Kae’s Thoughts…

November 17th

Dear Journal,

Oh my the seasons are changing rather rabidly here, even in the Valley of Four Winds.  There is a certain chill in the air first thing in the morning that even has the smell of freshly fallen snow – the wind comes down off the mountains, I’m sure.  One thing that I am not enjoying at this time of year is all of the rain, it seems like it doesn’t want to stop, however, that doesn’t mean that we get a day off from harvesting the crops and fighting off the vermin.

Kal has been good on his word of not going to hang out with his old friends in Stormwind and I am happy about that because I think that he was starting to drink way too much and forgetting what his priorities actually were here at the farm and yes, even forgetting that we have an informal commitment to one another.   I know that he is still toying with the idea of going back to Darnassus and taking our pledge at the Moonwell and I know that it is a big thing for the two of us.  I don’t think that I need it that badly, however, it’s something that we want to do in the near future.  Maybe over Winter Veil we can do that?

We’ve spent a good deal of time talking about his family and how he was raised. It sounds as if he has had his own life shaken up a few times with the relationship that his Father and Mother have had over the years, however, Amyn seems to be the one that is the most stable of the two.  What can I say, his Father is very much the Sindorei in all facets of his life it seems and Amyn must have the patience of a priestess to have been able to handle all of the changes that she has gone through with her Sindorei.

Kal definitely has a lot of his Father’s traits sometimes and that is going to be the one thing that will cause us trouble if we both aren’t aware of it.  His fixation on his appearance is definitely a Sindorei thing and I will have to admit that I do take a lot of pride in being seen with him when he is all dressed up in his best.  He’s a handsome man and very masculine – I can really see why some of the girls at the camp were throwing themselves at him all of the time, however, I was the lucky one that captured his heart it seems.

I know that I was laughing at him a couple of days ago when he asked when I wanted to go back to the Jade Temple so that we could do some washing and some fishing.  Honestly, I could do the washing here at the farm just as easily, although I would miss those little outings of ours.  Oh, we still make a day of it and sit there with our packed lunch and some wine and fish. It’s not exactly what some of the girls would all a romantic moment, however, it’s romantic for us.

Oh, I have been watching Dawnglory and his little family at his farm over the fence.  Their little girl is really going to be quite the handful when she starts actually walking more.  I know that she definitely looks like her Father and I think that she is going to be as beautiful as her red-haired Mother.   I had to come in the house to hide my laughter because the little girl definitely has quite the vocabulary and her one word that anyone can understand regardless of faction is “No” – she was smacking her own little chubby hands every time she was reaching out to grab one of the plants that her Mother was weeding. Nothing like having a child that can do self-discipline.

It is definitely times like those, watching the family next door, that I wish that Kal and I had a child of our own.    I know that I have broached the subject with Kal a few times and he always wrinkles his nose up and looks at me like I have said a terrible thing.  I  think we would make great parents and our children would be beautiful.  He keeps telling me that he would hate to bring a child into this world right now because there is so much going on that he doesn’t feel comfortable subjecting another living being of his own blood into the mess.    He always laughs and tells me that we need to get used to the two of us being together first before we introduce someone else into the situation.  Frankly, I think he’s just stalling and unbeknownst to him, I’ve stopped taking my tea a couple of weeks ago, so, we may already have a baby in the works, only Elune knows.   I know that that is a sneaky thing to do to a fellow, however, if it does come to pass, I am in hopes that he will be happy about it.

I know that we are both concerned that there might be more troubles for us in the near future too.  With all of the rumors floating around Pandaria and with some of the things that we have heard in Stormwind when we last went there, we both may be jumping back in with our Sentinels and setting off for a new adventure.  I know that we both would like to have more of a respite than what we have had and some time to enjoy the life that we have carefully crafted here in Pandaria.  Our farm is wonderful and I know that Kal takes great pride in how it has turned out.  If we are forced back into our duty again, we will be searching for someone to manage the place for us because we aren’t going to give it up and go off only to come back to the “nothing” that might be left behind if we surrendered the farm.

I guess that I am going to keep an ear out to see if there is anymore gossip about these new problems that might be facing Azeroth.  Right now, all we can do is to live one day at a time and hope that this blows over and doesn’t yank us away from the things and people we love.

