July 28th – OOC – Enjoying Other Things…


July 28th, 2017 

 

Whoa!!  I’ve hardly played any video games for the last week due to the fact that I took a break and did some other things for a change.  I don’t normally watch streamers; however, this week has been the exception and did one all last weekend for a worthy charity organization or it seemed worthy in my opinion. 

I do come from a long line of military folks and law enforcement people that I have very big respect for because without them doing their part, I probably wouldn’t be able to have the life that I have today.  No, I didn’t serve in the military, however, I did support the effort in any way that I could. 

I watch a 36-hour stream for “Operation Supply Drop” that was put on by Wargames on their World of Tanks.  It was a rousing good time and definitely was international in its presentation as well as raising money for the support of all military folks.   The money raised was going to people that were deployed away from their families as well as those making the transition back to civilian life.  I know that it sounds silly to some, however, they setup people with a means to enjoy things on computers as well as giving them the ability to escape their current reality for a while.   It is being used to help eliminate some of the mental stress and depression that some of the folks go through.   If you want more information in regard to the organization, please give it a Goggle and enjoy some of the videos from the latest event. 

I know that it is supposed to be the edgy people out there that are quitting tobacco and switching over to vaping.  I haven’t had a cigarette for the better part of two years now and went from a 2 pack a day habit to zero with vaping, so, I’ve been doing some research on that as well.   I know that there are probably some health issues with vaping and there are reasons not to do it, however, I would much rather have my house and clothes smell like my vapes than cigarette smoke.   Found a shop here in Colorado that has met all of my needs – my needs are pretty simple since I don’t drive much these days – I needed a mail service that wouldn’t cost as much as the product and these folks fit the bill nicely.  

Oh, this is also, Shark Week!!!  I know I am the worst fan for watching anything and everything involving sharks. So, when I haven’t been watching streaming, I’ve been watching Sharks.  I’ll admit that it really does make me homesick for the saltwater and I know that I will probably never set eyes on that much water again in my lifetime, I still love it.   My spouse really isn’t into the water thing and sharks, so, we usually spend this week separated into different parts of the house.  We’ve been married for so many years now that it doesn’t bother us to take a break from each other now and again. 

I’ll probably get back into the routine with World of Warcraft this weekend and try to tell myself that I am not bored out of my gourd with Legion, yet.  I still enjoy the game.  However, this is the first time that I would much rather do something else for a while.  I think you call it burnout after twelve years of playing almost daily. Not to mention, I’m just enjoying myself with other things for the time being in hopes that I can renew my interest in the game.  

July 19th – Family…Sisters are hard to figure out


Written in very cursive script denoting the maturity and education of the author

 

July 19th

 

Dear Journal,

There are times when I wonder how or why I spent most of my life trying to raise my two sisters correctly.  Obviously, I wasn’t too successful with Felaran because she had already been turned to serve the Lich King. 

It was a long drawn out process and I spent a very long time looking for her and found her in Outland. Of course, she really didn’t recall her past and she didn’t truly remember me, however, I did convince her to come with me to Dalaran to live.  Her connections to the Lich King had been severed and she had followed a group of other Death Knights to Outland because she didn’t know of anything else to do. Yes, she was a killing machine and a certain part of her will always remain as such, however, she has learned how to control herself over the years.  Her memories have returned and she does remember a lot of the things that happened to her when she was younger.  Some people may not remember that there were times when Death Knights were not welcomed in any of our cities even though they had broken away from the Lich King – people just remembered what they were used for all those years.

What I am concerned about some of the things that have been going on with my youngest sister, Faendra.   She has always had strange obsession with Dawnglory ever since she realized that there were differences between little girls, boys and then, grown men.   I don’t know if it’s psychological thing where she has a fixation on him because of her growing up without our parents.  Sure, he has always been a handsome devil and I think that has a lot to do with it as well as being one of the most charming fellow when it comes to the females of our race.  He was quite the womanizer and I did tell him to stay away from my sisters for that reason – I didn’t want to endanger our friendship and I didn’t want to have my sisters hurt.  I didn’t have to worry about Fel, however, Faendra really has always been a bit of an airhead.

