January 12th – Time Goes On…


*Might have some salty language or descriptions…been a while but we all know how Fnar talks. *

 

January 12th

 

Yo Book!

I will have to admit that I have spent the last year in mourning for the loss of my family and this last Holiday Season was probably the worst on record for me.  I have been depressed before, but I was contemplating just ending it all to free my soul, heart and mind from the terrible sadness and loneliness that I have endured for the last year.  It has not been a pleasant time for me nor any of the people that have been forced to be around me.   I am sure that I was not the most pleasant of company along with the drinking binges that I would go on.

Fnor was going to do the whole family thing in Nagrand and I was invited but was hesitating about attending since I know his kid sister would be there and I didn’t want to have to be on-guard to avoid her affections without being rude to her.  There is nothing that can disrupt a friendship faster than involvement with one of the friend’s family members.  She’s okay, appearances are that she is very attractive until you get to know her personality a bit better.   Beauty can truly be skin deep and when the selfish self-centered side shows up, it can be ugly with a pretty package to tempt the latest victims.  I have known for years that she was infatuated with me; however, I was hoping that she would outgrown that mindset, which she hasn’t.  I know that there have been times when Fnor and I have distanced ourselves from one another after some of her embarrassing blow-ups concerning me.

Of course, I had made plans to be busy during the holidays and stay to myself at the Garrison in Draenor.  I had planned a nice party for all the people there and we had everything all decorated up so that none of us would feel like we were left out.  I never realized how many of my people didn’t go home for the holidays because they felt more comfortable there with the others.  It’s almost like having a family on an extra level, which is kind of nice when you’ve been raised in an orphanage like Felessa and I were.  Even though we all can travel back and forth between Azeroth and Draenor now, it was kind of odd that, so many opted to stay here.  At least I wasn’t going to be alone and I wouldn’t have to see the other people’s children unless they invited them here.

Naturally, I felt like things were just going to be the same as they have been for the last year and I would be spending the time alone, off to myself and trying to sort things out in mind again.  I know that I have mourned for Romy and the kids long enough and I need to get my feet back on the ground and start over again.  No, I haven’t given up on finding them and I will continue to search for them and keep hoping that I will be able to finally get some closure one way or another.  I feel like I have been living in a dream that I couldn’t wake up from, no matter how hard I tried, and this was the Light’s way of letting me know that I didn’t treat things the way that I should have.  I know that I cherished Romy more than any woman that I have ever been involved with and my heart keeps aching for her and there are times that I do weep for the loss of my children.

Maybe staying away from the farm has been good for me too, giving myself time to heal before I try to make my way there again and try to resume life for myself.  Having the farm there gives me a place to go and a place to try to put down roots and a place where I can have a life without all the social tribulations that seem to happen amongst my own kind.  Pandaria gave me an inner peace that I haven’t ever found anywhere else, a sense of tranquility that just seemed to make everything seem more precious to me.

I will have to admit that I am still really kind of creeped out with the dream that I had the last time I was at the farm because it seemed so real and I know that I wanted to sleep more and try to relive that dream again.  Sure, it was a typical man’s dream, however, it just seemed so right to have Romy in my arms again and to be able to touch her, even in a dream, the woman has a fire of her own that I don’t think that anyone could ever put out.  I know that if I ever get involved with anyone again, it will be extremely difficult not to make comparisons to Romy – I know, that could be a death knell to any relationship, however, she is the only woman that I truly gave all my love too – she was really my life and my soulmate.

I still wish that Romy and I could have gotten married before she disappeared.  I know that we were both anti-marriage when it was just the two of us because we didn’t think about the social aspects of not being married and having children.  I know that we wanted everything for our daughter and, now, for our son.  I wonder what my boy looked like?  You see, I had never seen him and the only thing that I have of his is the little bootie that was found at the Zeppelin crash site.   I’m sure that we would have had some portraits done when Romy and the kids got home again – will they ever be home?

Now that the holidays are over, and everyone is happy with how things went, I’m sure that we will all get back into our routines.  It’s about time for me to head to Orgrimmar and possibly Silvermoon to pick up any materials for the Garrison that the Horde can spare for the forgotten people stationed out there.

