OOC – Still plodding along…

November 28, 2016

 

Well, that’s one more Holiday behind us and two more to go for 2016. I know that we had a very quiet Thanksgiving Day and were very grateful for it too.  Happy Thanksgiving to all of you out there!!  I’m always a day late with things this time of year because it seems like there are even more distractions for my poor brain.

Black Friday!  Oh my, seems like there are quite a few people daring the roads and the shopping malls these days, however, it does appear as though the online folks are getting hammered as well because not all of us enjoy the pushing and shoving that Black Friday normally brings along. I’ll be happy to wait in the queue for online shopping rather than getting out there and getting trampled and pushed around – I’m kind of nervous with crowds anyway and that makes the shopping experience a major nightmare for me, personally.  If I do much of anything for Christmas, it’s all going to be delivered to my front door because I just don’t have the stamina to run around the stores anymore.

I haven’t been playing as much lately because my attention span seems to wander off on its own when I log into Legion areas right now.  I am so far behind right now that it doesn’t seem to matter that I’m not playing for hours on end anymore.  I kind of like the change of pace and have enjoyed playing on a few of my alts because that’s why I made them – I want to enjoy the whole game and not just the Broken Isles.  At the rate that I am going right now, I may not even finish Legion before the next expansion drops – this is the first time that I only have one character at cap level so far, I’m usually rambling about and leveling multiple characters at one time, however, that doesn’t work all that well with this expansion.  I already know that I won’t be getting the next one because I’ve been playing this game for eleven plus years and it’s starting to wear thin on the entertainment side of things.

I am going to admit that World of Warcraft is my escape from things and there is no getting around that.  I used to watch a lot of television and read, however, World of Warcraft does give me the opportunity to socialize with people occasionally.   I’m not RPing as much either because most the people that I had things going on with as far as storylines have already bailed out on the game – guess the RNG is hitting all the casuals hard these days.   I know that you must play to get the stuff, however, that can be quite tedious at times and there is little to no direction as to what you should really be doing.  Scaling has taken a toll on me too because some of my character are above what they should be when they start an area and their gear reflects it – I think I have a lot characters twinked at this point so I can play them when I want and where I want for the time being.  So, that does mean that I am soloing this expansion again too because I haven’t gotten into the group thing at all this time.

At least I did get a cheap computer that seems to be working “okay” with all the unannounced changes that Blizzard has made that cooked my gaming machine quickly.  I wonder how many people are leaving the game because of the changes that will no longer allow them to play the game after these changes?   FPS really stinks on the new machine; however, I am moving around okay and I can do a lot of things without the stuttering and the incredible lag that I had for a while.  Loading screens?  Hehe, well, if you took a drink for every minute that you sat at your computer waiting for the things to load, you’d be too drunk to play after you got in there.  I’m at that age where I am not going to plank a ton of money on the purchase of a computer because most retirees don’t have that kind of disposable income and I happen to be one of those people.  Back in the day, there was no question that I would buy the best of the best and keep going, however, I can’t do that anymore and I have reconciled myself to that fact.  All my computer money went to replacing a broken hot water heater – the joys of home ownership.  I’ll be happy that I can romp around do the things that I want to do – kind of worried about dragging this potato into a dungeon with a crowd of people, however, I will get around to it one of these days.

I have been reading quite a bit on the forums these days to find out what is going on in the game and it really is amazing that so many people seem to really hate the game and they continue to play and pay for it.  I like seeing the bug reports and some of the quests that I have had trouble with being solved, slowly but surely, and seeing that some of the people are still plugging along and enjoying things.  I have enjoyed the various storylines that have been introduced in Legion – I’m wondering how much of the Lore has been kind torn asunder with some of the changes though.  If I have questions about stuff, I’ll hop on an alt and head back to the area and see if the quests have changed or what – sometimes they have, most of the time, they haven’t changed which sets up some conflicts.