I have tried to arrange a marriage for her and she ran away from home.  So, she ruined her reputation in Silvermoon City and hurt her social standing for a while.  However, enough money in the proper areas and that sort of thing is soon forgotten.  I was trying to make her life easier for her and to try to make her happy with her life and it seems I have utterly failed.  I wanted to give her the life that we would have never had with our parents, they were good people and they were trades people and we never lacked for anything that we needed.  I have been fortunate enough in my life to make some good decisions professionally and in business.

I know that I have told Dawnglory to stop going to the farm in Pandaria and stay in Silvermoon when he’s not in Draenor or up with the rest of us on the Isle.  Since Fae has decided to act rather predatory about him since Romy and the children are still missing, I needed to give the poor man some sort of haven and I’m sure that Agatha will make sure he is comfortable and protected when he is staying at the main house there. 

Now, I need to get in touch with Faendra and find out what she is up too or at least let her know that I know about some of her antics.  I hope that she hasn’t done anything that I can’t fix or at least get some control over.  Part of me wants to buy her out of the Rangers and put her back in Orgrimmar, however, that wouldn’t be fair to the other employees there.  Amyn and I have argued about this.  I must agree with her and let Dawnglory and Fae work this out – they are supposedly both adults.

 

Fnor Morningstar

 

July 8th – Life Goes On…Right?


*Remember that this particular character is pretty outspoken and has no filter on his language – might be a few words in here that are not fit for people to read that are easily offended. *

 

 

July 8th

 

Yo Book!!

I knew that I was fucking getting run-down and didn’t feel like my normal self, however, I didn’t realize what real exhaustion can do to you sometimes.  I know that I have been burning the candle at both ends and trying to cure some of that with imbibing in more alcohol than I should.  Now, I’ve been fucking told that I had better knock that nonsense off if I plan on living long enough to find Romy and the kids.  I know that I have felt like there is never going to be an end to this and I will spend the rest of my living days searching for my wife and children.

Yes, I fucking said the word – WIFE.  My intent when I got home from Draenor was to take her to a magistrate or to one of the monks in Pandaria and for us to get married.  Yes, that legal and binding thing that people do when they love one another with their entire being. Well, that got shot to Hell and Gone when I got back and she was missing.  In my mind and in my heart, we’re already married and have been since the day we met – I wasn’t just smitten with her physical beauty, I was smitten with her soul and her sheer love of life. Yeah, I know it’s stupid, however, I do believe in “love at first sight” because it has happened to me and I have lost all interest in other women – that was quite a shock in the womanizer that I used to be. To say that I was experienced is an understatement – I had gone on some rough mileage at times.

What brought this outburst on, you might ask?  Well, I was talking with Fnor and he mentioned that I looked a little tired and maybe I should just take some time off.  I did tell him about the way that his sister was acting with me again and that set him off on temper tantrum that seemed to be more than just his usual outburst.  I told him about her comments and the way that she had acted very recently which just made him angrier at her.  There are days that I ask myself “why me?” I do try to keep going and try to overlook a lot of her overtures’ that had ceased for a while, however, with Romy out of the picture, she is on me as a target once again.

I have known Faendra since she was a kid. Hell, she and my sister, Felessa, were best friends until she started chasing after me like a bitch in heat.  I know that this has been going on for years and has caused Fnor and I some major problems, however, it has not interfered with our friendship.  There are times when I wonder if Fnor isn’t all that bright when it comes to females and how dangerous they can be – with his experiences, he should have clue by now.

I know that Jongu has mentioned to me that he doesn’t like that other Blood Elf female that comes by the house sometimes.  He said she isn’t nice to him and thinks that she has sneaky streak and might steal things when I’m not there and he is busy doing other things.  Hmmm, that’s unusual for Jongu because he’s always liked everyone to my knowledge.  I wonder what he was hinting at, he’s a strange fellow and I like having him around and he works cheap since I told him he can sell his chicken and dumplings at the market.  I know we are still having that problem with the chickens dropping dead at the farm every once in a while, – we have still not figured out what is up with that, however, it doesn’t seem to cause any issues when we eat them.  Oh well, I’ll just keep my eyes out for that little bitch.