Oh, I don’t like the look on Kal’s face right now, he just came in from getting the mail and he’s holding two envelopes that look kind of official.   Well, I suppose that I should cut this short and see what has happened now.  By  Elune, that man does not look like he’s all that happy.





What’s Next?

March 1st

Dear Journal,

I don’t know whether I should be angry or just be thankful that he was able to return home to me in one piece.  I want to shake some sense into him and then at the same time, I want to hold him tightly in my arms to make sure that he doesn’t disappear on me again.

Kal went to Stormwind to deliver some of the goods that we had collected for our contracts, pick up some more and to get paid for the work we had done.  That seemed like a normal thing to do and I always know that he will stay a little bit longer to visit with his friends that he has back there, which I don’t mind.  It’s a normal progression of things and shouldn’t have been a big deal.  I didn’t go because I had some things that I wanted to finish up here at the farm. This should have been a one day trip at most – at the most, not a two day sojourn without a word from him.

When Kal  finally got home, I was just coming out of the paddock where we keep our Yaks and I saw him limping up the road to the farm.  Normally, I would have rushed to him to welcome him back and to find out why the heck he was walking with a limp. No, this time I was a bit angry with the fact that his one day trip took a lot longer and he hadn’t even sent me word.

Come to find out, he had gone on an expedition of sorts with those friends of his that took him far afield.  Apparently, they had been hired by someone to go to the Hinterlands, lovely place to visit, to gather some information in regard to a recent attack and increased activity in the trolls in the area.  It appears that the trolls had been attacking some of the dwarfs living in the settlement there as well as ambushing a few farms.  The keyword that I think I’m questioning is “investigate” – to me that means to do a reconnaissance of the area, nothing more, nothing less.

From what Kal told me of this little side trip, which should have been much less than what it turned out to be, they ran into a band of trolls and had a skirmish that lasted a while.  Poor fellow got attacked by some ghouls, trolls, mages, priest and Elune only knows what else.  He had been bitten and chewed on by a ghoul as well as getting a flesh would in his shoulder.  Nothing serious, mind you, however, these wounds could have been prevented if he had just sad that he wasn’t going to Hinterlands with his friends.

At least someone had taken the time to address his injuries for him before he decided to come home to Pandaria.  The wounds aren’t serious and it looks as though they have been cleansed thoroughly and dressed properly. Naturally, I redid them all after taking a close inspection of my own.  I’m grateful that he was attended too when he was in Stormwind.

I now think that the next time he takes one of these trips of his, I am going to go with him instead of thinking that he won’t be lead astray into something that might get him killed.  I think it is high time that I make my presence known with his friends too because so far, I’ve only met them once in One Keg and they seemed likeable enough, however, after this trip, I can see that they can be a dangerous lot.  I can understand that they were in it for the money and I don’t see why Kal felt compelled to join in that because he has plenty of money of his own and isn’t that desperate.

We are supposed to go to the Jade Temple today to do some fishing as well as a few other things.  I know Kal would much rather stay home and sleep, however, this time, it’s not going to happen.  his wounds are not that serious and we have obligations that need to be met there.

I’m not a clingy woman by any means, however, with these things happening whenever he gets with his friends in Stormwind, I think that I am going to be a shadow following him around.  I need to find out what these people are about, they don’t seem to be the overly adventurous  about things and yet, they take on a task like this for mere pennies.  All I can see about them so far is that they are thieves and possibly, hired assassins.  As Kal’s companion, I have a right to know what he has gotten himself involved in.


Just A Lazy Day In Halfhill

February 2nd

Dear Journal,

Oh, I can definitely tell that it is still Winter even here in Halfhill.  The cold wind and rain this morning was a reminder that we probably have a few more weeks before Spring finally arrives.

I’m just sitting here watching Kal sleep this morning and I always have to laugh because he looks so young when he’s asleep and makes me wonder what his children might look like one day.  He has a habit of lying flat on his back, however, he always seems to have his hand up next to his cheek.  I bet he was a beautiful baby.

I actually hadn’t planned on Kal being home last night because he had gone to Stormwind to deliver some of the goods that we had collected for our contracts and would be picking more up.  I know that we both have enjoyed the changes in our lives since I left the Sentinels and we’re especially enjoying the profits that we are making with our hard work now.  At least we don’t have a set schedule anymore and we can pretty much do what we want most of the time.