Well, I suppose I should stop running off at the mouth and get back to some of the stories that I have been working on – yes, I know I need to write more and post more often if I plan on getting my following back.

 

Plans For The Future…

 

Written in very cursive script denoting the maturity and education of the author

 

November 17th

 

Dear Journal,

It feels much better to me having my freedom restored to where I can travel between Draenor and Azeroth.  Luckily for me, I have most of my people trained to the point that the Garrison can pretty much run itself – however, if hostilities start developing, I will be sent for regardless of where I am.  Poor little Zippie has her hands full keeping things running with the company and now she must be my personal messenger if needed or at least know where to reach me.

I am still adjusting to fighting demons again on Azeroth and adjusting to the new command of the Horde.  It does make me wonder sometimes if things are going to run smoothly with our new Warchief because her history does not bode well for future peace. I know some of the things that she has done didn’t sit well with the rest of the Horde and I know that her people are sometimes a bit hard to deal with, however, she is the one that seems to go her own way regardless of how others feel about things.

Poor Vol’jin said that he was given a sign as to whom should be the next Warchief and I sometimes wonder if his vision wasn’t tampered with by the poisons of his wounds.   His faith in his LOA and his endurance through past injuries and near-death at the hands of assassins, was a remarkable feat for any man, however, it does give you pause to wonder about his mental state there at the end.  Could he have just handed us over to another insane power-monger like Garrosh turned out to be?  I know that I feel like the Dark Lady is much more dangerous than Garrosh ever thought about being, at least you had some idea of where his mind was going.  The Lady is a mystery in so many ways.

I know that some of the things that I write about in my journals could be considered treasonous in so many ways, however, I make sure that things are hidden away where prying eyes will not find them too readily.  There are times that I truly miss Agatha and the way that she would always take care of things for me at the house in Silvermoon.  There are other things that I am missing about her too – we did indeed have a special relationship that had lasted for many years.

Oh, Agatha is still in my employ and is still at the main house in Silvermoon, however, I haven’t had time to go visit with the people there just yet.  I was too busy rebuilding my relationship with my wife and getting used to being able to see her in Nagrand and Shattrath like old times.   We have discussed trying to buy the house back in Dalaran and I think we would both be happier if we had that property again even though it would take a lot of work to get it restored back to what it was when I originally had it.   I know that it will be a foolish expense with the politics being what they are, however, it was the first home that I ever owned and I worked very hard to achieve that status symbol and to open Morningstar Enterprises.

At least now that we are not in Draenor all the time, I can finally go back to having some privacy and a bed of my own to sleep in without having to prowl around and find one that didn’t look like it had been used recently or “borrowing” someone’s residence to set up shop for a few days.

I know that I am happy that I can move around Azeroth freely again.  Draenor was different and the people there were happy that we had come to help them after all the trouble that Garrosh had stirred up, however, I know that some of them won’t be joining us to fight the Legion, which makes me sad.  I had hope that some of the people would feel the need to join us, however, I understand that they are still rebuilding from the past tribulations that visited their home world.

I honestly don’t know about the other people; however, it does seem like the demons are bigger and stronger than the ones that we have fought in the past.  Maybe it is because I am older and somewhat wiser in my strategy than I was when I was a young hot-headed Ranger.  I know that the Fel stench takes days to get out of my nostrils and quite a few trips to the bath to get it out of my skin and hair – that smell is like none-other.  I can see that it disorients some of newer recruits sometimes and they are constantly fighting against the fright of seeing these beings that they have only heard tales of before.  Sure, I’ll admit that I get a bit frightened sometimes too because it seems like a never-ending cycle and the demons keep coming.

 

Fnor Morningstar

 

November 9th – OOC – Still Wandering Around…

November 9, 2016

 

I must admit that I am extremely happy that the election is over and we’re done with the rhetoric that was going twenty-four/seven.  We’ll all have to wait and see how things pan out over the next four years.  At least we can all get back to other things.  I watched most of the election coverage last night and my poor brain is very tired of trying to figure out what was going on for a large part of the night.  Naturally, none of the shows that I normally watch on a Tuesday night were even available due to the election coverage.