While I was talking with Fnor, a weird thing happened.  I either passed out or I fainted and I woke up with a healer standing over me and shaking her head.  She said I was suffering from exhaustion and that my body was showing some signs of trouble from my drinking.  Well, that wasn’t a real surprise to me, I know I have been drinking quite a bit.  She also told me that I was talking while I was out and crying – my emotions seemed more than a little bit raw. 

The weird thing that happened was I was talking and I heard my daughter’s voice like she was standing there with Fnor and I.  I felt my heart give a lurch when I heard the voice and I passed out.  How can she be here and not here?  I know that I still have a chill when I think about it, I don’t want to think that she is in the afterlife and it was her spirit talking to me – she can’t be dead and neither can Romy and my son be dead.  I won’t believe it, I refuse to believe.  Anyway, long story short, she told me to take some time off and possibly get out of Pandaria for a while and go back to the Eastern Kingdoms, get some rest and see if I can’t quieten my mind some.

I told Fnor what the healer had told me and he told me to go back to Silvermoon and stay at the house there for a while.  He would get in touch with Agatha to let her know that I was coming and to make sure that she keeps Faendra away from me if she should show up.  So, I am going to take the advice and take some time off, drop the letter from the healer off in Orgrimmar and go home for a while to Silvermoon.

 

Fnar Dawnglory

 

 

 

OOC – Birthdays & Anniversaries


July 1st 2017

 

Sorry for another OOC post, however, today is kind of special in a lot of ways.  Today is my spouse’s birthday and it is also a couple of anniversaries for me.  I know better than to put out the age too, I’m the older one of the two of us, so, that’s not gonna happen.

July 1st 2005 was my first date of actually playing World of Warcraft and if you want to get right down to the time, I think it was about 3:00 p.m.  Spouse was going out clubbing and I as planning on staying at home and get into this new game.  LOL, should have gone clubbing because here I am all of these years later, playing the game. Wedding Anniversary is next month, so, that’s another milestone.  Odd how they all kind of clump together, isn’t it?

Another anniversary of sorts also just smacked me with WordPress and that is that I have been blogging on here for five years.  Not so much writing during the past couple of years, however, I have tried to keep up with everyone that I have been following all of this time.  I enjoy the blogs and enjoy the people that utilize WP with some of their writing as well as some of the terrific creativity, crafting and just general sharing of information.

I spent some time last night cruising around on the forums in search of old guilds and such that I have been affiliated with in the past and perchance, seeing some of my old friends out there still posting – not a thing did I find that might ring a bell as far as names or even references.   Oh well, that’s okay, I’ll keep going and make some new friends out there too.

 

Still Searching…Frustrating…


June 28th

Yo Book!!

I know that I have spent way too much fucking time just trying to find Romy and the children.  I wonder if my feelings are wrong and I won’t be able to find them – ever.  The thought of giving up on finding them is breaking my heart and my mind just doesn’t want to believe that they have just fucking disappeared forever.  My love, my daughter and the son I’ve never seen – how can this be?

I have worked my ass off for the Horde and I keep getting sent away to places that I could care less about than where my would-be wife and children are.  Every time I feel like I am making some progress on my search, I get recalled to that stupid Garrison in Draenor or they expect me to head to the Broken Shore with my men.  No, I don’t want to go, I want to find my family and then I can spend my time with them and then attend to my duties.  My family must take the priority in my life.  Fuck the reigning parties at this point, The Banshee Queen as the Warchief?  How can that be?  The most evil of all women and she is going to lead the Horde to its own destruction.   I’m still following the orders that I get from the Regent Lord and obeying the pledge that I gave for my people, however, this new regime is not to my personal liking at all.