I’ve been sticking fairly close to the farm since I left the Sentinels and I think that has Kal a bit concerned because he said that it was like I was trying to distance myself from everything and he was hoping that it didn’t include him.  After our argument in regard to my cooking ability and muffins that could kill things as needed, he spent the entire next week under the house and caught a terrible cold.

I’ve spent the last few days nursing him back to health and coddling him a bit more than usual.  He was very apologetic about the fact that he hadn’t told me the truth about how my muffins really were and that he wouldn’t do that again.  He also kept leaving me flowers and other small gifts on the front step every day too, which made me feel better and guilty all at the same time.  I think it was the fact that he didn’t tell me the truth and the publicly humiliated me with his friends, even if I wasn’t there.

It really did hurt my feelings and I think it hurt my pride too because I am trying so hard to do the things that normal people do.  I’m just now learning how to cook some of the dishes that I have always liked when we would eat dinner with friends and I think that they are turning out fairly well.  Oh, I’ve had a few accidents with stuff, however, I quickly dispose of them by feeding those to the pigs, none have died yet.

I know that we are both enjoying the luxury of being able to sleep in when we want too.  We’ve both been staying under the furs cuddling for a while in the morning lately and it has definitely been a great start to the day.  Looking deep into those silver green flecked eyes of his is always like losing myself for a little while and let’s just say that he definitely has improved with his lovemaking since we have been together. I’m probably the most satisfied woman in Pandaria and I hope he is the most satisfied man.  I know that week of not having him in the bed with me was a very lonely week for me because I have gotten very used to having him lying there next to me and I missed those honeyed kisses and warm caresses.  However, I was angry enough with him that it was just one of those rough spots in our relationship.

I actually feel like I am coming down with a cold or something because my whole body feels a bit off balance.  Not to mention, I’ve been battling something with my stomach the last few days and I’m almost afraid that it might be from my own cooking, however, it hasn’t seemed to bother Kal at all.  I have already decided that if I keep feeling like this and a “cold” doesn’t show up in force, I’m going to go see a healer because I definitely do hate feeling like this.

I guess that Kal didn’t get to see his Mother yesterday like he had planned.  She’s off in Nagrand and Shattrath for a few days, that might explain why we haven’t seen his Father at his farm either.  I know that neither one of them has been able to spend some extended time with each other since she left Pandaria.  Kal just said that he wanted to talk to her about a few things and was hoping that the little guys were in Stormwind.  Guess with his Mother being gone, the little ones were in Dolonaar with their grandparents again.  He said that Vashlan was busy while he was there, so, they didn’t even get a chance to talk that much either.

Kal really is close to his family and sometimes it worries me because I am always afraid that they won’t like for some reason.  Kal’s Mom seems to like me very much however, she did caution me not to try to pressure Kal into something that he might not be ready for because it would spell disaster for the both of us.  It was kind of odd that she would say something like that because she knows that we haven’t taken our vows at the Moonwell yet and that we’re pretty happy with the way that things are at the moment. I think that Kal will be happier once the business is up and running in Shattrath because it was his home when he was a boy and it’s a place where the whole family can be together, plus, the house in Nagrand is supposedly very beautiful according to him.

I guess they don’t mind staying together in one house so that they can have some quality family time.  I’m not sure how I am going to feel about that because I haven’t spent very much time with the family.  It’s hard for me to figure it out too because I never had a real family, I grew up with the communal living and lived with various families over the years.  The only kind of family that I have ever been familiar with has been my time in the Sentinels and that was very comforting to me.  I know Kal misses being with his brothers and his parents something awful sometimes and bemoans the fact that Dalaran is no longer a haven for them to be together.  The only real free city in Azeroth is Shattrath at the moment and I hope that it doesn’t change for his family’s sake.

I do have to laugh at myself because I have only met Kal’s Father and his Mother.  Naturally, I am in awe of his Father, what a beautiful man with all of that black hair and let’s just say that I know where Kal got some of his good looks, he has the same smile and sometimes the timbre of his voice is very much like his Father.  I can see why Kal’s Mother fell in love with him, he seems to be the kind of man that would be very kind and very caring although Kal told me that his Dad hasn’t always been that way, it came along through time.  Naturally, Kal hasn’t told me all of the gory details, however, I do know that the two youngest boys are not the Sindorei’s and that there was a Step-Father for a while that Kal respected very much and was deeply fond of.  I suppose I’ll find out about all of the family in time.