I hope that I can catch up with Fnor while I’m in either Orgrimmar or SMC because he and I need to catch up on some things and see how we are going to go forward with the company.   I know that he has been spending most of his time in the Broken Isle fighting demons – I lucked out and didn’t have to report there just yet.    I know that I am not looking forward to fighting demons any time soon because I still remember the remnants of them in Outland and we have our own issues with them filtering into Draenor now and then.   I think evil and vile doesn’t adequately describe how I feel when I see traces of them and the foul Fel that they seem to bring with them and leave behind to mark the territory as their own.

I think I might apply for some leave so that I can go to Pandaria for a while, I’ll just have to keep my eye out for Faendra and make sure to keep my distance from that conniving bitch.

 

 

Fnar Dawnglory

 

 

 

OOC – First Post of the New Year


January 3rd, 2018

So far, I will have to say that it feels pretty much like last year with the difference being that I must remember to use 2018 on my dates now.  Hehe, nope, I wasn’t expecting some huge major thing to happen, however, I was hoping that I’d win the lottery or something exciting.  Well, that didn’t happen, or I’d be someplace where it’s warm with waves washing over my feet.  Nope, still in the Rockies and it’s a tad bit brisk right now.

We stayed home where it was safe and warm on New Year’s Eve and didn’t get out in the traffic and the freezing cold that we had going on at that time.  Can’t say that I wasn’t playing WoW most of the night because I was and felt like garbage on January 1st.  Got up yesterday with the full intention of sitting down to write and play some World of Warcraft and do some proper blog writing – didn’t happen because as soon as I sat down to do that – we lost our internet connection, phones and cable due to an unfortunate construction issue in the neighborhood.

Today was a bit off because I fell asleep on the couch last night and woke up freezing to death, got a throw and curled back up on the couch and went back to sleep some more.   So, today was a truly lazy day and uneventful – played late last night for a few hours and felt rather good about that too.

January 5th, 2018

Luckily my internet and cable seemed to have survived the last couple of days and has allowed me to get into my gaming a bit more.    I know that I have been running around on some of my lowbies and enjoying the different realms that I play on.  It’s always fun to interact with other people in the game and now that the Holiday Season has finally left us behind, I’m sure that there will be things to do and be able to get them done in a timely manner.    

I went on a bit of a binge of resubbing at six-month levels instead of month to month, so, I’ve been spending a bit of time on my alt account – I do have two separate Bnet accounts.  One is completely maxed out with accounts and is the one that I started with in 2005, the secondary account is about two years old and I’ve had a lot of fun just roaming about Azeroth on my own with that one.  Yes, I have too many characters and should cull some of them out, however, I just enjoy toon changing frequently – messes up my progression, however, it’s how I play the game that counts, and it is fun to me.

Some of my old acquaintances have shown back up in the game and that has made it more entertaining.  One can only stay alone for so long without feeling a bit lonely and isolated.  Anyway, the people that came back are equally as much of being altoholics as I am, so, it’s all good.

Okay, time to get back into the game so that I can get in the mood to write some more with my characters.  See you all soon – yes, I finally got caught up on reading all the posts on the blogs that I am following – great writing and reading the adventures that some are having these days too.

Belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year


December 27th

 

Just wishing each everyone of you a belated Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year.

 

It was a real strange holiday season at our house this year because we all seemed to have developed the colds that we have been avoiding so far, this season.  We had initially planned to spend time together as a family, however, one doesn’t want to give the gift that keeps on giving for the next few months, so, we all stayed in our separate little homes and tried to stay warm.

We have had a strange Winter so far with the weather being unusually warm and now we have opened the door to the cold weather in earnest.  I think we might make it above freezing today for the first time in several days.   Since my spouse and I don’t fare well in ice and snow, we have been staying inside for the most part. 

Reflecting on 2017 has been rather interesting to me because it appears I have been rotating from not feeling good most of the time to feeling somewhat better all year.  When I am feeling bad, I tend to cut myself off from people and things and just get over whatever ails me.   So, here’s hoping for a better 2018.

Yes, I finally got a second 110 and that’s been about my biggest accomplishment in World of Warcraft for the year.  Oh well, I hope I can get it in gear for 2018 and start enjoying the game as much as I used too.   See you all in Azeroth.

Some Reminiscing and a Joyous Time


December 25th

Dear Journal,

It has been a long time since I have taken the time to sit down and write in my journal, however, these have indeed been busy times.  Trying to maintain the pack and keep things running smoothly and longing for the sight of my beloved, Felley.