It’s been months since my family disappeared and all we have are a little shoe that belonged to my son and the rumors that there may have been some survivors at the crash site of the Zep, however, where did they go?  Did they get some medical attention?  Have the left the area or are they being held prisoner by someone?  So many questions unanswered.

I looked in the mirror this morning and saw myself and can tell that this worrying and stress has taken a toll on me physically.  Too much drinking and too much depression has left its mark and it will be a while before that goes away, I’m sure.  At least I don’t have any gray hair showing in my hair yet, that would be a definite worry for me because I have always been vain about my appearance.  Yes, I do need to start thinking about other things and trying to rebuild some of my life instead of just living it one day at a time.

I am going to have to take my life in hand and try to get on with something normal.  I can’t just keep hoping that they will all turn up and things will be as they once were.  That never happens, we can’t erase the time that has gone by and I can’t step back into the lives of my children when they probably don’t even remember what I look like – my son has never seen me, so, the little fellow would have no clue as to whom I might be.  Has Romy survived this and has she gotten on with her life or is she still trying to come back to me – I don’t know.  In my heart, I want her back so badly that it is almost painful to dwell on it so much.   That red hair, those lovely arms that held me so tightly and the kisses that would make any man swoon with desire.  I truly had never known the passion that this one woman could arouse in me and she was the only one that ever pulled me to that level – I miss her voice, that lilting laughter, that quick wit. Just the sheer longing for her causes me such emotional and physical pain that I can hardly manage it.

No, I have not been with another woman and haven’t been with anyone for over a year and my libido is sadly missing at this point.  Now, I have another problem.  It appears Faendra Morningstar has decided in her infinite wisdom that Romy is never coming back and that I should take her as my wife. That is never going to happen, even if there were a remote possibility of it happening.  She is truly making a pest of herself.

I have decided that I will leave Pandaria, the farm will be taken care of by my friends and I will try to stay in Orgrimmar for a while or even Silvermoon.  At least Faendra will not have easy access to my person if I am in either of those places.   Of course, there is always my Garrison to hide out in, however, I do dislike freezing my ass off every time the wind blows.  I just can’t afford to have any mishaps or other distractions until I can get my life back under control.

Fnar Dawnglory

OOC – June 27th … Why Do You Do That?


June 27th, 2017

LOL had some physical issues that kept me from playing World of Warcraft for a couple of days and when I did – where do I start again?  I do know that I have a few characters out roaming about and I still play the majority of them to get inspired about writing again, however, that doesn’t work sometimes and this was one of those times.  I also go through phases sometimes when I have the double-kicker of getting depressed at the same time that I am physically not feeling well.

I know part of my problem is not getting out and actually interacting with RL people doesn’t help a whole lot, however, being a caregiver for someone that is disabled does make it rather challenging sometimes to be able to do that sort of thing.   Part of my depression stems from the fact that I know that things aren’t going to change in RL and that the majority of the people that I used to play with in-game are not longer playing and apparently have no intentions of coming back.  Oh well, that’s life with the gaming world and I am going to have to accept it.

I am probably a terrible gamer, however, I enjoy what I do and since I tend to do things solo, I enjoy things for what they are – strictly entertainment and not a career building endeavor. I love the fantasy of gaming and the escape from reality – there are times when it’s not so easy to escape the reality that time is passing and I’m not getting any younger either.  In my mind, I’m still Peter Pan with Tinkerbell, however, looking at my body, I know better than that.  Gravity does bad things to your body when you age and you can’t ignore it.

It has been rather peculiar that I am finding myself being drawn more to the Old Content in-game due to the storylines and to the gaming itself.  I love the Lore of the game although it has been botched up so many times now that I am getting “anything goes” out of it a lot of the time.  It’s much easier to get lost and channeled in the fantasy world when you are actually enjoying what you’re doing – I’m not enjoying a lot of the Legion stuff because there is a ton of it to do and there is no point to it when you already know that you aren’t going to get to finish it  – the only place I can’t fly is in Legion, too many hoops and I just don’t feel like playing that way.

