Just Adventuring in Kalimdor…

May 16th

Dear Journal,

Well, I knew that it was bound to happen after some of the things that happened between myself and Sonshine.   The alpha males had to finally have it out and it cost the pack a member in the end.  No, it wasn’t one of those “to-the-death” kind of battles, however, when all was said and done, Sonshine just packed up his kit and left.

Felley and I both thought that Abigail would leave with him but she didn’t.  She said that she didn’t want to go because Sonshine was drinking a lot and he hit her.  That just astounded Felley to no end.  For a man to strike a woman at any time is inexcusable to the both of us.  However, I knew Sonshine had a wild streak and I had seen the meanness of his character show up long before the Curse and our leaving Gilneas forever. However, I hated to lose an old friend, however, I suppose that there would have been trouble eventually, maybe it’s for the best that the fight happened.

Oh, he definitely got in a few good shots and I did get some of fur ruffled more than a bit during the fight.  I’ll be paying for the fight with some sore ribs for a while, however, he lost his temper completely and that’s why he lost the fight.  He was so blinded by his own rage that he couldn’t see what was really going on.  He let the Wolf take over completely.   I know that I was just going to teach him a lesson or two for his loud-mouth and the way that he was acting all resentful when we had a good hunt and he didn’t bag the most game or the profit.

What profit?  What he didn’t realize is that I would take the skins and sell them, take what monies were owed to me as an individual while taking a percentage of that and putting it in a little fund for the pack.  Since Felley and I seem to be the parents of the group, we feel like we need to help take care of the rest of them.  It’s only right that we should do that, right?  Sure, we all have those little emergencies that come up that cost us more than what we can afford, that’s where the pack fund comes in.

From what Abigail has told Felley, I’m glad that I set some money aside like we had planned because it seems that Sonshine was taking his money and Abigail’s money and doing whatever he chose with it.  That means that Abigail is probably one hungry young lady and I noticed that she really doesn’t have a place to live on her own.  I guess she’s been living with the rest of the Worgen under the big tree in Darnassus.  I wish I had realized what was going on before now because Sonshine and I would have had this discussion a lot earlier. 

Poor little thing girl is still trying to adjust to the changes in her life and to have a drunkard hitting her is just heartbreaking.  No wonder she acted like she was afraid to say anything at all there for a while. When she first joined the pack, she would always flirt with me and tease Felley and then that stopped, now we know why. 

Felley went with her to gather up her few belongings that she had of her own and that’s when we found out where she had been staying.  Yes, there is a carriage parked under the tree and I guess that Abigail had laid claim to the space underneath it to sleep and to keep her stuff.  I’m sure she’s missing quite a few things if she left it for any length of time unattended.  Seems that she didn’t have all that much, not even enough to fill up a small satchel.  Well, I guess we’ll be sharing some room space with the girl until we can find another place for her to live on her own.  Oh, we’re still a pack, however, a man and woman do need some privacy and some distance from other people now and then.

Abigail asked Felley if she could bring a young friend along, someone new to the city.  I didn’t have any problem with it at all, anyone is welcome until they prove that they aren’t what we are looking for in the pack.  This young fellow is barely out of his teens, however, seems like he is a good herbalist and inscriptionist, which is something that we will always need.  We’ll give a try and see how things work out. You never know when you’ll need some “special papers” and Abigail seems to think highly of him.  I get that was because he was kind to her even though he got knocked on his butt by Sonshine when he saw him hanging around.

After all of the stuff with Sonshine and Abigail, I really didn’t feel like I wanted to actually spend a whole lot of time talking to anyone.  I guess that’s my human side coming out and wanting to get off and think things through.  Luckily, Felley is a very understanding woman and once she made sure that I wasn’t injured, she gave me a kiss on the cheek, a pat on the rump and told me to come home soon.   I just needed to get away.

I went over to the mainland and did some hunting and skinning since we had some contracts that called for specific kinds of leather.  If I was going off to be by myself, at least I could do something that would help us all. 

Darkshore is kind of depressing when you first lay eyes on it.  You can tell that it once was a beautiful place before Deathwing did his thing and flooded it all.  Now, the roving elementals just make it a bit dicey to get through the area before you can get in for some proper hunting. I hate seeing all of those beautiful buildings broken and you can tell that there was once a thriving community there on those shores.