I normally leave the television on when I am playing games for the noise factor and to keep the cats occupied and away from my computers.  Last night was a good night for the cats because they seemed to enjoy all the graphs and people drawing on them – they like to think they are helping things move along when they reach up and pat the screen with a paw now and again.   I know that I couldn’t concentrate on WoW last night and finally threw in the towel and went to bed around midnight.

Still running around on my main and questing – I just can’t seem to stick with one character all the time in this expansion.   I know I had the same issues with parts of Draenor and that’s what took me so long to get flight there.  I’m not even sure if I am going to get flight in Legion yet or not – haven’t even finished the first part of their Pathfinder.  Oh, I’ll get there eventually, however, I’m still doing lots of solo content at this point due to my guilds not being all that active now.

I go through this adjustment period every year when the “time changes” ensue and it doesn’t matter if I lost an hour or gained an hour – my anatomical clock just goes a bit wonky for a couple of weeks which throws everything else out of sync for a bit.  I can still remember living in countries where this nonsense was not observed and I never had the problems – oh well, guess that’s part of living in the US.

I think that the biggest problem that I am having right now is that I have too many characters and my poor brain can’t stay focused on them.  Of course, I know that it is my problem and my self-discipline needs a kick in the pants to get me motivated again.   I may be having a bit of “burn out” too because I have been playing this game almost daily for over eleven years and that is a long time to be playing any game regardless if it is World of Warcraft or any other.  

One of the things that I have noticed about playing Legion is that the self-gratification and the sense of accomplishing something is just not there.  I’m making progress with my characters, however, it just seems like I am going through the motions and I’m not that involved in things as I normally am.  I am enjoying the Lore in the game and enjoying seeing all the new sights though and that’s one of the main reasons that I am still playing.  I might end up taking a break soon so that I can get back to enjoying the game for fun again.

I have been reading the forums quite a bit to try to stay up-to-date with some of the things going on in game as well as finding out about some of the bugs that are currently causing issues in the game.  I usually don’t spend that much time reading some of the stuff because of the level of negativity that seems to be quite prevalent on the forums. Sometimes I wonder if people have forgotten how to present constructive criticism without attack people personally.  So, a word of advice, if you do happen to go to the forums, remember that some of the people only post negative things for the popularity they think it garners them.

 

Changes…New Battles To Be Won

October 26th

Dear Journal,

It’s been a while since I have had an opportunity to write anything down or lacked the time and privacy to sit down and reflect on things.  Kae and I are back in Halfhill for the time being and enjoying being on the farm together.  After all, this is our home and the only place that we have lived together that was our own.  It’s nice to be back home for a bit. 

Things must have started winding down rather quickly for both factions in Draenor because most of us as Commanders of our Garrisons were told that we had to report for duty back on Azeroth.  Well, we found out that while we were out rescuing people on Draenor, the Legion had started infiltrating Azeroth with a vengeance.   I guess it became very apparent that we had a full-scale invasion going on and that all our troops were needed – both Horde and Alliance.   Kae and I haven’t seen that much action yet, however, we know that we will be reassigned to another Sentinel group and sent on our merry way, just as we have done in the past.  Neither of us is happy about the changes and I know that we will probably have to make quite a few adjustments.

Just when I started thinking that it was time for us to take our vows at the Moonwell in Darnassus and celebrate with the family, the Legion decided to take on our attention.  I know I never have fought them in the past and they were a big shock to me when we landed on the Isle.  I’ve seen a few things that were remotely resembling them in Tanaan, however, these are much more powerful and much bigger or they just seem bigger to me.  I know that Kae had such high hopes for the vows, however, we both decided that it wouldn’t hurt to make a slight delay until we could find out what the plans are for our duties – I wish we could get out of this, however, I don’t think that there is a way.  I don’t think that Mom or Dad could buy us out of the service at this point – all hands are needed.

