’s a definite change of pace from Thunder Bluff and Mulgore.  I was definitely feeling my age when I was at home and that has changed quite a bit since I made the move to Pandaria to be with my children.  Yes, the whole Cloudhoof Clan is up here now and I think that we’re all the better for it.

Oh yes,  I like being able to head home to Thunder Bluff and visiting with some of my old friends there though.  I enjoy the opportunity to catch up on the latest gossip, find who is going to be a grandparent again and what else might be going on.  Of course, if I don’t catch them at the Bluff, we usually find each other at the Faire.  Over the years I have lost a few of my oldest friends because they have returned to the Earth Mother’s bosom – it happens to all of us eventually.

I still miss my mate though.  It’s been years and years since I’ve become a widow and there are times when Tahfal laughs that he reminds me very much of his Father.  He actually has a lot of the mannerisms that his Father had although he was still a very young calf when his Father and I left on our ill-fated hunting trip.  Oh sure, there have been a few bulls that I have been interested in, however, I’ve never found one that could even remotely replace my first love.  Oh, I do have some male friends that I like to talk with as well as flirt with sometimes – it makes me feel young, what can I tell you?  I know that my children feel scandalized when they see me act like a coquette in the market here in Halfhill, however, I know that it’s all done in fun.

As for my children, well, I wonder if Nahai and Tahfal will ever settle down.  They are both still fairly young, however, neither one of them seems to be all that attached to any of the ladies they have been seeing.   I can’t help but compare them to my own experience and I was already mated and had two calves at their ages and these two you fellows are just running free and enjoying life as much as they can it seems.  The only one that I do worry about is Naton and that’s only natural because he is my firstborn and even though he is a Death Knight, I do wish that he could find someone that could overlook his flaw of being what he is.  He seems lonely at times and then again, he keeps himself busy at this forge and he does spend quite a bit of time socializing with some of the locals when they stop by to see him.

My daughter is the one that I wish would truly settle down.  Oh, she is the busy one alright.  She loves the farm and she loves being able to go out hunting here in Pandaria.  She’s had a couple of suitors since we’ve moved up here, however, they weren’t to her liking, I suppose.  I don’t know if she is being extremely picky or what, however, I am about ready to let her know that she is not getting any younger.  It could very well be that she is enjoying her new freedom up here because I know that she had the burden of caring for her younger siblings when I was missing all of those years.  I don’t know, I just wish Maha would find someone and give me some grandchildren before I go to join our ancestors.

I think I am being a bit whimsical this morning because the seasons are changing and there is even a slight chill in the air here at the farm. Of course, there seems to be a lot more rain right now, which is good for the crops, however, it does make it rather difficult sometimes to go out and do any real good herbing without getting soaked to the skin.  Not that rain ever bothered me that much, it does make it a bit of a sloppy process sometimes even when I’m using my flight form.  I know that Nahai doesn’t seem to mind the rain that much and he’s good at gathering the nicest herbs too – he does help me quite a bit, these old bones still ache sometimes when the weather changes.

I suppose while I am just sitting here writing in my journal that I should actually be working on some of my inscriptions instead of just wasting my time.  I know I keep looking out the window and watching the rain come down because I had really wanted to go do some serious gathering this morning.  Oh well, I guess I should get to work on these contracts that I have to fill because I know that we’re all planning on taking a run to the Faire later this week.

Mooma Cloudhoof

 

Well Worth The Time…


October 29th

Dear Journal,

Well, I finally broke away from the office and went out to have some fun with the holiday.  Sure, I missed out on going with Uncle Zed and Dooddah because they were tired of waiting on me to go with them and went without me.  That’s okay because I know that I have been buried alive with the paperwork and getting all of the contracts out to the employees that could do the job.  The Boss has been busy doing whatever it is that he really does and I’ve been holding down the Fort.  No, I think that I just need to start doing other things other than working.  I know, I know, time is money, however, if you have all the gold in the world and you die, you can’t take it with you.  Might as well start enjoying life.

I did take off and go to Orgrimmar to see what I could see and start doing my Trick or Treating, fun things that you can get sometimes and the people that you can meet is all part of it.  I am a very social goblin and spending all of this time locked up with work really does tend to make me more than a little bit cranky.    I’ve actually started locating some more of our family members too, which is going to make it even nicer for the holidays when we can all get together and revel one another with our tales of how we escaped the trials, tribulations and disasters back home.    Yeah, I know, we can’t ever go back home, however, that doesn’t mean that sometimes we want to talk about things the way that they were before the volcano went off.