We had planned on going to Shattrath for Winter Veil, however, his family wasn’t able to make a gathering of the clan out of it because everyone was just too busy to do anything. I think that Kal was disappointed because he wanted me to meet his Aunts and definitely wanted me to get a chance to talk to all of them.  I did ask him if they spoke Common when they were together or what?  He just laughed at me and told me that they spoke both Orcish and Common, sometimes his Dad spoke his native tongue until his spouse would give him a “look” and he’d switch back to Orcish most often.  He said that when they were together, you really had to stay on your mental toes to keep up with everything that was going on.  Now, this year, from what I have hard, the business should be open in Shattrath and we will all be down there for the holidays. I hope that we can all get together before Winter Veil.

I guess there was an event in Stormwind while Kal was there that is like a story circle of some sort where people all get up tell different stories.  He said it was really good and he said that some of his friends were there as well.  Even his best friend Civardi got up and told a tale.  He actually told me that he wants me to start going with him to these things so that I can finally meet them.  I reminded him that I did meet them in One Keg, however, I don’t think that they felt all that comfortable around me because I was still with the Sentinels and some of them had some unsavory things in their past or they were involved in things that the authorities would frown upon now.  I’m looking forward to meeting them though because they seem to play an important part in Kal’s life.


Well, I think that I am going to go back to bed with Kal, the rain and wind don’t seem to be easing up a whole lot and it feels chilly although I have stoked up the fire already.  Ah well, we didn’t have anything planned for the day, we might as well get some much needed sleep and rest.




Not Quite Domestic Bliss

January 18th

Dear Journal,

I don’t think that I have ever been this angry with Kal since we have been together, however, it’s not so much anger as it is being humiliated.  While I will admit that leaving the Sentinels has been a real hard adjustment for me, becoming somewhat domestic has been more than an stressful thing and very trying.

Yes, I knew how to cook some very good dishes and I knew how to cook any kind of game that I killed, however, some of this other stuff, I wasn’t all that familiar with.  Kal kept talking about these wonderful muffins that his Mother used to make for him when he was growing up, so, being the blissfully happy person at being “free” from duties at last, I contacted his Mother and got the recipe.  Gathering the materials wasn’t all that difficult because our farm is very close to the market here in Halfhill.  I did have to substitute a few things because the Pandaren had no idea what some of the stuff was.  I made the muffins and gave them to him for breakfast one morning as a surprise.  Oh, he seemed so happy to have them and kept remarking on how good they were.  So, I started making them frequently, not too often because I didn’t want them to become something that he got bored with.

Little did I know that my muffins were horrid and what I thought he was eating, he was stuffing in his belt pouch.  I thought he was eating an awful lot of them, however, since they were a favorite, I didn’t say anything, just made more for him.

Come to find out, he was using the muffins to kill the vermin in the fields by throwing them at them.  He was also using them to add some extra strength to some of the fencing.  I had found a couple of the muffins and just thought that he might have dropped them or something.

Anyway, to make a long story short. Kal went on an adventure with some of his friends and I guess that my muffins were used for quick and dirty ammo.  I wouldn’t have ever known if Kal hadn’t been drinking and told me about it.  Stupid man, he should never drink and come home to tell me about what he has been up too.  I am so embarrassed that I don’t know that I will ever be able to face these people again.  I have met them on a few occasions, however, that was when I was still with the Sentinels and they weren’t all that friendly since they had some unsavory reputations.

Oh, let’s just say that we had quite the verbal battle and he slept under the house last night in a blanket roll.  Maybe I over-reacted, I don’t know but he should have never told me about it.  I think that the next time I try to make something new in the kitchen, I’ll let someone else test them for me that will be a bit more honest about how they really are.

I really am trying.  Elune guide me in my endeavors to make Kal a good mate.  I love him dearly, however, he really needs to be a bit more diplomatic about things that I do and not hurt my feelings and especially not share that with his friends.