I know that I spent a few hours mourning the loss of my friendship with Sonshine.  I was just remembering how things had been in Gilneas and how he and I would hunt together, yes, we would drink and chase the girls before I got married.  We had some good times, however, he was always more than a bit aggressive when he had too much to drink.  We had fights back then too, however, things are different since the Curse and we left our homeland.  We’re all struggling trying to come to some kind of compromise with our situation.  The old ways just aren’t going to work here.  Oh well, he’s gone and that’s all I can look at it now – he made the decision to leave and I didn’t beg him to stay either.  I think that I had finally reached my limit with his constant complaining about how things weren’t fair in this new land.  Hello, stupid, the real clue is that we’ve been Cursed, there is no cure and you’re going to have to adapt to how things are now.  The old life is gone for good.  My wife had always told me that Sonshine was going to be trouble some day and I’ll be blessed that she gave me that warning before I lost her.

I got more than enough leather to fill the contracts that we had on-hand and I’m sure that means that we will be making another trip to Stormwind in the next week or two to hand our stock in and collect our money.  Money will be nice to have.

I didn’t tell Felley that I ran into some Horde while I was out and I sure won’t tell her that I let the Wolf have free reign.  I can’t believe how much I enjoyed killing those Orcs and Forsaken after seeing some of the destruction that they were causing on the land.  Even closed behind our walls in Gilneas we would hear the tales of how the Horde dealt with things – we are a prime example of how they dealt with some things.  I think I took special joy in killing the Forsaken and I don’t think I left too much behind in the way of bodies that weren’t broken and scattered around.  No, I didn’t get wounded and no, I didn’t partake of any of the “meat” that might have been there, I’m not that kind of Wolf. Besides, I was helping out some Sentinels.

The funny thing is that these Sentinels wouldn’t recognize me if they saw me walking down the street some day because I stayed in wolf form the entire time that I was with them.  I actually made some extra money while I spent those couple of hours clearing out the area with them.  Of course, I could keep any loot that I might want to keep from my kills, there was no quibbling or stacking it up to be split amongst the group.  I guess this means that I’m a mercenary now, which isn’t all that bad, the pay seems to be real good.

I am just going to relax in Darnassus today though.  I’m tired.  What started out to be a trip on my own that only lasted a couple of days and nights just to think about things really turned out to be quite an adventure and very profitable.  I think the next time that we take the pack out for a romp, we’ll wander a bit further South and see what else there is to see.

 It will be a good thing for us to start operating in a larger area anyway.  I just have a strange feeling that Sonshine isn’t quite done with us yet. If we give him a wider berth, I don’t think that he will be able to cause us much trouble either. The people here in Darnassus know who and what he is, so, I’m sure that we’ll be safe when we’re in town. I’ll have to see how this new kid works out too, he’s still pretty green with the Curse and I don’t know if he has a real control over himself yet. We can get that tested out in time.



The Curse Isn’t All That Bad…

April 4th

Dear Journal,

Oh, I am still shaking my head about our trip to Goldshire.  I guess that some people have no inhibitions about their conduct; however, I know that Felley was a real lady before we came to Darnassus after the Curse and I wanted to protect her sensibilities.   I think part of her was shocked by it all and part of her wanted to stay and take in the sights – well, can’t blame her there because there were indeed some sights to behold.  I wasn’t all that embarrassed with some of because I have been out in the world a bit more than Felley has been.  Oh yeah, we were sheltered in Gilneas from a lot of things that went on out in the world, however, we weren’t exactly puritanical in things either.  Some pretty kinky things could and did happen behind that wall.

I know that when we got back to Stormwind, things seemed a bit more normal, well almost normal, at least the people had their clothes on and weren’t dancing on the tables like they were in Goldshire.  I am still sitting here shaking my head and trying to get some of those tantalizing images out of my head. I’m still a man and I still have those fantasies that parade through there, just never thought I’d see them in real life all at once.

We have met quite a few nice people in Stormwind and quite a few people from Gilneas. Oh, there are quite a few that appear to want to pretend that the Curse never happened and are trying to live their lives as they did before. It’s futile to deny the Wolf – however, you can learn how to have control over it more than just denying it.  Oh, for some people to deny it and try not to enjoy the freedom that that part of your life gives you is the biggest mistake you could ever make.  I’m not denying that I didn’t go through the same thing for a long time, however, once I accepted it, got control of it – I can see that I am a much happier fellow for it.

The more that I have talked with people here in Stormwind, I am realizing that the probability of my wife and daughters showing up in the future is almost slim to nil.  That makes me sad because I always had my hope to build some of my dreams on.  Now, I will have to start putting that dream behind me and get on with my life. Maybe one of these years my heart will heal from the loss of my beloved wife, children enough to make something more permanent in this life.

