May 29th – Still Searching…

*Language might be a little salty for some, so, if that offends you, please do not read.*

May 29th

Yo Book!!

I woke up this morning and almost thought that Romy was back, I could smell perfume in the air and could almost feel her body lying next to mine. Oh my, my heart was pounding until I opened my eyes and discovered that it was only a dream. What a fucking nightmare it is to awaken and find that your heart’s desire is not there after all.

Damn it!! I constantly feel as if my heart were breaking and that time is standing still just to torture me for some past transgressions – I know that haven’t been a fucking angel or anything of that nature, so, I’m sure that I have chalked up a few errors in my past. Before I met Romy and fell in love with her, there wasn’t a woman safe on the planet. If I found her attractive and she felt the same for me, it was all over because my moral compass was a bit lax.

I’m wide awake now and I can still smell that perfume in the air. Something is not right with that because I know that I haven’t shaved, no cologne from me, and the smell is something that I am very familiar with. It’s almost as if someone were here in my house on the farm. This has me really fucking distracted as hell and I can’t get the smell out of my nostrils. Oh wait, the smell is on the bed and on the pillows next to where I was sleeping. Did someone come in here while I was asleep and I didn’t wake up – could be – I know I drank myself senseless last night here alone. Yeah, I fucking cried myself to sleep and no one knows that better than me. What wouldn’t I give to have my family back.

I had been out looking for Romy and the kids and still no luck and still no information. I know that her family is looking as hard as I am for them. How can a grown woman and two small children just disappear like that? No, I’m not a fucking moron, I know that it can happen, however, not to a woman that is as adept at handling situations as my Romy.

I know that she left Pandaria and was in route to Orgrimmar with the kids and supposedly would travel on to Northrend to visit her family there. Well, they never made to Orgrimmar. We did find a crash site of a Zep in Hyjal and a baby shoe was found by one of Romy’s relatives and identified. I know they aren’t dead, I would feel it in my soul if they were. We are all still searching for them, however, where could they be?

Well, I should go back to Draenor for a few days to attend to my duties there and get orders set up for my Garrison before I can come back and search some more. I’m sure that the Horde will understand if I tell them to go to hell while I try to piece my life back together and if they don’t, they can kiss my backside.

Fnar Dawnglory

Memorial Day 2017

May 29th, 2017

Well, it’s Memorial Day in the US and one that always brings back memories of lost loved ones. I always have treated it as day of celebration and thankfulness to the ones that have gone on before me, military and just your normal folks. One of my own personal beliefs is that if you remember folks after they have gone, they are still with you. Don’t be sad today, it’s a day of celebration and remembrance.

I know that I am thankful to all the people that have served in the military because without them, we would not have the freedoms that we still have today. I know that my family has always had a lot of people in the military and law enforcement and for that I am very thankful.

OOC – Back in the saddle again…

May 28th

I know I have been writing a lot of OOC posts of late because my brain has just been wired that way for the moment.  Oh well, I know that it isn’t very interesting to read about someone’s personal stuff, however, I am not overly fond of FB (Face Book) either.   I know that it is really a social network that I do try to avoid quite a bit.

Anyway, to make the long story short, I finally have my gaming computer back up and running and I will have to admit that I am totally amazed at how the World of Warcraft looks with the new video card.  Mind boggling at how long I was just happy to be able to play the game at all.  So, it’s off to the races and back to some gaming in Legion.   I am so far behind everyone else that I know that it really doesn’t matter how I play, so, it’s back to playing for the sake of fun, which is what I pay for.

As I said previously, I did get a new keyboard and mouse for Mother’s Day and only got to play with them for a few hours before we decided to upgrade the computer and three weeks later – a birthday too – the thing is up and going strong.  Now I will be able to finally take some screen shots that take forever to load and look at the map without the game just stopping until I closed – yeah, it was bad.  Processor was great; however, the old video card was kind of bad but doable and I had to make-do until I could afford to do the upgrade.

Now the fun part begins with me trying to play and get used to the new toys.  The keyboard that I got isn’t a big deal other than it is a gaming keyboard that I have never had before.  Big, keys all over the place and lots of buttons that I will eventually figure out the key bindings. Mouse is trippy with all kinds of buttons too that, thankfully, it downloaded the stuff it needed that was compatible with WoW and I’m getting used to that.  LOL, I am going to play off by myself for a while until I get the hang of this new stuff because I have already shot off some stuff by moving the mouse – hehe, was kind of funny but I really didn’t want to kill the little critter either.  I know that I am talking to myself a lot when my character takes off and trots off the side of a mountain because I’m trying to make them stop – I’ll get it figured out.   Just typing in chat is sometimes a challenge because I am still trying to get the feel of the keyboard and key layout – no multitasking for a while. So, if I respond to you with gibberish, sorry, fingers got on the wrong keys.

That old saying of “You can’t teach an old dog some new tricks” that we’ve all heard a thousand times.  Well, I am going to do my best to prove that wrong.

May 24th – OOC – Starting Anew…

OOC – Starting Anew

May 24th

Well, I did something that I haven’t done in a very long time and started a new guild on Cenarion Circle to help with the overflow of materials from the guild that I dearly love on Sisters of Elune, Broken House.  Of course, that doesn’t mean that I won’t be playing on Wrymrest because I most definitely will be, however, a change of pace is always something that I am searching for in World of Warcraft.

