April 18th – Some things never change…


April 18th

Dear Journal,

I think the whole world has gone crazy and I’m sitting here watching it happen without any control over it.  Everything that I have planned for in my life has gone amiss and it’s as if the Light has other plans for me.  It would be lovely if I knew what that was.

I have waited months and years for my plans with Fnar Dawnglory to bear fruit and it does appear as though it might have happened for me until that cow he’s involved with was rescued or found or whatever she was – with a new baby to boot.  Wonder if this one is his? I know the little girl is his because she looks like her Daddy, however, I haven’t seen this new one. And it’s a boy.  I know that she keeps pushing out these children like the dog that she is, however, I know that my love isn’t all that fond of children as he has told me so many times.  The statement could have been directed at me too because I was fairly young back then and already very much in love with my golden-haired man.  Who cares, I know that he will soon tire of this domestic bliss that that Romy seems to be forcing on him.

I know that I am just disgusted, and I am not giving up on my plans just yet.   I know that I was hoping that that one night of lying with my love would have gotten me with child, however, I wasn’t that lucky.  Now that he is back with that woman, I will have to figure out something else.  I doubt that I will be able to find him in a drunken stupor again and be able to get into his bed.

Well, not enough time has passed for me to not to try something else.  Maybe I can have a liaison with another man of similar appearance and get myself with child.  I could always pass the child off as Fnar’s child and see how that will work.  If I had his baby, I’d be on the same level with that cow of his – not much better than she is for that matter.  That’s how she’s got him trapped now, by pushing out those kids and I know how much he wants a family of his own because of his being raised in an orphanage with his sister, Felessa.

I did meet one young fellow that looks very much like Dawnglory, however, I think this one is a bit more street-smart and I will have to be extra tricky with him.  Also, I found another fellow that seems older and more experienced than I am, however, the only drawback on that is that he looks very much like my adopted brother.  Well, that might work except for the fact that Fnor and I aren’t blood relations.  Well, I’ll have to think on this a bit more.

 

Faendra Morningstar

OOC – April 6th – Surprise…New Expansion Release Date


Friday – April 6th, 2018

I will have to admit that I sure wasn’t expecting the expansion release date for Battle for Azeroth to be as soon as it appears to be currently.   August 18th doesn’t seem to be all that far away when you’re as far behind as I am.  Part of the reason that I am behind is due to health reasons and part of it is because I wasn’t paying attention and played stupid.  Oh well, I’m still having fun and will continue to do so.

I do have the Alpha for BfA, however, I haven’t played it all that much because I don’t want to get burned out and I don’t want to know everything that is going to happen before it happens in the “live” portion of the game.  I have been in almost all the Alpha/Beta portions of the expansions and I will have to admit that it spoiled some of the initial joy of seeing the stuff on live.  Oh well, I’ll keep plodding along and doing the things that I want to do because that’s the life of a casual player.

I am excited about the new expansion getting here and will play my brains out for a few days, I’m sure.  I think it’s rather ironic that it is going to drop on a Saturday according to my calendar. The EU folks are going to be binge playing like mad because they have a holiday that feeds into the expansion release period.  If I was working, I would arrange to have a few days off – I used to do that when I was working anyway.  Silly person that I am, I will plan my chores around this event and try to get everything done prior to that.  I’m excited because I have a feeling that this is going to be a good expansion because even if I haven’t played Legion all that much, it was good in a lot of ways.  Yes, I hate the RNG and the gating that went on, however, being so far behind isn’t all that bad because I don’t have the gates to deal with.

I’m not going to talk about what I have discovered in the Alpha stuff because I know that there are a lot of people out there that don’t want to have the “live” version spoiled by knowing too much.  I think that we are all going to be adjusting to our class changes and how the squishes are going to hit us all.  I am just happy to get away from the weapon setup that we had in Legion – I did hate that with a passion.

I feel like an utter fool right now too because I have all these alts in-game and I play them because I enjoy them, however, I don’t know why I thought that the reps were shared.  Of course, they aren’t shared, you dolt!  Now, I am going to have to bust my behind to get some of my characters really caught up.  I don’t know why I was running with that misconception other than the fact that I was paying more attention to Pathfinder than I was to the rep grinding that was required.  I’m not proud and I can admit when I screw up and move on.  I know that I felt stupid when I found out the error of my ways – was looking up info for a friend and that’s when I saw it.  Poor person had been working like a fiend to get all the reps for the new races and she thought the same thing that I did, and we were both wrong.  Oh well, hey, you gotta learn the hard way sometimes.   I can imagine that she is a bit disheartened with the way she worked to find out that the only thing she got was her 110 to almost everything exalted, and her alts start out at friendly.