I have to count myself lucky that I found a woman like Felicity that definitely came from a better background than mine has decided that she wants to stay with me.  Oh, we have our differences now and again, however, she has to learn not only her way with her Wolf but she also had to do a lot of menial tasks that she never dreamt of doing before.  She’s learning and, I think that she is actually enjoying some of it, even though she will complain that it really does spoil her hands – doesn’t affect her paws though.  There are days that I just marvel that she is with an uneducated man like me – well, I’m not uneducated.  I guess that I should say that I lack the polish and social graces that she was raised with.  That sounds much better.

Oh, we had a great time in Stormwind.  I don’t think that we have ever taken the time to explore it like we did this time.  We had planned on being at the holiday gathers for at least a couple of days, which didn’t work out all that well, however, we enjoyed those days just the same.  We did walk the streets of Stormwind like we belonged there even though we probably had the Darnassus refugee stamp on us like a lot of others do.  We just walked, talked and actually had enough money to do a bit of shopping.

Why is it that women get all strange when they get to shop?  I mean, I’ve taken Felley shopping before and she is always the same way.  They have to look at each and everything in the shop before they can decide if they want to even buy anything or not.  Me, I already know before I walk into a shop , what it is that I want and get the item, buy it and leave – I don’t feel the need to look at every single thing in the store before I make my purchase.

We went into Old Town and that was an experience of itself.   We found a watch shop that was booming with business and the proprietor was definitely one of us. Oh, I thought that Felley was going to spend the entire day in there.

They had watches, trinkets and all kinds of things that were apparently crafted by artisans that worked for the proprietor.  I know Felley kept looking at the little clockwork animals that were in the window and kept going back to this little owl time and again.  It was rather intricately made with the way that its head would swivel, eyes blinked and it would flap its wings.  Let’s just say that the owl is now on the mantle over of the fireplace in our house in Darnassus.  She didn’t ask me to buy it for her, I bought it because I knew that she liked it – she doesn’t have many nice things and this might help her know that I want her to have things like she did in her past life.  Oh, there were a few things in the shop that I wouldn’t have minded purchasing, however, I didn’t need them either and our finances aren’t limitless. My old watch is rather battered and sometimes it doesn’t keep very good time, the case is much worn and you can see the where the silver has worn away to the base metal beneath.  One of these days I’ll get a new one, however, making Felley happy was more important to me than an old watch being replaced.

I’m sure that Sonshine and Abigayle would have had a great time in Stormwind, however, this was a trip for Felley and me to enjoy by ourselves.  Since we decided to form our pack, Felley and I rarely get those moments alone that we need to have. Oh, the others don’t bother me that me because I’ve known Sonshine since he and I ware boys, however, I think that the women get a bit jealous of each other every now and again.  Abigayle is still very young and she is one that craves the attention of the people around her and Felicity is more the lady than to expect it all of the time.  I don’t think that either one of them realizes that I’ve seen the not so playful nips passed between them when we are out in the field and Abigayle tries to get too close to me.  Now, Felley doesn’t have a thing to worry about because Abigayle is more like a child to me than anything else, I’ll protect her if the need arises, however, she’s just not my type and she’s supposed to be Sonshine’s girl.  I just thank the fact that we don’t all live in the same house together, that could get awkward.  My old Grandfather used to tell me that having more than one woman in the house at the same time was just asking for trouble – I think he was very correct in that especially if you have two that are of an age that they want a home of their own.

We are planning on going back to Stormwind in the near future.  I found a place that pays top dollar for the kinds of pelts that we have been gathering and I’m going to see if they would like to work with us on that.  We’re not pitifully poor, however, I’d like to be able to feel more comfortable than I do right now.  One can only mend a pair of boots so many times before it becomes a futile act.  I wouldn’t mind having a few extra coins in my pouch next Winter Veil for gifts and such.

Now that we’re back in Darnassus and settled in after our trip, it is going to be time for us to start taking care of our business more.  Spring is definitely showing up and that means that we are going to have more game and more pelts to gather.   I can tell that the rest of the pack is starting to get a bit restless and we all need to get out of the city to let the Wolves take to the field.

I know that people would think that I have totally lost my mind or sold my soul out to whatever power there is, however, I am enjoying the freedom that I have when we can be ourselves out in the woods.  I’m sure that not everyone can accept it, however, I am taking ownership of my situation and I will make the best of it.  I do have my own rules that I follow, I stay in my human form, which isn’t all that bad to gaze upon, when we are in the cities and when we escape from the confines of the cities, I’ll go into my wolf because it makes my job so much easier and I enjoy how it feels to be that powerful.   I think that Felley feels the same way even if she doesn’t realize it.