Still love the game and the people in it, however, I might take a hiatus here in the near future because it does seem as though I am getting to the point that I don’t want to log in if I feel like I have to play on the Broken Shore.  I have had fun with it when I do get in there for awhile and then I have to take a break from it because it becomes too tedious.  I was the same way in Draenor for a while too because I was late getting my flying there as well, took freaking forever.

The only choice we have been given in the last two expansions is to do the Pathfinder requirements – I usually get kissed when I have sex, however, since I’m paying for it – seems like I just got screwed.  Legion is definitely going to be my last expansion and I have plenty of characters to keep me busy for the rest of my natural life.

Okay, time to put forth some effort in my writing and get on with the show, if I play my way and immerse myself in my characters’ “lives” I might stick with it a bit longer.  I used to enjoy writing quite a bit even if it is all drabble and nonsense – I’m not a professional writer and I just write for the fun of it, if I had any intentions of earning a living with it, I’ve long since given that up.

See you all in-game and I do apologize for my wandering rant here, it’s a mood thing that will soon pass, I hope.

June 15th, 2017 – OOC – Patch Day and Beyond…


June 15, 2017

I will have to admit that I was looking forward to sitting here and enjoying the game quite a bit more with the advent of the new patch 7.2.5 – well, patch day was more than a little bit exciting than I wanted it to be. Of course, I’ve been kicking around in this game long enough to know that it isn’t always a good day to play when we have patches. I never go into current content on the day of a patch because I know that there will be bugs galore and I heard that I wasn’t too disappointed with that plan either.

Lost my mounts for a time on my main account (the one that has all the achievements coming from it and all the mount collecting) which really set me off on a tizzy until I figured that the patch had changed the filters on my mounts – fixed that and it was on with the show.

I will have to admit, again, that I am totally an altoholic and love playing my lower levels, not in a big rush to hit end-game at all. I rushed quickly to the Under City and got my heirlooms all maxed out. Even did the weapons to be on the safe side and had been saving my gold up for said purchases since they mentioned the upgrades in a Q&A. I love my heirlooms because it allows me to have the time to level up at a good clip and not worry about my professions nearly as much. Yes, my big guys do make stuff for the little guys, however, I don’t mind going back and farming for mats on the little ones either. I’m weird that way because I enjoy running around on my hunters and doing the hunter thing.

Discovered that there had been a bug with World Quests and went in this morning and found that I finally had them showing on my Alliance alt. Why I have been holding back on running any other characters around on the Shore until I was able to figure things out a bit more. I hadn’t been able to do archeology of any relevance on the same alt too because it would not show up on the map – now it does. Weird bugs that have been plaguing me since I started playing the Legion content. Too bad that there isn’t a real “guide” on what you need to do with this expansion because I’ll willingly admit that I have spent a great deal of time trying to figure things out – that isn’t nearly as much fun as actually getting play the game through.

Still no flying for me yet in Legion because I have been dragging my feet and going at a snail’s pace due to mechanical malfunctions with my computers as well as not feeling well physically. Now, I can move along and do what I want to do and just take my time. So far, my intent is to finish up my gaming career with Legion unless they come up with a super awesome expansion for the next one. Legion started out pretty good and has dwindled off to the RNG gods too much and I just run around and do things hoping that I will be able to better equip my characters – no luck for me on getting any of the goodies that everyone has been raving about. I’m not complaining about the fact that I haven’t played enough to get even one of the Legendary items, however, it does seem like I am wasting a lot of my precious time trying. I don’t like the amount of RNG for everything in the game – glad that it doesn’t control my bathroom privileges because we might have real issues then too.

With the Summer kicking in, finally, I don’t know how much time I will be spending in front of my computer because I enjoy being outside without looking like the little kid from “Christmas Story” where he is all bundled up in his Michelin Man winter clothing. If it’s too hot, I don’t go out there and stay in the A/C as much as possible although my loft where all my computers and drawing materials are located gets a bit toasty because of the skylights. Hehe, love the natural light, don’t like the heat.