I’m sitting here in my usual spot in Stormwind, the Inn in the Trade area across from the auction house and the bank.  Seems like I always choose to stay here and find the time to try to relax.  I left the pack in Darnassus to fend for themselves while I took some time away in hopes that Felly and I could meet in Stormwind for a brief reunion of some sort.   Well, it does look as though I will be spending the Holiday alone and that’s okay too.  Being alone isn’t all bad except for the fact that it gives me the time to reflect on times that have been or might have been.

At least the atmosphere is positive in Stormwind, what with the loss of Varian and all that still lingering in all our minds, it is still festive with the young Anduin on the throne.  At least Genn is with the young fellow to give him some proper Gilnean guidance.

I think that this is the time of year that I always feel more than a little bit homesick for Gilneas.  There was just something magical about the place, the changing seasons, the snow and rain – all the things that some of the less fortified people dislike – to me, it was home.   Even after these years, I still miss my wife and children although I have finally reconciled myself that I will never see them again and that they are probably in a better place than me.  At least they have not had to endure the Curse and learning how to deal with the problems that can arise from that.  I know that my yearning for my family did cause some issues with Felley from time to time and I can understand that, however, in my heart, I will always miss them and love them.  I do love Felly deeply and hope that one day we will be wed.

December 26th

Well, I did have a pleasant surprise and Felley was able to slip away from her duties in Pandaria so that we could spend some time together.  To be exact, she will be staying here for the next week, as will I.  It has been so long since we have had any true alone time together, not with the pack and the responsibilities that all entails.

We had a lovely dinner last night and I am happy that I had brought all the gifts that I had bought for her during the last year.  It made up quite a bit for not having her with me for the last few months.  Just being able to watch her face when she opened her gifts and the way that she reacted later was truly wonderful for the both of us.  Of course, she had brought some gifts for me as well and I will have to admit that I will be one of the best dressed gentlemen in any city I happen to pass through.  Naturally, she had also brought along some gifts for the people in our pack and I will have quite the load to take to Darnassus when I return there, and I know that they all will be grateful for her thoughts and gifts.

We even attended the services at the Cathedral last night even though we did get some very awkward looks from some of the other attendees.  We may have been Cursed with our ability to shift into animal rather than human, however, that doesn’t mean that we have given up our belief in the Light.  I know that it eased my heart and comforted my soul to be able to sit there with Felley’s hand in mine as we listened to the words and prayers.  It gave us both a sense of normalcy that we have not had for years.

Ah well, I should discontinue writing for a while and spend some time with my lady and enjoy the limited time that we have together.

Oak

 

 

OOC – December 18, 2017 – Busy Times


December 18, 2017

 

Well, it’s another OOC entry for me today, however, it’s better than none at this point.  I’ve been busy in RL getting things organized.  Yes, the end of the year is always fun and when you’re living with someone that is the King of Procrastination, it adds a few bumps in the road at the end of the year.

Sitting here drinking a cup of coffee and trying to convince myself that I should get off my behind and get showered and cleaned up for the day but it’s not working, just one more cup of coffee and I’ll do that.

I have been playing a bit more in the last few days getting some of my characters leveled up that I haven’t worked on in a while.  Still enjoying Legion, however, I do miss my other characters when I leave them alone for a while.  Yes, I know I have too many characters and can’t even imagine that I could keep up with them all, however, I enjoy playing different classes and different areas of the game, so, it is worth it to me.

Christmas is coming soon, and I haven’t even finished doing all the things that I want to do.  We have been spending more time with the family and even playing in-game together with them has been fun too.  My guilds are usually very quiet, however, this past week, they have been jumping with activity – seems some folks are finally returning to the game after taking so much time off.  With a lot of the time gated stuff being “open” now, it makes it easier and faster for them to catch up.

I did startup a few new characters on another realm this month and have established a guild there as well.  Seems like I do better when I have the guild umbrella over my head and can do pretty much what I want when I want.  Thank heavens for Group Finder at this point.  I had been on this realm for a while searching for some old friends and even though that hasn’t been that successful yet, I will keep going and enjoying some of the RP that I have stumbled upon. 

Starting to get the immersion in-game started again and will start putting together some more journals for my characters.  Plan is to write more and keep on going.

 

Hope you all have a great holiday and I hope to see you all soon in Azeroth.