Mom and Dad both got the same orders that Kae and I did, they took off to Nagrand to recharge their batteries as they laughingly referred to it.  Kae and I are both old enough to know what they were going to do with that big house all to themselves and just a few servants around.  Hey, I get it – it’s not too embarrassing to think of your parents doing the same things that we do even if they are old.

I guess that Kae and I could go ahead with our vows and keep the celebration rather low-key instead of having the celebration that we would have liked to have had.  I wish that we could get the house back in Dalaran since the Horde are now allowed to have access to the city again.  Our backyard would have been a perfect place to have the reception, if everything is still standing like it was before.  I guess the house was damaged quite a bit when it was taken over for office spaces and barracks for the soldiers per my Mom.  Mom said that Dad was already negotiating with the people in Dalaran to get the property back and doesn’t seem to care about the cost – he always did love that place.  Maybe if I can talk Kae into waiting for a little while longer, we could still have the reception there or maybe just have it later.  I don’t know, she seems rather sensitive about delaying things lately.  I guess I need to sit down with her and have a long talk and find out what is bothering her.

 

I know that one of our neighbors isn’t happy with the situation in Halfhill right now because his family disappeared and he has been spending most of his time trying to find them.  I know that we are all involved in finding out any information that we can about Romy and the two kids – we even have some of the people from the two companies looking for them too.  Poor Dawnglory has never looked so bereft and old in his life.  Poor man is just devastated.  Of course, Romy’s family is trying to find her too.  The last thing that Dawnglory heard from her was that she was going to Northrend to spend some time with the family up there and no one has seen or heard from her since then.

Well, looks like Kae and I are going to head out to one of our favorite places to do laundry – that’s the one thing we don’t have on the farm, a proper place to wash clothes.  I don’t mind that it though because it gives us an excuse to get away from people for a while, fish and have a picnic amongst other things.

Kal

 

Lost…

*Some Language – if you are offended easily, please do not read*

 

October 20th

 

Yo Book!

I will have to admit that I haven’t written in this damned thing in a while and that’s because I have been busy with my duties in Draenor and trying to figure out a way to get home to see Romy and the kids in Halfhill.  Well, the Legion kind of helped that out because the Horde leadership has decided that it’s military needs to address that situation rather than maintain a peacekeeping force in Draenor – huzzah!!

I know that it has been close to a year since I have been home and it has cost me dearly.  Fnor kept telling people that we needed to be focused on what was happening in our own timeline and his warnings just kept falling on deaf ears.  Damned bureaucrats – now they have their hands full and we are supposed to clean it up.

All I can say is that Draenor has cost me dearly – I’ve lost my family or they are hiding from everyone, I don’t know what is going on.  Romy had written me that she was taking the kids to Northrend to spend some time with the family up there and that’s the last I heard from her.  I have checked with her family and have even gone to Northrend – no one has fucking seen them.  How can a woman and two small kids disappear off the face of the planet without anyone having ever seen them?  To say that this is a nightmare is putting it lightly – I’m scared, I’m angry and I’m heartbroken.  All my hopes and dreams have been trashed and here I am wandering around trying to put all the pieces together again.

I tried drinking myself into oblivion more than once since I got back to Halfhill and there didn’t seem to be enough booze to drown my heartache.  I couldn’t get drunk enough to stop thinking about my family, my love, my life and my children.  What has fucking happened to them?  Are they safe?   Are they even alive?  This is totally unlike Romy as far as I know and I know that she loved me as much as I love her – where did she go?  Did she try to take the kids and make the trip to Draenor to surprise me?  So many fucking questions and no answers from anyone.

Fnor and I both have sent out search parties from the company and we’re paying the people dearly to see if they can find any trace of them.  I’ve cried until I have no more tears and have gone without sleep to the point that there are days that I have lost wandering around in a fog.  Where are they?  My son was born while I was in Draenor and I haven’t even held him or seen him – why did this have to happen?  All of my life I have wanted a family – now the Fates have taken away from me.  No, I won’t give up and I’ll keep looking for them.