I will have to admit that I am bouncing all over the game and exploring since I got my new computer, just seeing all the things to see and just killing a bit of time too.  Still working on screenshots and things of that nature, might be able to upload them one of these days.  I think I am just enjoying the game and laughing like a loon when I get myself into weird situations – still wish I had my flying in Legion but it doesn’t bother me that much except for when I leap off something without thinking about it beforehand. 

 

April 2nd – A time for reflection and thoughts


Written in very cursive script denoting the maturity and education of the author

 

 

March 31st

 

Dear Journal,

I know that life has been extremely busy for me of late and that it seems as if I don’t have time to write as often as I would like, however, duty calls on you to leave the personal things to the side and attend to the things at hand.  Can’t say that I am overly fond of the thought of ignoring my family and it is something that I rarely do – just as the Pandaren say, what do you fight for?  I am still of the mind that I am fighting for my family, my home and then, for my faction.  Family will always come first to me due to my upbringing and how things could have been so different if I hadn’t had the opportunity to grow up with a family that loved me.

I know that I am as guilty as the next man for not thinking before I act sometimes, however, I have learned over the years through my own experience that actions, no matter how trivial, will always have consequences.  I know that I have had my hands full with my duties of late and fighting with demons for most of my waking moments, however, there are times when one must call a halt to all that and try to give your life some attention.

Oh, Amyn and I are doing fine, and we are finding time to spend with one another even in the Broken Isles and we aren’t taking as many risks in being exposed as we might have taken when we were younger.  We’re both older now and more cautious since we have both of our families to consider and our own children.  My eldest son, Kaldor, is here in the Broken Isles as well and I do have some concern for him because he does have the rashness of his Mother and myself that might lead him astray from time to time.  Of course, Amyn and I can’t expect to spend as much time with him as we would like which is understandable since he is still acting as Scout for the Sentinels as is his duty – I know he must be missing Kaelendra because she is back in Draenor attending to her duties there.

I will have to admit that I was in hopes that Kal and Kae would have taken their vows already, however, Kal seems to be a bit hesitant with that aspect of his life.  He loves the girl and there is no doubt in my mind in that regard, however, he is just biding his time with the formality of it.  I’ll be honest, Amyn and I would love to have a grandchild some day soon – there are no guarantees that our bloodline will continue with these constant wars that seem to happen in Azeroth.

With the rumors that are floating around these days, I almost feel like history is going to be repeating itself yet again.  I felt like we had finally made some kind of compromise with the Alliance while Varian was still alive, however, with Anduin taking his Father’s place after his untimely demise – I’m not so sure that the uneasy truce we had will last, not with Greymane bending the young fellow’s ear every chance he gets – the hatred that he feels for our current Warchief is not going to be easily appeased.  I can understand some of the things that are going on, however, I do wonder if our diplomats aren’t a bit off point with some of the actions that are starting to rear their ugly heads again.

The only peaceful time that I can recall was when I bought the house in Dalaran and lived there for few years.  Of course, we had to still fight the scourge and we still had to deal with all the things that were going on in Northrend at the time.  The Lich King’s demise couldn’t have happened at a better time as far as I am concerned.  Not only were the Death Knights freed from his control, I was freed from my military obligations for a while and that’s when I started my business.  Dawnglory and I both spent a great deal of time getting the business going and Amyn did her part as well.  It was a time of peace for all of us – not long lasting, mind you, however, it was a peace that we had never known.  Looking at how things have turned out, I was in the right place at the right time to build my alternative lifestyle with my love and with my business.

I know that Dawnglory is happy to have his family back with him and I know the rest of us are relieved.  I don’t think that I have ever seen the poor fellow so devastated during the whole time they were missing.  Yes, everyone that knew him was worried that he might not make it if we couldn’t find his family.  I know exactly how he feels too because I’ve experienced similar things and I sometimes wondered if life was worth living without my loved ones.

Ah well, I suppose I ought to just stop here for a while and get back to the business at hand and start getting back into a routine of sorts.  These demons are slowly dwindling down, and I wonder if we will ever be able to cleanse Azeroth of them.

Fnor Morningstar

 

 

 

 

OOC – Finally Bit The Bullet


March 26th, 2018

I will have to admit that I really am pleased with the fact that my search for my computer is finally over and I am as happy as can be with the one I purchased.  I’ve been toiling around and trying to find my “build” and tried all kinds of different things only to find out that it was more than just a bit pricey with the cost of the video cards that have tripled in price. So, I started doing the other thing of looking at sites with machines that I could buy off-the-shelf and found exactly what I wanted.  I ended up with a Corsair One – a top of the line machine for me as well as the peripherals.  Nice Razer keyboard and mouse as well as a headset that I have been needing for quite a while. Oh yeah, got a bit screen too so that I could see what I was doing – that seems to be rather important.