While I was out doing this bucket chasing, I thought I might try my hand again at this archeology thing too.  That’s a pretty lucrative sideline for gold and I haven’t been taking advantage of it like I should have.  Oh, I know I will never be as wealthy as Gallywix or anything like that.  A girl would like some new clothes and maybe a nice house to live in, you know? I know that Dooddah is always prattling on about the new gear she bought with the money she has made off some of the artifacts she’s been able to sell.   I know the little scamp sells stuff outside of the company and that’s okay, it’s her way of making money and I can’t blame her for wanting to work around the edges of the company while she is doing it.

I know that most of my friends live in Kalimdor and I have been stuck in Silvermoon City with all of those elves which can get to be real annoying sometimes.  I have yet to get out and really explore anything in the Eastern Kingdoms because I’ve been in the office.  Well, I think that I am going to start getting out more and getting away from the city as often as I can.

Oh, let’s not even talk about Shattrath.  I swear if the Draeni looks down her nose at me one more time, I’m going to punch her in the nose.  I thought Blood Elves were arrogant, however, they can’t hold a candle this Space Goat.   Yeah, sure, I even talked to the Boss about it and he told me that I was going to have to come out with some kind of working agreement with this Magdamia person.  Come on, man, she’s from the Alliance and I’m Horde, just because you like sleeping with the enemy doesn’t mean that we all kind of bend the rules that way too.   I know that this Maggie can really set me off pretty quickly because I think that she has figured out which of my buttons to push to make me mad – she speaks some Orcish although I can barely understand her.  I know I’d have to jump on a chair to punch her in the nose, however, there are times that it would be well worth the indignity of having to do that.  It’s not like I can’t hit her with a spell or something – I just think the satisfaction of smacking her one time physically would definitely be worth the extra effort.  Oh, she thinks that her people are more technologically advanced than us goblins – well, I don’t see anything that says we crashed a space ship that we built into someone else’s planet either.  So, we may blow things up accidently now and then, however, we seem to be better at things that her folks are, right?  Well, enough of that, I’m gonna change the subject because it’s making my good time into a bad one.

I will have to say that I enjoyed flying all over Kalimdor trying to get to some of the buckets because let’s be honest – those Alliance people do not like to share anything.  Sheesh!  You’d think that one piece of candy would break the bank or something.   Besides, I think our Wicker Man looks better than theirs anyway.  We got smart this year and it’s in the courtyard at UC so the Alliance really have a tough time trying to douse our guy.

I had to laugh because I kept thinking about Zednick and his affinity for going around whizzing on the fires even when there seemed to be impossible odds to keep him from doing it – he says they were hard-pressed to keep up with him and his aim was always true.  It’s gotta be a guy thing or a Zed thing, that was fun anyway – the Harvest Festival.

Well, I had better get busy because I am planning on meeting up with some of my friends in Orgrimmar and we’re going to go out and hit some more buckets.  The candy is good and sometimes we just enjoy the company and the traveling – a few good Inns too.

Zippie

 

 

Just Get On With It…


*Some mature language.  If that offends you, please do not read.*

 

 

October 24th

Yo Book!!

I will have to admit that the time is going by so quickly that it really does make me wonder how much has rushed past that we haven’t had a chance to really enjoy.  I know that before Mirren came along, I never really noticed the time going by all that much, however, with her growing in leaps and bounds, it definitely does make one realize the passage of time.

While I am sitting here and watching Mirren for a few minutes while Romy takes care of things that she wanted to too, I’m watching  our little girl just ramble around in the farmhouse and just investigating anything that takes her interest.  It really does remind me of when Felessa was a little girl, however, the Matrons at the orphanage tended to shoo me away as much as possible so that I could go do some other things – I suppose that was their intent, anyway.  What I think they were doing is to keep me away just in case some potential person came along to adopt a little blonde haired Sindorei girl – without her brother.

I know that I am still laughing about Romy washing the cat after his escapade in finding a skunk somewhere here in the Valley of Four Winds.  I know there are skunks here and I have seen them in Jade Forest, however, I can’t say that I have seen one up close and personal here in the Valley.  Her cat tends to take a long time hunting anyway, maybe it’s the male part of his persona.  Dawn is much older and I’ve had her for a long time, however, she is very efficient with her hunting and when she goes off on her own, she doesn’t stay gone for very long.  Poor Romy has her hands full with our daughter and trying to train her new cat is added work, however, one would hope that she will be able to take the time to work with the cat a little bit  – I can take care of Mirren a bit more when I’m not up to my eyeballs with the farm and Morningstar Enterprises.