No, I don’t consider the Curse a blessing by any means, however, I’m learning how to accept it for what it is and I will deal with the things as best I can.  Oh, I’ve met quite a few that are more feral even while they are in the human forms than is absolutely necessary. I’ve even cautioned Sonshine about his actions more than a few times.  He was always kind of wild and I think that there are times when he isn’t in full control of his other self when he starts drinking too much.

Oh well, seems that Felley is in the mood for fish tonight and has decided that it would be a good thing for me to do while she is doing some other things around the house.  So, off I go with my fishing pole in hand to get some fish.


A Trip to Goldshire…

March 31st

Dear Journal,

You can definitely tell that the Spring season is upon this morning.  I awakened sneezing and woke up Oak.   We were going to stay in the Inn at Goldshire, just for fun; however, it was so crowded with people that that idea went quickly out the window as we pushed our way through the masses of people and other things.

We had left our home in Darnassus early yesterday morning to come to Stormwind for a visit.  It’s been a very long time since we have been here.  Well, not since Winter Veil at least.  We’ve been too busy with our pack and with our own hunting to do much of anything else.

I can’t believe all of these people here and around Goldshire.  We had thought that we would come in a couple of days early to check out the place before the celebration for Noble Garden started on the morrow.  Ah well, after looking things over, we’ve decided that it would be more of a effort in futility to try to gather those eggs as we have done in times past – so, we’re just going to spend a few days close to Stormwind. We have both enjoyed the hunt for those eggs in Gilneas before the changes – it was always fun and sometimes, you would find a few little treasures along with the eggs.

I have never seen anything quite like the Inn in Goldshire.  It’s as if the place had been invaded by demons and anyone that stayed within the confines of those walls for very long might become possessed and start doing lewd acts out in front of everyone without any care for decency at all.  I think that it embarrassed Oak too much to even ask for a room, he just grabbed my hand and we left.

We found an unoccupied cave, actually fairly close to Stormwind.  Well, it’s unoccupied now; the critters that were living in it have long since been vanquished since our arrival.  We both laughed as we started to unpack some of our bags to settle in for a while.  We had come for the celebration, primarily; however, we wanted to see how the packs were run in this area.

Oh, our little group is very good at what we do although we’re only number four and we have survived quite nicely in Kalimdor.  We just wanted to see how the other packs were around Stormwind and a few of the smaller towns in the area.  Of course, with the holiday and the masses of people that we have seen so far, we may have to go further afield to find any other worgen in their natural habitats. Oak is already aware of the fact that not all Alphas are male – we have been surprised a few times already.

What we’re hoping to do now is to return to Stormwind in our human forms and see how the other Gilnean are faring in that city.  It’s been wonderful in Darnassus for us, however, we want to see how many people may have survived the Curse and have fitted themselves in with the rest of the humans. Oh we heard that distinctive accent a few times as we traveled through the city; however, we were in the mind, at that time, to get settled in Goldshire and then return.

When we left Goldshire, I know that neither one of us spoke for a while.  I know that we both had to let what we had seen get filtered through our minds.  I’ve never seen the like and would have liked to stay a few minutes longer; however, Oak would have none of it.  He said he hadn’t ever seen so many naked people in his life anywhere and he had traveled quite a bit before we were shipped off to Darnassus with the elves.   I think that part of my wanting to linger was the fact that I hadn’t ever seen so many people acting as if they had lost their minds and their decency in one place before.  Maybe the Inn had been turned into a temporary asylum for the insane or something – it was all rather awful.

I had thought that Oak was going to lose control of his wolf when we were in there because he didn’t know what else to do or that the shock was so great that it shook him to his very soul.

Oh, my parents were probably rolling in the graves, if they could see what I saw in a brief period of time.  I was a lady and all of the decorum that could be mustered was always observed in our home.  My Mother probably would have fainted at the sight of all of that nudity and debauchery and my Father would have probably tried to ignore it as best he could while trying to get his bearings to find the exit back outside.

Oak and I were rather surprised that the guards were just standing outside as if nothing were going on.  Maybe this is a common occurrence in the village now?  Oh well, we’ve decided that we’re not going back there for any reason, celebration or not.  One would have thought that the King in Stormwind would have put a stop to this kind of activity that is almost on his doorstep.

Oh, I’m sure we would have had our hands if we had brought Sonshine and Abigayle with us. Sonshine might have wanted to linger more than just a little bit longer than Oak – he’s a bit wilder and bit more open for that kind of thing.  Abigayle would have wanted to stay with Sonshine because of their relationship and she’s the most innocent of us all.