Now, I’m still in the process of getting all the things setup and getting everything downloaded (all games are downloaded and playable).  What I really like is the fact that this machine didn’t have any bloatware on it so there wasn’t a whole lot to clean up.  I know that this is the first machine that I have ever had that I didn’t spent tons of time cleaning up the bloat over the following months after I bought it. With all the new things, I’ve been running around like crazy looking at all the stuff in World of Warcraft and the other Blizzard games and I’m sure loving it.  Loads of fun.

Please don’t think that I am bragging because I’m not.  I just am so excited about finally getting a new gaming rig.  I even got yelled at last night for having the volume up too high and rattling the rafters and it wasn’t even turned up all the way. Life has improved for me as far as my computer goes and that makes me very happy.  I spend a lot of time on computers, so, it’s always a bonus to get them all up and running.  Laptop is kind of old, however, it does work for me to write on and do web-browsing.

So, now I have a good reason to keep on playing running around like I’m crazed.  I know that I couldn’t be happier right now because this is something that I have always wanted and now I have it.  Naturally, I went over my budget and that’s okay because it wasn’t too bad.  Didn’t want to get the spouse all riled up or anything of that nature.

Well, wish me luck and I’ll keep running around Azeroth and start getting immersed in my characters again, so I can write my blog. 

Almost There


*Not the usual salty language warning – kind of a calmer Dawnglory for the moment. *

 

March 20th

 

Yo Book!!

I know that I must be the happiest man on Azeroth now and the most relieved. To have one’s family brought back to you alive and well seems very miraculous.  It truly has shaken me to my core and there are times that I can’t believe that they are back.  All those months of searching and all those days and nights of mourning my loss, which, was something that I had to do because I was never sure that they would be found alive.

I was shocked silly when Zippie told me that they had been found and I will have to admit that I fucking fainted.  Yeah, big strong warrior hit the floor like a brick.  When I came out of my stupor, I had to hear the news again to be sure that I hadn’t just dreamed it. At least I knew that they were safe in Silvermoon and that I would be able to see them soon.  Naturally, being somewhat addle-pated at that point, I was going to take the Zep to UnderCity and the portal to Silvermoon – silly me.  Sometimes I amaze myself at how stupid I can be when I forget that I know a handful of mages that can port me there easily enough. I even know a few of the darker magic fellows that have transported me a few times to get to places in a hurry.  Hey, you learn to utilize the people available to you and don’t let your prejudices get in the way.

I know that I was shocked and surprised at how my family looked when I finally got to Silvermoon City.  I know that I should have realized that they were going to be a bit worse for wear, but I was shocked silly because I didn’t want to believe that they could have suffered the way that they did.  You will always tend to hang onto the memory of how they looked the last time that you saw them, which is exactly what I did.  Naturally, I had no idea what my son looked like because he hadn’t been born yet.

Poor Romy is so thin and looks a bit haggard at this point, however, I understand that she made sure that her children were cared for better than she would think of taking care of herself.  I’m happy and proud that she was able to look after the group of people with her and that she was able to survive.  I know that she is going to need a lot of rest and some very good care for a while before she will be able to resume her life as it was before she was out in the wilds that long.  She is still a beautiful woman to me and will always be that way. Just to be able to see her and hold her in my arms again is a miracle that I will always cherish.

My children are happy and very healthy, thanks to their Mother’s care. I know that I was amazed by how much my little girl had grown and how beautiful she is.  It was amazing to me that the voice I heard in my mind months ago was her voice to the letter, she sounds exactly that way.  She’s grown quite a bit physically and has changed quite a bit from the carefree little girl that I knew, her world had changed, and she adapted.  Romy and I will be talking about this a bit more when she is feeling up to it because the changes were such a dramatic shift that I don’t understand it.  Let’s just say that she has powers that I never knew a Paladin could have and that is the path that the Light has chosen for her.

Oh, my son is quite the handful and is as stubborn and willful as his parents.  I know that I was so happy to see him and to be able to hold him for the first time.  He looks a lot like Romy, however, he does have my smile, hands and feet – the rest is pure Romy.  He cried when I first held him because he’s never seen his Daddy and I was just some strange dude holding him – I guess I would cry too if I was that little and couldn’t understand things yet.

Romy is staying with her family for the time being and I am staying at the main house in Silvermoon that Fnor and I have always used.  Of course, it’s an odd arrangement, I’ll admit, however, it is probably easier for the children to adjust with the people that have been taking care of them for now.  Romy probably needs her family’s support at this point too because she has been through a lot and I know that she just needs to get some rest and some decent food in her.  I’ll do whatever makes her happy and if this arrangement makes her happy, I’ll comply with it.