No one ever said that parenting was an easy thing, however, I think it’s time for Romy and I to get married, take a couple of days off and let Mirren go visit with the Cloudhoof Clan.  I think that Mooma wouldn’t mind watching her for a few days, plus, Maha is there along with her brothers.  I think I will bring the subject up again Romy to see how she feels about it now.  I’m not wanting to get married for the sake of it, I want us to get married so that Mirren won’t have to endure what I have had to endure my whole life with lack of family.  You know what I mean?  I think it is much harder for a girl too because I had one heck of a time getting Felessa’s marriage arranged and  her dowry was unbelievably expensive.   No family, means no social standing without paying out the ass for it.  At least Romy’s family had a prominent name in Silvermoon, whereas, my name is just a name that was given to me – I have no clue what my real birthright actually is.

I just can’t believe how big Mirren is getting and how fast she seems to be growing these days.  One of the things that I am truly enjoying about having a child of my own is that I can almost live vicariously through her.  I’m reliving things that she is just discovering, the way the little things excite her so much, like a butterfly that kept flitting about her head and landed on her nose that made her laugh and go cross-eyed at the same time.  Like I said, it’s the little things.

I know that Romy was talking about taking Mirren to do some of the trick or treating this year, however, I’m not exactly over -protective. I don’t want her to be too traumatized with some of the things that I know will happen.  At least we’re able to travel with her more readily than we were a few months back, however, we still have to carry a whole lot of stuff along with us to make sure that everything is taken care of.  Maybe we can even take her back to Silvermoon for some of the revelry there.

Well, I know I’m being a fucking coward too.  I have glimpsed Faendra at the market a couple of times and have avoided her.  I know she knows I live in Halfhill, however, she’s not found me yet and it may be high time that I just take the bull by the horns and confront her. I know that I don’t want to have any trouble, however, anytime that girls is around there is going to be trouble and if I happen to be in the same area, the trouble usually falls on my doorstep. I know that it is just something that I need to do I suppose.  I just don’t want to lose the friendship that I have Fnor after all of these years.  I know that he and I have had some real arguments about this sister of his, however, I know that he has finally figured out what kind of woman she has become and I know that he’s not pleased.  See, the bitch even causes me trouble when she’s not even around – I just think I need to address this whole thing before Romy does.

I dearly love Romy and I enjoy the life that we have here in Pandaria, I just think that we need to get things finalized and maybe some of these nuisances will disappear of their own accord.  No, I am not interested in playing around and I don’t think that my marriage will be something that I regret, not with my two girls – Romy and Mirren.  We could go to Silvermoon City and just sign the papers in the office and have two total strangers sign as witnesses – sure, that will fucking piss off some people, however, that’s just how I feel about it right now.  I don’t need a big lavish wedding and I think that Romy is leaning more that way too because she doesn’t have the time to “pick out” all of the things that her family or Grandmother wants her to do.   I don’t care if we got married naked, I don’t need all of the extra stuff.

Speaking of naked…my lovely woman is beckoning me to come to her and she’s not exactly dressed for outside. Mirren’s asleep and I think it’s a lovely idea.  I do like that “Come hither” look.

Fnar Dawnglory

Owner of Plantation

Halfhill, Pandaria

Agatha’s Story – More Changes In My Life


October 22nd

Dear Journal,

It is apparent that I haven’t written in quite some time and it’s not because I have been terribly busy with work, however, I have taken some time off from Morningstar Enterprises that was well deserved on both a personal and professional level.

I know that I wrote previously that Fnor and I had a bit a indiscrete moment that probably made us both uncomfortable after the after the fact – we hadn’t had intimate relations since he got married to his mistress, a very lovely Kaldorei Sentinel that has been his mate in their fashion for many years. She also happens to be the mother of his legitimate children, I guess their legitimate in some way.

I know that it would be almost impossible for my daughter to be declared legitimate in any way shape or form, although, she is full-blooded Sindorei and I know whom the Father was and it’s none other than my handsome raven-haired employer.  I’ve never told him but I think that circumstances are starting to present themselves to where I am going to have to do just that.  It seems I am carrying another child, although I had taken all of the precautions for years, since we hadn’t been intimate for quite a while, I was ill-prepared for what did happen. Fortunately or unfortunately, the Fates had other things in store for us I suppose because there is a child and a child that I will happily give birth too.

Unfortunately, I am unable to go home to my family at present because my condition is very obvious and I had to leave Silvermoon City before my daughter and my lover realized what had happened. Yes, I know I am being very deceptive and I need to come out and tell them both the truth.  How do you tell your child that she really isn’t your sister and that she is your daughter?  How do I tell Fnor that he has fathered two children with me – one of which isn’t even born as of yet and the other is very much like him already.  I’m surprised that he hasn’t guessed at the fact already because she has his smile, his mannerism and her personality is very much like his.  Oh, I am already worried about the reactions from all parties concerned and I suppose that I should have addressed it years ago, however, I was hoping that it would come to pass of its own accord.  I know now that I was being foolish and my Mother kept telling me that I should tell them both because she was getting too old to cover up the lie.