Oh well, so much for that holiday that we had promised ourselves.  We’ll stay close to Stormwind and see what we can find out before we head back to Darnassus and the peace, sanity and quiet that we have come to enjoy there.

I made a suggestion to Oak that maybe we could take a jaunt to Ironforge, just to see it again and he shook his head.  I think he was so appalled by what we’ve seen so far that he just might want to cancel everything and head back to Darnassus in the morning.

I am very disappointed with our latest sojourn in search of some just plain “fun” and a celebration that we both grew up with as children.  Oh well, there are things that have changed for the worse and for the better – I think that we won’t be passing close to Goldshire again for a very long time.

I have to smile.  Abner just gave me a kiss on the cheek and told me that he would make it up to me that we’re not going to be able to go to the celebration as we had hoped.  I had even packed my best gown for the trip and now, I probably won’t even get an opportunity to put it on.  Or, maybe not, I think that we may be going into town for dinner tonight, which will be a nice change of pace and what a better way to meet people than to go to an Inn – not Goldshire.

Felley Fitzpatrick

Adjusting To A New Life

March 3rd

Dear Journal,

I saw Felley writing in her journal the other day and thought that I might as well blow the dust off of mine and write a few lines while we’re in Darnassus today.  Nope, haven’t written in here since the day before our Winter Veil trip to Ironforge.

Now, that I think about it, that was a marvelous time. I had purchased Felley a dress to because acted as if it bothered her not to have some female finery to wear when we there.  She looked so beautiful in that gown with her hair all done up on top of her head.  She’s a very beautiful woman in her human form and even more beautiful in my eyes in her wolf form.

Felley has accepted the fact that we have the Curse more easily than I have.  I know that I still have trouble with that inner yearning that precedes the wolf, however, it is getting easier to dampen that down a bit more these days.

When we were in Ironforge, we had so much fun.  There was drinking and dancing, and so much food that we both embarrassed ourselves with the amount we ate.  Of course, I was watching how much we spent because we don’t have that much between us, however, we had enough to enjoy everything and still had enough left over to find a place to stay at the Inn there.  We did share a room and a bed that night, however, we did get the bundling board to go between us so we wouldn’t accidently touch each other as we slept.  It was old fashioned and kind of silly, however, we observed the tradition just because it made Felley feel better.

I have to laugh about that at this point because when we got back to Darnassus, that all changed.  We both share the same bed and the same room now without thinking about it. I think we’re even more comfortable if we have to bed down out in the field if we are shifted into our wolf forms though – if someone should happen upon us, they would just see two wolves curled up together.  We’ve found a couple of caves that we like to use from time to time in Darkshore, providing they aren’t occupied by some of the resident wildlife.

I still find myself searching for my wife and daughters whenever we are in a city though. I’ll admit that it is with less frequency or urgency than it used to be in the past.  I’ve not completely given up hope that they will show up, however, there is always that faint hope in my heart.

Felley and I are close to one another as any man and woman can be but I’ve never told her I loved her.  Somehow, the idea of telling her that would betray my hopes of my wife returning. Oh, we’ve had a couple of battles about my longing for things in the past, however, Felley has never had a husband nor has she had children – there is a different feeling that you have once that has happened in your life.

It does make me laugh, that longing for the past.  I’m longing for my family and farm and Felley sometimes longs for the finer things that she had grown accustomed too in her home.  Occasionally we both play games with one another when I’ll be the Butler and serve her some tea or food, including all the bowing and scraping that I assumed they would do.   It’s a sad little game however, it does make us laugh.  I would make a terrible house servant because I can’t help but start laughing when I am doing my “job” and the look that Felley gets on her face – she tries so hard to do the role play, however, we both are terrible actors.

We’ve gone through some hard times here in Darnassus.  For one thing, the first meal that Felley cooked was awful.  I really tried to eat it, however, my gag reflexes took over after the fourth or fifth bite which resulted in her running into our bedroom slamming the door and crying.  So, I’ve taught her how to cook and the food is much better now.  Oh my, she didn’t even know how to do laundry, which we both found out in wearing soapy clothes and itching to death for a while.  She does know how to sew and can make the finest seam a man could ask for on a tear or even a patch.  I suppose she did a lot of that fancy sewing back in her home in Gilneas.

We do have a small pack of Gilneas wolves that we run with occasionally.  Sonshine is quite the wolf and I think that he would love to be an Alpha, if there wasn’t already one with the group – that Alpha is me. Oh, he and I have our struggles with our personalities clashing now and then, however, we had that problem in Gilneas before the Curse.  I think that he is a bit frustrated with the fact that I have already found a female to add to my life.  Plus, he’s a bit jealous of the friendship that Felley and I have outside of the home.