Fnar Dawnglory

 

Back in the Saddle Again…

October 20th

 

Woot!  Just renewed my subscription to WordPress and I think that I made the right decision because I have been busy with ideas flying through my head to start writing again.  I know that I haven’t been keeping up with things as much as I should, however, I’ve had a lot of things going on in-game and in RL to keep me from focusing on what I want to do.  I have always loved to write and the problem for the last year has been the fact that I was trying to keep up with progression that doesn’t exactly match up with my playstyle and turning a game into a job isn’t exactly my forte.

Hit the ten-month mark on my quitting smoking, however, I’m still vaping and needing to cut back on the nicotine content some more as time goes on.  I know that I actually quit smoking for seven years and went back to it, which was totally stupid on my part.  This time around it has been kind of interesting because I find myself still craving a cigarette every now and again.  Oh well, I’ll kick the habit completely in 2017 and watch my insurance costs drop some more.

October hasn’t exactly been my favorite month and November usually follows suite with the same kind of stuff.   This year I was on pins and needles for most of October because my son was going in to have some surgery done and he’s never undergone any kind of major medical issue like this before.  Almost two years ago he hurt his shoulder and neck while moving some furniture at his house and has been in pain most of the time since then.  What they found was that he had done damage to the vertebrae in his neck and those needed to be fused.  The surgery was done yesterday and I couldn’t concentrate on anything else – terrible time for a parent when you know your child is having this sort of thing going on.  Oh well, it’s too soon to actually tell how the surgery went, I just hope that he isn’t in pain all of the time anymore when things get healed up. 

November is when I celebrate the fact that I am still on the planet because I had my aorta-femoral by-pass done fifteen years ago on November 2nd.  Two years of staying at home and not being able to work was rather enjoyable when I look back on it, however, at the time, it was borderline maddening because I had always been a workaholic.  Still had a heart attack five months after the fact due to a blood clot and have been fine since then – strange how that all worked out.   Now, if they could only come up with a cure for my chronic vertigo, I’d be a totally happy camper.  Yeah, getting old is a pain the butt, however, the alternative doesn’t sound like much fun.

I apologize for all of the personal information there.  It does help me to cope with things when I can write it down and reflect back on it for a while and consider how lucky I have been over the years.

Now, back to World of Warcraft!

Finally got my main up to 110 and it was truly an adventure.  I haven’t gotten everything maxed out or anything remotely close to that, just plodding along and enjoying the stuff that I am doing.  Of course, I haven’t given up on my alts yet and probably won’t because I know that we have at least two years of Legion to dink around with before Blizzard springs another on us, if they make another one.  I know that Legion has been fun and the storylines have been pretty good although I am a bit confused with some of them – that’s just me, I suppose.  Sometimes if the Lore gets too far off base and my mind starts boggling, I go back and do some research on it to see where I went wrong or Blizzard took some liberties.

I am also playing more classes this time around because I want to see all of the Class Halls and to see how things are so much different.  I have a new found love for my warlocks even if they are supposed to be “crap” as well as my mages – first time I have really spent a great deal of time on my clothies.    I’ve also rolled a gnome hunter and I have never laughed so hard in my life – I thought the gnome DK was hysterical, well, the hunter definitely has that title now.   I was a bit disheartened with my baby druids because they hadn’t reached level 40 yet when Legion dropped and I normally play Balance – well, Blizzard decided that I had to be locked into playing Feral until they hit 40 – let’s just say that it didn’t go well.

I had 25 capped characters when WoD dropped and I have 25 of my characters at 100 for Legion.  Well, I wouldn’t have quite that many if it hadn’t of been for the invasions that they had prior to the new expansion being launched.  Now, I am spending a lot of time backing up into Draenor (which I still don’t really care for) and trying to get them caught up with professions before slogging my way through Legion trying to get things done there.