Now, here I sit by myself and my only companion is a maid that I hired to help the “widow” of one of our fallen heroes take care of the little cottage she is renting on the shore and the midwife that stops by daily to check on my advanced pregnancy.   I have no problem playing the widow role because my emotions have been like one of those carnival rides, one minute happy and another minute I am very depressed.  I miss Silvermoon, I miss my daughter and I miss Fnor most of all.  I really haven’t let any of my friends in Silvermoon know where I am and my poor Mother is getting my mail  – she’s truly the only one that knows where I am.

I know that Fnor acted like he was ashamed of the fact that he had broken his vows with his wife, in the Sindorei fashion, however, I know that when they were mated, he did wander a bit. Men are definitely strange creatures and the rules seem to be different from one situation to the next.

Oh well, the midwife has just told me that she is going to be staying here for the next few days, apparently, the birth is imminent and she laughingly told me that the Father would have been proud because she thinks it’s going to be a boy.

I hope it’s a boy and I hope he looks just like his Father and I hope that when I do tell Fnor about our children that he won’t get all hysterical and go off the deep-end. I know that it is going to complicate things for us all, Amyn, Fnor and I.  I just pray to the Light that we can survive it all.

Agatha Fairsong

Just Because…


October 21st

Dear Journal,

I will have to admit that it is time that I did get out of the office more often.  I don’t think that Amyn wants me to stay here all of the time when she is readily available to cover my job now and then.  I know that I start getting more than a little bit stir crazy sometimes when I have been here for several weeks on end and it isn’t something that I like to admit to anyone.  I’m the cool, calm and collected one that keeps things organized, however, staring at ledgers all day or dealing with the employees will sometimes make me more than just a little bit cranky.   Now, just add that little frog from Silvermoon and I start heading off the deep end rather quickly.

I know that I am really happy that I have taken a few days to go out and explore things a bit more and I have even found that I actually like doing this archeology thing too.  It really gets me out to stretch my long legs as well as keeping me on my toes when I know that I am going into Horde territory sometimes too.  I’ve found quite a few interesting things that I know that I can sell through the company to make myself some extra money – after all, Winter Veil is coming soon even if we can’t seem to realize that the time is going on.

I’ve also had some time to go over to Darnassus and visit with some of my friends there as well as going back to the Exodar to see my family now and then too.  It wasn’t healthy for me to just shut everything else off except for work.  It was making Maggie a very dull Draeni.   I know that Lagn always seems extremely happy when I go visit him although we do have to be careful of things because I know that if some of the other employees found out that I was actually sleeping with him, they might start screaming that I was giving him special treatment for that as well as being of my own race.   Well, it’s really none of their business.

I suppose that I ought to just admit that I needed to get away from Stormwind when what I am trying to get away from is living under the same roof with me.  Oh, Vashlan is a nice enough young fellow and I will have to admit that he is a sexy devil even when he’s not trying – must be that mixed blood of that is calling out to me too.  Oh, I’m not in love with him or anything like that, however, I am very much in “lust” with him.  I know that he is not intending to do the things that he does to me or I hope that he isn’t even aware of it.  Yes, he is still very much the little womanizer, however, I think that he has learned how to be a bit more discrete and since his Mother gave him a good talking too and his biological Father backed her up, he’s not been bringing all of his women here to the apartment like he was there for a while when his parents were too busy to pay attention to what was going on.   I had to smile when he came to me and apologized to me for not showing me the proper respect, after all, we do share that apartment area above the warehouse.

I know that I am feeling much better about things and I can deal with the nonsense that needs to be dealt with a much better attitude than what I had going there for a while.  I was one miserable person because I just couldn’t tear myself away from the business and it’s not even my own business, I just work here.

I have been enjoying the holiday a little bit too, all of these costumes and all of the revelry.  Oh, there seem to be parties almost every single night right now and I do attend the ones that I can, however, I know that I am running out of time and running out of costumes.  I know the silly game of trying to guess who someone is in their costumes is kind of hard for me to play because I always get guessed because there is nothing that I can do to cover up my hooves enough to where they won’t be seen.  Long dresses work for a while, however, the minute that I move, that clomp gives me away.  Ah well, maybe I’ll figure something out – I always do.   I really like some of the new pirate costumes that I have seen some of the people wearing though, I might try to figure out something with that, put on a cape to cover up my tail and those boots just might be enough to cover my hooves better.   I’ll give it a bit more thought because I’ve been invited to a rather large gala at the end of the week.

Magdamia