 It is actually kind of remarkable because I’ve never really had a friend like Felley – even though she came from a rich family, she is my equal out in the field.  She has learned so much in a short amount of time that it is almost shocking the way she has adapted to things.

If my wife and daughters do happen to show up, which I think is rather doubtful after all of these months, there will be problems.  Felley and I are very close and it would be extremely complicated.  Besides, not everyone in Gilneas was Cursed that I am aware of or if they were, they are better at hiding it than some of us here in Darnassus.

Well, I guess that I need to stop writing here because we are getting ready to go out and do some more hunting.  We have to earn our keep here so that we can have some better things in our human forms.  Sonshine found a new girlfriend too – Abigayle.  She’s a sweet little thing that seems to have no clue as to what is going on.  She’s not been changed as long as the rest of us and she’s still learning how to control the wolf.  It can be comical at times because every time something exciting is going on – the wolf comes out.  Our last trip to Stormwind as a group was rather awkward a couple of times – a rat on the wharf frightened her and “poof” the wolf was there. She’s learning and we are all trying to be patient with her – we’ve all been through it ourselves.


Life Moves On…No Matter What

March 1st

Dear Journal,

Oh dear! It’s been a while since I have actually been able to sit down and write in this journal.  Well, I haven’t written in it since Oak and I started living together.  Oh, that was some Winter Veil!  We had so much fun when we went to Ironforge together that we never bothered to part company again.

Of course, I’m sure that Sonshine is giving Oak all kinds of grief about the fact that he has taken up with a woman, however, he doesn’t have that much room to talk with the way he has been flirting endlessly with Abigayle either.  He’s not as smooth about what his intentions as Oak is, however, we all get the idea that we’ll be running as a pack.  No argument as to which one is the Alpha either because Oak is a bit older and more experienced in the world than the rest of us.

When I sit down and think about what has been going on all of these months, my mind is just whirling.  At first, we were both kind of standoffish about being alone together and he slept on the couch and I slept in the bed – then, we had more than one cold night and I told him that I didn’t care if he shared the bed.  Of course, we were sorely tempted to go into our wolf forms although there was always the possibility that someone might walk in on us while we were sleeping. We are both very careful to stay in human form while we are in the cities, however, once we get away from the humanity – we feel very comfortable in what has become a second nature to us both.

Yes, I still see Oak glancing at a female woman now and again, however, I know that he is still looking and hoping that his family might appear one day.  Yes, it does bother me that his heart is still longing for a thing that will never be again.  We have both given up hope of ever being reunited with old friends from Gilneas and our families or what might still remain of them.

I don’t think I have ever been happier in my life.  No, I don’t have the luxuries that I had at home in Gilneas, however, I wasn’t Cursed at that point either.  I miss some of the finer things that I had, servants that took care of everything – now, it’s just Oak and I doing our own cooking, cleaning and laundry.  I shouldn’t admit this, I suppose, however, he did have to teach me how to cook some of the food and definitely the laundry. 

The first time I did the laundry, I thought it looked great and was okay, it wasn’t.  Oak thought that he had gotten fleas from somewhere because he was itching and trying not to scratch and I will admit that I was a bit uncomfortable too.   I didn’t get all of the soap out of the undergarments.  We had a miserable few days until it was time to do laundry again.  That’s when I found out what I had done wrong. I am very happy that he is such a kind and understanding man. He sat there and helped me do the laundry and showed me how to get the soap out and how to rinse everything really well.  I thought you just took it out of the soapy tub and threw it in the clean water and swished it around a bit.  Nope, that wasn’t how it was done.

I suppose that Oak and I are going to go to Ashenvale today and then do some scouting around in Stonetalon.  Naturally, we’re looking at the game, the inhabitants and also, I think we have a bit of the wanderlust going.

I have reconciled myself that all of these so-called treatments that I have heard talk about are just that.  Just talk.  Oak seems to have some trouble with the idea that this is how life is going to be sometimes, however, we’re both learning how to accept it.  We’ve both learned how to keep our wolves in check when we are in Darnassus or Stormwind, out in the field, we let ourselves have free rein to do as we wish.

We’re also looking around to see if we can set up some kind of base camp for ourselves so that we don’t have to make the trek back to Darnassus once every few days.  We’ve both seen places that we like tremendously, no people around.