Speaking of Legion, I don’t think that I have ever seen Professions as being such a pain the arse as they are in Legion.  I usually get my professions maxed out pretty quickly, however, I don’t think that they have had everything so gated before.  It definitely sucks.  Would I recommend WoW to a new player right now with Legion being the focal point – don’t think so.  I always thought that BC was grindy and almost mean-spirited to the players back in the day, however, I think that Blizzard has beaten that down with Legion.  I know that some people have already gotten burned out and quit the game – I’ll keep going until I just can’t deal with it anymore.

Well, that’s enough of my prattling for the day – time to head out and write some stories to add to my group of characters.  Now that I have my computers stabilized again, its’ time to recreate my MRP stuff too – I wasn’t going to keep rewriting them when every time I turned around the computers would die and I’d have to do it all over again.

 

 

I Hate To Admit When I Am Right…

Written in very cursive script denoting the maturity and education of the author

 

October 3rd

 

Dear Journal,

I am sitting here in my garrison in Draenor after spending a great deal of time in the battle with the demons in the Broken Isles.  I keep shaking my head because I had this gut feeling that something horrendous was going to happen at home while we were away assisting the people of Draenor.  I even mentioned more than once at our meetings that we were forced to attend – no one seemed to think that anything was going to happen at home.  Well, here we are, up to our necks in demons yet again.

The whole time we were fighting demons in Tanaan, didn’t anyone think that someone on the side of the Legion might realize that we had left our homes unguarded while we attended to Draenor.  Of course, I was considered an “old soldier” and that my gut feelings were just that and nothing more – I felt vindicated somewhat when all Hell broke loose, however, that didn’t make me feel better about being right.

These demons are somewhat different, bigger, stronger and definitely more decidedly vicious.  Of course, their leaders have had more time to study us and get their strategy in order.  Being the foolish mortals that we are, we thought that after beating them once and forcing them back into the nether that we were finished with them – silly people.  Oh well, at least I know that I will never suffer the fate of growing old and dying in bed – I will probably die as I have lived.

I know that my thoughts and dreams of having a peaceful Azeroth are pretty much dashed.  I had hoped that once we finished the cleanup here in Draenor that I would be able to head to my home in our Nagrand in Outland with Amyn where we could retire in comfort and peace.  Well, that could still happen if I chose to leave the Horde, lose everything that I own and everything that I have worked for my entire life.

Oh, we had a peaceful time there for a while when we still had the house in Dalaran and our family could live a somewhat normal life even with the faction differences.  Things were peaceful and we could enjoy our family and friends until the event with Theramore happened and Jainia Proudmore went on her rampage.

I still laugh at the memories I have of my life in Dalaran.  Oh, the joys we had there – the friends that are now gone – the parties and the warmth of having a home with my wife and our sons.  I know that some of those people are no longer with us, however, that doesn’t mean I can’t have my memories to cling to for the better times that we all had together.  I also remember the things that happened that weren’t quite so nice and the lifestyle that I used to live that caused so much pain to my family and my beloved wife.  I was trying so hard to live a double life where my Sindorei friends could accept things and in turn, was hurting my wife and sons beyond belief.  Such a selfish man I was back then until I learned what I wanted had always been there with Amyn and the boys.    It was a hard lesson to learn, however, I value what I have now more than anyone could realize.

Your lessons in life can sometimes have a horrible cost attached to them, however, once they are learned, you never repeat the same fallacy again if you’re even remotely intelligent.

I apologize, my mind is wandering quite a bit this morning and that has to do with the fact that I am bone weary and I can’t get the stench of the burnt Fel out of my nostrils.   The stench of burnt Fel and the stench of demon blood is not a combination that will increase your love of battle.  At least with all of this happening back on Azeroth, we are free to travel from Draenor to Azeroth as needed – finally.

Fnor Morningstar