 

 

 

 

OOC – Special Projects and Ramblings…


November 26, 2017

 

I’ve been having a blast with all the things to do in-game currently.  Anniversary stuff as well as the killing turkeys event.  This is probably my favorite time of year for gaming and I do enjoy it quite a bit, however, I still have too many characters to deal with and that’s my fault.

At least I have a fully functional keyboard now because my son gave me another gaming keyboard that I can use without feeling like I’m trying to type on a Navy Carrier.  The last one was huge, had all the bells and whistles but it wasn’t for me, I’m not that great and when you can’t find the keys to use, it’s really crippling. Oh well, at least I now have something that I can use easily without any trouble at all.

I’ve been running around trying to do a few of the things that I want to do today, however, last week was a bit tough when trying to level up on the Moon Guard realm with the Project 60 running – not so much the disruption of RP sessions as it was in just general leveling.  Oh well, that’s how it goes, and I can understand why the realm was chosen by the streamers.  Now, this week I am on another realm for Project 70 to disrupt a bit, same issues – just leveling in general in the lower brackets.

I know that some of the forums have been raising all kinds of noise about the projects using RP realms for their adventures, however, it is primarily because the RP realms have special sharing and CRS abilities that are not available to the general realms or even PvP realms.  You have a few rotten apples in the barrel that try to deliberately upset people just like you do at any time you’re doing MMO gaming.  On a personal level, I choose to leave the people alone and let them do their things.  I’m all for embracing the thoughts of Classic Servers coming back to WoW, however, trying to live it this far in advance with all the changes in the game since it’s inception really is kind of silly – if they are having fun and not truly disrupting things, I’m all for it.   I’m sure that all of this will die down eventually, and we can all just kind of relax before the next expansion is released.

I know that I have gotten spoiled over the years with the advent and the ability to utilize my heirloom gear and I don’t know that I would enjoy reverting all the way back at this point.  I remember Classic and I remember what a pain in the backside it could be for those of us that weren’t affiliated with a progressive raiding guild.  I had multiple characters back then too and only played on one realm and there was no RP to be had, I don’t think.  All I can remember is that we (where I lived at the time) were only allowed to go onto one realm – lovingly referred to as IceDown (Ice Crown) and it was down quite a bit with maintenance and all kinds of server issues.  Oh, those were not fun days, however, Blizzard did reimburse us for time lost from not being able to play.  I know that I will be trying out the “new” Classic when it comes available, however, I know that I will continue to be active on my retail version more.

 

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This is one of my many characters just cruising around with the rest of them, trying to get the Anniversary gifts from killing the World Bosses in Azeroth.  First attempt at posting pictures like I used to do – needs more practice.

OOC – Funtimes and Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!


November 22, 2017

 

Just a quick update on what might be going on.  I feel like I have running around like a chicken with its head cut-off – just busy in RL as well as in-game.  Busy times have started in RL with the Holidays approaching and the in-game stuff is almost overwhelming.

One of the big things is that I am an altoholic in a big way and I am finding that having so many characters to bounce around on can be rather difficult when you can’t play as much as you would like.  So many events to attend and so many things to do in game right now is mind-boggling.  However, I’m doing the best I can and if I am having fun, I’ll keep trucking along.

I did want to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving though.  We are going to be going over to spend the day with family this year instead of them coming here.  It should be tons of fun and I know that we will enjoy spending time with them.   Of course, we’re not talking huge crowd of people, just the five of us all together for the holiday.  The last couple of years we haven’t been able to do this because of health issues here at my house, however, this year is different, and we aren’t feeling “off” this time, so, it’s family time again.

I am also very excited to see all the enthusiasm for Classic World of Warcraft and will be participating with that when it is available.  Oh, so happy to see the stuff for the new expansion too.  It sent chills up my spine and I will have to admit that I had been debating about purchasing the next expansion – now, there is no question about it.  I haven’t even finished Legion yet and I’m ready for the next one.  No, I’m not addicted, I just like having fun on Azeroth.

I did splurge and expanded my game library a bit with the new sales for Black Friday at Blizzard.  Finally got Destiny 2 as well as Overwatch, so, I am going to have fun times for the next few months balancing out my play time.   I shouldn’t laugh at myself, however, it has been a long running tradition for me to buy myself Christmas presents with things that I know that no one else would give me.  Now for my next expense will be a new small gaming keyboard.