Accepting Life for Winter Veil

December 26th

Dear Journal,

I never thought that I would have this much fun with Winter Veil this year but I think that finding Felicity and making friends with her has helped a great deal.  No, don’t get me wrong, I still miss my wife and my girls more than anyone could imagine.  I still hope that someday I will find them again, I’m still catching myself every time I see a woman walk by with the same hair color as my wife, just hoping.

Felley and I went to Iron Forge and I think that she was really shocked at how the dwarves actually live so close to the Great Forge, the celebration had definitely dressed the place up and she was in awe of everything.  We were able to get to the tree and able to get our gifts without too much trouble – there was definitely a crowd of people wishing to do the same thing.  Oh, I was in awe of everything too, especially the way that Felley looked in her winter red gown that I was able find for her before we left Stormwind.  I’m sitting here with a huge smile on my face because she was so happy with her gift even though it was more personal than what it should have been if we were following social amours and proper etiquette.

Oh, we really enjoyed going outside and letting our mounts run through the snow.  Of course, we had a bit of a frolic throwing snowballs at one another until we both just collapsed with the laughter.  She’s a damned good shot with those snowballs, however, I was able to wing a few in her direction that she couldn’t dodge completely.  We both maintained our human forms within the confines of the city, however, once we got far enough away from the rest of the folks and got out into the woods, we gave our wolves free rein.

I can’t really explain the freedom that I feel or probably what Felley feels when we both take on our wolf forms.  We’re totally free from the binding clothing that we wear as humans and can let our instincts carry us across the snow and the ice covered lakes.  With all of the fur, we hardly felt the cold until we were both chasing one another and tried to skid to a halt before we slid through a hole in the ice.  No, we weren’t hurt or anything, just noticing that even with a fur coat to cover our skins we still felt that chill blast of cold water as we fell in.

We were able to find a cave not too terribly far away from the lake and we were able to build a fire, trying not to glance at one another in our naked human forms.  I’ll admit that I took a peek and definitely like the sight that I was able to behold.  She is definitely a beautiful woman as well as a beautiful wolf.   I know that we enjoyed that time in the cave, drying ourselves before the fire and I think that if anyone walked by our little hideout, they would have heard two wolves chuckling inside.  I know it felt “right” for us to curl up closely together for just the sheer warmth of our bodies being so close together, it also felt “right” for us to be there together.

No, no, nothing happened in that cave other than sharing body heat.  I respect Miss Fitzpatrick too much to have made any advances to her other than just cuddling together.  Besides, my heart still belongs to my wife and my daughters and it would have felt like I was betraying both my vows and myself if anything other than being close would have happened.

It’s really strange how only a few months ago, I was bemoaning the fact of the Curse and now, I think that I have gotten to where I know that I will learn to adjust to it more.  I think initially, it was the not being able to control the beast when it wanted to appear, now, I’ve gotten the gist of it for the most part, although I will sometimes lose that control – depending on the circumstances.

I know that getting back to Iron Forge and feeling that warmth again was definitely more to our liking.  We definitely had a marvelous time at one of the Inns by having some hot chocolate to drink and having a decent meal prepared for us.  Naturally we both decided that having a little bit of the local alcohol wouldn’t be such a bad idea either and we were both surprised.  Everything just tasted so marvelous and I think that we both enjoyed each other’s company quite a bit. 

I would have liked to have been able to take a room for the night, however, with the crowding there, we would have had to share a room not only between us but with several others as well.  We opted to head back to Stormwind where we were able to find  an adequate room, even though it wasn’t as warm as the ones in Iron Forge might have been.

I know that we both blushed as we exited from behind the changing screens in our room in Stormwind and saw each other covered from head-to-toe in our night clothes.  We had a good chuckle as we crawled under the blankets, having used the warming pan to warm up the sheets first.  Oh yes, we observed the proprietary thing of having a bundling board between us, so, that in our slumber, the temptations wouldn’t arise.  We lay there stretched out and talked about our frolicking in the snow as wolves and we both fell asleep.

Getting back to Darnassus this morning was both entertaining and enlightening to both of us.  I suppose some people with more base levels of thought were thinking that we had gone off for some kind of romantic tryst since we hadn’t returned until this morning.   Silly people and their baser thoughts.  Sonshine just winked and grinned at me when we passed one another, us loaded down with our baggage and equipment.  Oh well, someday I’ll have to tell him how we spent our time.

After getting our things put away in our room in Darnassus, I checked our financial situation and decided that we could afford the luxury of just staying home today.  Felley is curled up on the bed and I’ve noticed that sometimes when she is sleeping, she lets out a little yip and growl – it’s kind of nice knowing that if she alters to her wolf that I would still be comfortable with her.