Fnar Dawnglory

 

 

 

OOC – Just Checking In


March 17th, 2018

I did take a couple of weeks off from my computers because I just wasn’t in the mood to do anything.  That happens every now and again with most people. Physically I do feel better, however, I just haven’t felt compelled to getting involve in World of Warcraft now.  I’m all set to go with BfA even though I have yet to complete Legion.

Legion has been a good expansion and I have enjoyed most of the storylines that I have completed, however, there just seems to be so much to do that there are times that I am overwhelmed.  There are times when I feel like we are being pulled in too many directions.  Yes, I do other things than play video games just as most of us do and sometimes I tend to get involved in those things.  Oh yes, binge watching shows that I have missed because of my involvement in gaming and then, of course, there are books that I want to read as well.  So, between doing all the other things, my gaming has not bee utilized as much as I would have liked. 

Normally at this time of year it is too bloody cold to go outside much, however, this season has been weird because we have had so many warm days that it makes you wonder if Winter is here or is it just playing with the rest of the country.  Our ski areas are getting good snow for the sport; however, the rest of the state is well below our annual snowfall rate which generates our water supply for the rest of the year. 

Since my oldest computer bit the big one, I’m down to one desktop and my laptop.   The laptop can’t really play World of Warcraft all that well, however, it is still functioning enough to log in occasionally.  Currently I am waiting on the prices to drop back down on the memory cards because it is unreal how the prices have jumped up.  We can all thank the bitcoin miners for some of the cost increases on technology now.  Yes, I do acknowledge that GPU is the thing that World of Warcraft uses intensely.  Back in the day, the money that I have saved up would have bought me one heck of a gaming rig off the shelf – this time I was planning on building my own, however, that seems a bit daunting.  Of course, I will be shopping around to get the best that I can afford.

One of the big surprises for me this week was the fact that I got an invitation to participate in the Alpha for World of Warcraft.  Talk about a shock and surprise because I’m not a streamer or anyone special other than being a very long-time player.  I have usually gotten the Beta testing invitations and I think this is my second invitation for an Alpha – last one was MoP.  I am going to be thrilled to work on the Alpha a bit, however, having learned from my experience, I won’t get too heavily involved so that I’m not burned out when the expansion drops.

Just wanted to check in and let people know that I haven’t passed away or anything, just take a brief break from the game that I love and my computers. See you all in Azeroth.

OOC – First Post of the New Year


January 3rd, 2018

So far, I will have to say that it feels pretty much like last year with the difference being that I must remember to use 2018 on my dates now.  Hehe, nope, I wasn’t expecting some huge major thing to happen, however, I was hoping that I’d win the lottery or something exciting.  Well, that didn’t happen, or I’d be someplace where it’s warm with waves washing over my feet.  Nope, still in the Rockies and it’s a tad bit brisk right now.

We stayed home where it was safe and warm on New Year’s Eve and didn’t get out in the traffic and the freezing cold that we had going on at that time.  Can’t say that I wasn’t playing WoW most of the night because I was and felt like garbage on January 1st.  Got up yesterday with the full intention of sitting down to write and play some World of Warcraft and do some proper blog writing – didn’t happen because as soon as I sat down to do that – we lost our internet connection, phones and cable due to an unfortunate construction issue in the neighborhood.

Today was a bit off because I fell asleep on the couch last night and woke up freezing to death, got a throw and curled back up on the couch and went back to sleep some more.   So, today was a truly lazy day and uneventful – played late last night for a few hours and felt rather good about that too.

January 5th, 2018

Luckily my internet and cable seemed to have survived the last couple of days and has allowed me to get into my gaming a bit more.    I know that I have been running around on some of my lowbies and enjoying the different realms that I play on.  It’s always fun to interact with other people in the game and now that the Holiday Season has finally left us behind, I’m sure that there will be things to do and be able to get them done in a timely manner.    

I went on a bit of a binge of resubbing at six-month levels instead of month to month, so, I’ve been spending a bit of time on my alt account – I do have two separate Bnet accounts.  One is completely maxed out with accounts and is the one that I started with in 2005, the secondary account is about two years old and I’ve had a lot of fun just roaming about Azeroth on my own with that one.  Yes, I have too many characters and should cull some of them out, however, I just enjoy toon changing frequently – messes up my progression, however, it’s how I play the game that counts, and it is fun to me.

Some of my old acquaintances have shown back up in the game and that has made it more entertaining.  One can only stay alone for so long without feeling a bit lonely and isolated.  Anyway, the people that came back are equally as much of being altoholics as I am, so, it’s all good.

Okay, time to get back into the game so that I can get in the mood to write some more with my characters.  See you all soon – yes, I finally got caught up on reading all the posts on the blogs that I am following – great writing and reading the adventures that some are having these days too.