The new guild is named Safe Haven – what other name would I call it?  I always feel like I need a home of my own on any of the servers that I happen to play on and this fit perfectly because I can use it as a banking guild and a place to keep some of my many little lowbies while I am working on getting my technical issues getting resolved.  I know that the merged servers is definitely a bonus in this regard and I can check out a new server all at the same time without the restrictions of not having a guild – also, it does eliminate the issue of “Guild Invitations” appearing out of the blue.

With the help of multiple accounts, a lovely stranger and a good friend, the guild was born last night.  Of course, I hope that it will kick off my urge to write a bit more about my characters again too.  Having terrible trouble with writer’s block and anxiety attacks that appear out of nowhere.

Well, off to run my Guild Master up to 20 so that I can safeguard the bank if something should happen – Blizzard will only give you your stuff back if you have a Level 20 covering the bases.  No, I won’t be actively recruiting guild members because it is a casual guild and a place to hang my hat.

If anyone needs to get in touch with me in-game, I have two BattleNet accounts (yeah, they changed the name but I still call it was.  Jaxom#1569 (main and oldest account) and Perndragon#11881.

 

OOC – Technology is Fun?!

May 15th

Belated Happy Mother’s Day to all the Mothers out there!!

I was rather busy yesterday with the holiday as well as getting a new keyboard and mouse – A Logitech keyboard and Razor Naga mouse.  Well, long story short, decided to upgrade my video card and power supply.  Everything was going along wonderfully until we discovered that one of the connectors was missing that we needed for the power supply, so, the computer that I normally play on is down until we can get the connector.  Oh well, it was a good try to get it done and I suppose you can say that the disappointment was felt when the task wasn’t completed.

Had a blast with the new keyboard and new mouse though, which helps a lot too.  Now I will just wait to get the other part for the power supply and I will be off to the races again.  I haven’t been playing a whole lot of Legion in the last couple of months due to burnout and the fact that my potato was not able to keep up with things comfortably.  I’m looking forward to playing on the computer after the upgrades.  I know that it is really is going to be nice to be able to at least see what I need to see.  Nothing like bouncing your way into an area and discover that it wasn’t an empty spot, the mobs start showing up and I get my behind handed to me – not my idea of fun.

I have been busy in-game running up some of my old characters and getting them to 100 to grind out some of Draenor before heading into Legion.  I don’t know what it is but that sense of accomplishment is awesome when you can see that “ding” coming up.  I know that there are times that I wish that I wasn’t so addicted that leveling thing, however, I’m not going to fight it because I’m still having fun.

All in all, had a great Mother’s Day and enjoyed myself despite the frustration of not being able to just plug and go on the upgrades, stuff happens.  It was nice having the family around and being able to laugh and joke with them about the fun of technology.

See you in the game of WoW and hope things are going well for you all.

 

May 1st – Still Searching…News

*Please note:  Some salty language that might offend the more sensitive readers*
May 1st
Yo Book!
No, I haven’t written anything for fucking long time, however, I’ve had my hands full with still running the Garrison in Draenor as well as searching for Romy and the kids every single moment that I have free. At least the travel between Draenor and Azeroth is open and easily accessible.  I guess they decided it would be much easier to have troop movement between two areas since the Legion seems to have decided to return to Azeroth once again.
My heart is heavy and there are times I wonder if life has any real meaning left for me, the love of my life is gone and the things that have given me hope for the future are gone.  How does a fucking man even start to rebuild his life when everything that he cared about is gone?  At least I still have my sister and her children.
I’ve gone to Silvermoon to see Felessa several times and it is difficult for me because I see the golden haired little boys that she has and I think of my daughter and my son.  I dream constantly of Romy, her laughter, the lovemaking that we once enjoyed with such wild abandon and it makes me feel like that all of it was a dream.  Did I dream that I had a woman in my life that literally had my heart and soul in her hands for all the time that we were together?  Was it all a dream?
I know that Fnor has been very supportive and understanding with my moods and my inability to really step up and help with the company in Orgrimmar.  I know that all the employees are working diligently to find out any information that that they can about Romy and the kids.  How in the Light could one woman and two small children just disappear from everywhere?  Oh, I know that wars can obliterate entire families, however, I have been able to find out that Romy was planning to go to Northrend with the children.
I did receive word from Romy’s family and they have been searching for her as well.  They have found some evidence that she had taken zeppelin from Orgrimmar to Northrend.  What I didn’t’ realize is that she had decided to make the trip during the invasions of the Legion in Azeroth.  They have found evidence of a crash site and one of the children had lost a leather bootie – my son’s bootie.  They are still searching for more evidence.
Fuck it all, I am sitting here crying like my heart is breaking all over again.  Mt. Hyjal is not that far from Orgrimmar and I will have to plan to join the family search party as soon as I can break away from my duties.  I’ve asked for leave and the bastards in Orgrimmar haven’t had the courtesy to respond yet.  It’s not like one man being out of action for a while to try to find his family is going to lose the battles in Draenor or the Broken Isle.
I’m not that damned important, let me go find my family, I don’t care about the Horde, I don’t take full direction from them.  If I must, I’ll go see the Regent in Silvermoon to get released from my duties – his commands are the ones that I follow, not the new Warchief.
Fnar Dawnglory