First Winter Veil Away From Gilneas

December 21st

Dear Journal,

I guess that I have decided to start keeping a journal like everyone else has here in Darnassus.  Sometimes it is just as well to keep your thoughts to yourself rather than try to discuss them with anyone else here in our displaced community.

I should introduce myself, I suppose.  My name is Felicity Fitzpatrick and my friends call me Felley, most of the time.  I used to live in Gilneas before we got routed from our homes by those ugly Forsaken things.  Yes, I didn’t escape unscathed and I did get the Curse – seems a lot of us got that gift whether we wanted it or not.

I’m kind of sad at the moment because I keep thinking about how the snow will be falling at home, how my Mom would be up early every day baking more holiday goods – lots and lots of different kinds of cookies and candies.  I miss those smells.  Heck!  I just miss my house and my own bedroom.

I miss having someone come in and helping me get dressed in the morning, brushing my hair, giving me a soft kiss on the cheek and telling me that I was probably the prettiest girl in all of Gilneas. I miss seeing my Father sitting at the head of the table with that ever-present steaming cup of tea in front of him.  I miss hearing my Mother ring the bell and having the serving wenches bring the fare – oh, the food, I miss the food most of all.

I miss the parties that we would all attend at this time of year.  I would have a new gown for each party with shoes and bags to match.  My shiny auburn hair would be set aglow with jeweled pins and my Mother would always make sure that my bustle was just perfect to show off my tiny waist and rather larger than it should have been chest.  The smell of verbena that would come off my clothes from them being stored away in my armoire. Oh, those were good times and I had a pampered life – my parents loved me, I was their only child.

Now, I have a slightly used set of armor to wear when I leave the city and I don’t even own a dress, which sometimes makes me weep.  I never knew it was so hard to make money or even to find a place to sleep at night until all of this happened.  I know my parents aren’t here, they didn’t survive the onslaught of the worgen running wild through the town – I saw them slaughtered in front of me before I screamed and fainted. I awakened to find myself out in a field not far from the house, the house was burning and to be honest, I was less clothed than I have ever been away from the bath.  I just know that someone saved my life and left me with the Curse.

I have met someone here in Darnassus, a fellow named Oakelsey or something like that – he said to just call him Oak.  He seems nice enough and he seems to be a fair hunter, which, I think will help me in the long term because he seems to know all of these tricks that I have never seen before.  I know how to set a fine table and what linens to use when you have guests, however, I have neither table nor linens anymore, so, that’s not really a good thing to know, I guess.

I may have passed Abner when we were riding through town in our carriage, he does look familiar to me sometimes.  Maybe it’s just the way that he carries himself and the way that he talks to me, I’m not sure. He has been a good friend to me since we met. At least he has shown me how to use a bow properly and has taught me how to hunt.  He also taught me how to control my inner wolf and when to feel comfortable with it.  I know that sometimes, before I met Oak, the change would start and I would just lay down and curl up in a ball until it passed.  I’m not sure how I hadn’t gotten killed in Gilneas because I don’t know how many people would have passed up an opportunity to shoot a “sleeping” wolf that was curled up in a ball.  I know that when everyone was told to get on the Kaldorei ship to flee Gilneas, I just followed everyone else.

Oak has been so kind to me and has even allowed me to share his room without making any kind of advances to me. I think that he knows that I am from a different group of people, his parents were trades people as was he – he is still searching for his wife and daughters.  Poor man does seem to get rather distraught sometimes when he sees a woman with golden hair walk by – he always thinks it might be his wife. 

Oak is doing everything he can to start his new life here with the elves and I think that I will stick close to him.  I don’t know, maybe he is one of those Alpha males or something, I just feel safer with him and I am learning so much from him.  He even brought home a little tree for us to decorate with bits and pieces of things that we had found out hunting.  We actually found a little jeweled hummingbird that we put on the front of the tree so the light from the fireplace would make it glitter.   He’s promised me that we would make the trip to Stormwind and Ironforge to see Greatfather Winter for Winter Veil.  I’ve never been to Ironforge before and I hear that it is really kind of warm and scary with a lot of dwarves running around – I haven’t seen that many dwarves, if the truth were to be known.

Well, I had better clean up my armor a bit and make it shine as much as I can, I don’t have a gown to wear when we go traveling – no carriage either, just our mounts.  I wonder if Oak knows how to braid hair? I would like to put my hair up so I look a bit older and I’d like to look nice for him. Oh, maybe we can get some roasted nuts in Stormwind, if they have them there – I love those things.